What is that saying again, patience is a virtue?
RIGHT… a virtue my hiney! So I just finished out my finals.. the last month has been incredibly stressful …wait, wait well since January my life has been chaos.. most of it self brought BUT some not so much. I’ve been going 7 days a week since January.. school, work, or both on any given day.. on top of being a mom and trying to take care of myself..not to mention my amazing puppydog, Jonah.
The last month or so has been especially hard.. major final projects due, finals, moved this past weeked (yep, 3 days before my finals), I had some health scares.. for a moment my docs thought my cervical cancer was back.. (this alone was enough stress) AND to top it off my beautiful, sweet little 7 yr old daughter has begun saying "WHATEVER!" to me.. yeah, who the hell and what the hell? I certainly dont remember entering into the rebellious stage at 7!?!?! [Thats right, Im whining… so just let me have my glorious 5 minutes then I will go back to being quiet about it]
Anyway, with stress and busy I noticed little things.. I didn’t have the time to prep meals like I use to do 2 days a week.. so I was eating out a lot.. in my defense I always (well, almost always) went for the better choices.. if McDonalds was the only option I went with the grilled chicken sandwhich no mayo and a side salad with balsamic vinegarette and water.. but even when you are trying to go for lean there is TONS of salt.. Then when my schedule got all switched around on me.. where I worked nights have the week and then went to school and worked days the other half I wouldnt get enough sleep.. and let me tell you sleep affects me in a major way.. my whole world looks different. I dont eat well, I dont have workouts, I am a cranky woman! SO where I am going with all this confession is this.. my diet needs to be cleaned up in a major way! I know compared to the average American’s diet mine is still pretty decent BUT its certainly not to the standards at which I once held myself.. and I feel it, I see it and I dont like it.
Here I am today.. day one. I think I am going to run gung-ho back into action full out clean eating, happy attitude, strong workout.. and well, it just didnt go as well as planned. Expecting perfection is ridiculus but I do. And instant, overnight.. That is the impatient part lurking out.. Today still not enough sleep but I did get in an hour bi/tri workout but lamed out when it came time for cardio.. and I ate clean until nightfall came.. Why is it I am such a perfectionist.. why is it I can tell clients not to expect perfection of themselves and their habits overnight but I turn right around and expect it of myself?
What are realistic self standards???
May 7, 2009 at 8:55 pm
baby steps in the begining will feel good in the end. so put ur goals in reach. weak by weak if u must
May 8, 2009 at 8:20 am
Well you have alot on your plate so to speak lol. I’ve found cooking a bunch of meat on sundays and sometimes wednesdays helps. It’s easier to heat things up then have to cook meals from scratch each time. Best of luck to you! Being a perfectionist shouldn’t be a weakness.