beckiboo1979’s BodyBlog

Where to even start….. I’m hoping that writing this blog will help to remind me of my reason "why" and give me a little motivation to do what I was soooooo dedicated to doing in 2006.

I have ALWAYS been a kinda curvy gal….. always stayed around a  size 10/12…..never "fat" though….pretty fit…BUT  after 2 kids and birth control … I just started packing on the weight without even realizing it.  I stopped wearing jeans and anything that buttoned….. THE BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE!!!!! My hubby constantly told me he didn’t care about how much I weighed and that he loved me no matter what… so what was the point of caring what I weighed……. It didn’t matter to me…… I didn’t EVER get on the scale…. so when I finally went to buy pants for a wedding in the Fall of 2005, I had to get a size 20.. .I almost DIED. The next month we went on a family vacation to Florida and we went to Sea World and Disney….. and I couldn’t fit in some of the seats for the rides… it was humiliating and SUCH a wake-up call. I was soo depressed…. Here I was 26 and FAT and unhappy, completely unhappy and embarrassed and it was all my fault…. because I was to lazy to do anything.

So when January 2006 came - and my bff told me she was getting married in 6 months and I had to wear a candy apple red dress……. it was time for a change. I got involved in a Fit Club Challenge through a Gold’s Gym that a radio station near me paid for.. I was selected outs 1,000s of  people to be 1 of 97……. and I got my ass in gear and worked harder then I ever have in my entire life…. and I was a size 14 by June and lost 45 pounds…. 25 pounds of that was from playing racquetball 4 times  week…. up to 2 hours a day I stayed busy all year - constantly weighing myself making sure I was still losing weight… I went from 270 to 210 by September - and then… .I got stuck….. no matter what I did the scale didn’t budge…. so I started to get annoyed…. and I stopped trying so hard… and I ended up losing my mind and gaining 10 pounds back when I had a fallout with one of my best friends, a guy, who was my motivation, mentor, workout buddy, trainer - on my ass ,go-to guy…….. I lost my DRIVE! and I started not to care again, ALTHOUGH I will NEVER let myself get to the point that I was at weight wise or mindwise…. but….  NOW I’m need to get serious cause I’m not getting any younger and I need to lose 50 more pounds AT LEAST this year…. any tips or advice is greatly appreciated… because this time I’m not sure where to start again!