beckylo’s kickbutt bodyblog…..

This blog is really how I feel about being an overweight, out of shape person…..and  ultimately the way I feel is what is motivating me to change my body and my life.  I am tired of being tired all of the time.  My body hurts, I have constant headaches…my neck and shoulders are so tense, the extra weight on my frame weighs on my bones…it makes my joints ache.  My skin looks worse now then it did when I was a teenager.  My hair is brittle, my nails constantly break.  Years of unhealthy food and minmal exercise are taking their toll…I look terrible….not as good as I should…..you could look at me and tell I am not healthy.  My stomach feels terrible….it is trying to tell me to stop with all the junky food that I put in it.  I hate that my clothes are so tight an uncomfortable…inside of me is a healthy beautiful woman screaming….no dying to get out….that is what will happen if I don’t stick with this, if I don’t keep going until I am healthy.  I have potential….my unhealthy body is holding me back…I dont’ participate in life because….I am tired….I feel like crap….I am uncomfortable….I am self conscious….because I am in physical pain…..when you look good you feel good….and I don’t feel too good lately.  This body is holding my back….and I am sick of it…I am sick of the way processed food makes me feel…I want to be healthy because it feels good…because it means I will have energy….I am slowly getting there.  But years of mistreating this body cannot be changed overnight.  I want to live….not just exist…..I WANT TO CHANGE, TO TRANSFORM and with God’s help I will do just that….I am determined to be healthy!!!!  I am fed up with being jealous of trim and fit women…I am the only person holding me back.  I will be one of those women…I am going to be confident in my body……I am determined to transform.  Not just my body…but the inside of me…the part of me that has said for many years that I cannot do it….I am done listening to that voice, that voice will be destroyed and I only want to hear myself say that I CAN DO IT!!!!!

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