I Just Don’t Know….
I don’t know what is wrong with me…… I’m so miserable…. I just never think I’m good enough, feel fat, unhappy, lonely, depressed. I don’t even like to do things cause i’m so unhappy with my body. I want to lose this body fat!!! I HATE IT!!! Its so hard being alone, far away from your family and friends, my life that is. But then I think to myself, why am I unhappy…..??? I have it made down here, making good money, saving tons, have a awesome schedule, love the Texas Weather, kidless, and a boyfriend that really loves me back home!! Most everyone my age have kids and can’t do the things I want to do. Then again, I never want to do anything……. cause I’m not happy with myself. Does anyone else feel this way, or am I strange or what…? It sucks, wish I would change, really, its a problem, I hate it. I’m so alone all the time, I find myself eatting. Does anyone know of any good appitite controller…..??? HELP!!!
June 1, 2009 at 9:08 am
The way you write it sounds like you must be some kind of giant obese women but I look at you photos and see a very pretty lady. You know I don’t have the answers, I often feel this way too. I think I sometimes eat and because I just feel like there’s no real point… "I’ll never be any better than I am now… " But that’s not true.
You do have the willpower to do this. Don’t punish yourself by overeating. You’re a lovely woman and if you want to lose a few little pounds of fat you will do it.
I just keep telling myself this.
*hang in there*
June 1, 2009 at 9:08 am
Becky you are a BEAUTIFUL woman….sexy beyond words. But my telling you that, or anyone else for that matter, is pointless until YOU tell yourself that. You are unique, and singularly you. Revel in that, and in being the best you that you can. Give yourself room to fail, knowing that it just sets you up for greater success. Your not strange, and virtually everyone here who invests time, and energy, and sacrifice in their body does so to some degree because they are afraid….afraid of having to look themselves in the mirror. We all see our faults before our strengths…although no one else does! You CAN change….but only you can change. Happiness is a choice, make it. It’s really that simple! Best of luck, and if you ever want to chat, just shoot me an email!
June 1, 2009 at 9:10 am
Holy crap chica…. first off you’re gorgeous so stop fretting.. Second, you’re supported by this awesome community who is here to help.
I think what might help is something to get you excited, a goal to work towards to keep you motivated, like a competition, or a class reunion where you’re determined to rock the house - know what I mean?
Also, recognize that the occaisional overindulgence will happen! You’re human, not a machine! Look at me… think after losing all this weight, I didn’t have a treat somewhere along the way? Of course I did - but stayed the course and didn’t let that set me back, or worse, stop me.
ALSO - not sure why you’re alone - away on business I assume… then GET OUT and make friends while you’re there, surround yourself with positive people who have the same interests (or, find at least one anyway - maybe at the gym??) and keep your mind occupied.
I think that’s the biggest thing to overcome… is our own psyche…. seriously… it’s something I had to learn. To break out of what I know and do something out of my comfort zone.
If you always do what you’ve always done, you’ll always get what you’ve always gotten.
Just the ramblings of a (formerly) fat and drepressed gal who broke out it.
Lemme know how you do sweetie!
June 1, 2009 at 9:12 am
believe it or not, many people feel that way. I just try to deal the best way i can by trying to think as positively as i can, even when i feel negative. Remember, tough people last longer than tough times.
July 14, 2009 at 11:35 pm
you know you are one good looking woman you have nothing to be depressed about i knwo it must be tough being alone and all but you have everything going for you a good job and the motivation to work and transform your body the way you want there should be nothing that you should be sad about.