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Well today I decided its time to return to heavy weights… since the beginning of September I have been going light weight/high reps due to the transition from an actual gym to an at home gym. I saw great progress for about 6 weeks but then I noticed the progress was slowing down and I wasnt making the leaps and bounds I had before..

 Giving that I looked at a calendar today and that it really sank in I am shooting for the teeny weeny bikini by Feb 2008 (mid month) which is really only about 3 months away.. I do not have all the time in the world here… well I could probably use my divorce paperwork as an excuse for slacking the past 3 weeks or stress but instead I am going to take the cake and say its because I was lazy. Instead of using all of the emotion I was feeling and putting it into working out…I pretty much sat and wallowed (and ate a bunch of chocolate)…

No more, that chapter is done! It is really time to move towards my goal.. I want that teeny weeny bikini by Feb!!! I sat down last night and ;looked at my progress journal I have kept over the past 6 months and decided its time to return to heavy weights for a bit. Also, its back to a squeaky clean diet! I think over the next 3 months I will be using 4-6 weeks to cycle heavy weights while doing pilates and yoga to lengthen muscles… then I will cycle out low weights/high reps.

Well today I hit heavy weights and I am already sore… I had an amazing day of clean eating and after work its walking the dog and pilates for me.

I finally feel like "me" has returned. The pressure and stress in my life latley had thrown me for a minute but I finally figured out all I have to do is get back up 1 time… only 1 time…(thank you to my obsession of the Rocky movies for teaching me this).

I am sleeping again, really busting my butt to get back on track with eating 6 times a day and making the best possible food choices throughout the day (no more chocolate for me!). I managed to get up and work out yesterday and today after work I am going to run a couple of miles. I am getting "me" back. Only this time "me" is new and improved.

No more excuses, no more letting the emotions surrounding day to day life get in the way. Its time to achieve what I want! Its time to really smile again because "I did it".

Here we go!~

Ok so here it goes…. all of my final divorce paperwork is getting finalized FINALLY!!! Its been a rough road… started a couple of weeks ago and at the moment I am in the midst of it. I am so off with sleeping, eating and training… I am so out of routine and just trying to deal with everything at the moment..

 Part of me says to push myself back into my routines but the other half of me says to take it easy- let this pass then get on with it..

Anyway, I just felt the need to put it out there