Tressa’s BodyBlog

I have been doing nothing but celebrating my victory!! hehe… I’ve only done 45 mins of cardio on Monday, that was my RPM class.  I’ve been eating all those yummy delicious foods I’ve been missing & craving and each time I get really full and a pain in my side, I seriously feel sick from them, WTF   I’m kinda saddened by this because I loved "the junk" and at the same time joyful as I hope dieting a second time around will be easier and eventually a lifestyle… I feel bloated, lazy, and tired and I don’t like feeling that way.  Even though I was run down by cardio, cardio and more cardio - I can now see the diet playing a role in my strength and energy levels.  The best part is how diet can change the body and how efficient it becomes, I hope this is a lesson learned!!  So Thurs/Friday I will start dieting again…. I have to grocery shop first and tomorrow is Halloween so I am dressing up and going out, once again enjoying myself but NOT going crazy.  I hope everyone here stays safe!

On another note… I was thinking about changing trainers.  I just pondered the fact that I might do better with someone else as my guide or maybe not because I really wasn’t as strict as I could’ve been and could I even be with this new one?  As the new one sounds stricter- like zero carbs for 12 weeks strict!!!  I don’t even know how ‘healthy’ that would be??!  I’m just curious to see a different approach and if my body would respond different or quicker.  Anyway, this was something I was wondering, on the other hand I love my trainer and do have faith in him as he has gotten me this far and I have a sense of commitment to him and would love to work with him in the future if possible.. so what am i to do?  If I were to switch- how do you break the news?  What’s best- wait and see after another competition?

My goal next time is to be more dedicated and focused and realize that the day will come to stand up there- so how ready will I be?  I want to be overly ready!!!

So where to go from here??  Anyone also know of any natural shows coming up in a few months or Spring 08′ in the NY, PA, NJ, MA areas???  Let me know!  But i’ll be doing my research.  Thanks!!!

~ Tress

OMG does the day fly by… had great fun, the girls were nice… but politics definitely play a roll!  I need to work on posing and I think, grow my hair!!  hehe… be more of your typical long haired bikini model type?!  I accomplished my goal, rocked it the best i could have done at this point, took home a trophy, ate a great meal- which then gave me the hugest pain in my side and crashed right when i got home.  Exhausting, but wow- diet and all that is really really worth it all!  Not just for comp but in life, it’s awesome- I’m hooked!!  More shows to come…. Someone told me I should do Monster Mash in MASS next weekend… I don’t know if I want to do one so soon!!  AH well, here’s some more great pics.. I’ll have some professional ones in a week or so.

xox Tress

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YOU ARISE FROM YOUR BED
AS A NEW DAY BEGINS
THINKING OF THE COMPETITION
REALLY HOPING YOU CAN WIN

ALAS THE COMPETITION HAS ENDED
FUN WAS HAD BY ALL AROUND
YOU ARE ONE OF THE LUCKY ONES
A TROPHY IN HAND AND HOMEWARD BOUND

from Teresa’s myspace 

So today I do cardio only & get my nails done.  I will probably go shopping for last minute things I should pack so Friday I can pretty much relax!!…  Besides the 2nd round of spray tan and polygraph.  My bro is here for the event, very cool!  I’ve been waiting for this day to come and it’s almost here now!

Mind Conditioning Video

Holy!!! This is soooo coool, I had to share!!!  Does this kinda stuff actually work??!  I’m still skeptical but I do think, the mind is such a powerful thing.. and you really have to control it or it CAN control you!

Full article by my trainer, here.

to me last night was SLEEP!!!  haha.  I took BodyAttack for my 2nd dose of cardio, planned on coming home to do more…. but it was late and I just wanted to rest….. I fell asleep watching TV at like 9 pm!!   Didn’t even go the whole jammy route, I didn’t know I was THAT tired!  well, I missed my b4 bed shake…. errr, now what?  Do I forget about it or try making it up somewhere- add an extra meal if say I have breakfast early?  I am off today so I think I’m going to enjoy my morning, have breakfast- shower before the gym… do my workout, which again is a combo of different exercises, the last chance refinement touches..haha  I am debating whether or not to get my cardio done at the gym or go to the park and run.  I love being outdoors esp. since I work inside all day, and that bites when weekend weather is crappy!  I think it’s gonna rain if it’s not already… Gotta get spray tanned and take more pics later, I’m down to 116- don’t know how that happened!  I guess when you stop stressing, it shows!!  Yea, I had a lil’ cheat last night too and I said WHO CARES, I don’t!  I’m still working my butt off, SO WHAT!  Ahhhh, felt great to have that attitude.   I gotta make a list of lil odds and ends I still need to get from the store and do my packing… probably will do that Thurs or Friday.  Later, I want to practice my walk and posing, right now I’m trying to figure out… how I go from center to left stage and turn in so I face the middle and I show my right side, what’s the best way to turn?  I guess 1/2 turn?  To anyone whose competed what are some tricks you do to keep your nerves at bay??  I mean, I teach in front of people at the gym but that’s different cause I know what I’m doing and I’m not wearing as skimpy of an outfit!  I don’t want to walk out there and look at one of the judges and start wondering what he’s picking apart and then myself- fall apart?  hahahah I guess I can’t worry about this stuff.  My motto has always been "Whatever it is, it is".  So be it.  Fate, destiny, yeah it’s not in my hands so why fear.

NO FEAR.

A new start!  4:30 am, getting my things together to head to the gym in a bit… gonna weight train this morn, do cardio later - I think my body likes it better that way, responds best to it…. that’s where I saw all that change that week!   Thank goodness I work today and I’m off W-F!

Update: Had a great workout!  I am hitting a lot of body parts in one workout this week… Did some shoulders, chest, legs, bis & tris this morn… & 20 mins on the crossramp, 2 miles.. 235 cals burned.  Gonna try to make it to a BodyAttack class later for more cardio, then cardio it at home too during The Biggest Loser!  Love the words to the intro song, "What have you done today to make you feel proud???" 

This journal is such sweet release!!!  I was such a PMSing girl today and that time is over with for now, WTF was wrong with me today….crying??!  Why??!  Because my trainer wants me down in weight, cause I hear worry in his voice… UGH!  I’m nervous, stressed, depressed, exhausted as is and I need to hear support, encouragement and I wasn’t getting that!!  Made me feel like a total loser, failure.. that I don’t have enough self control and discipline…. so what does every grown up girl do- CRY!!

Then I saw my man and he reminded me of how far I’ve come and how beautiful I was even then.  He loves my heart, body- yea.. added bonus but when something becomes no fun anymore and isn’t making me happy, is it worth sacrificing so much?  He’s got a point there…. I mean, this is  A LOT of dedication…. something I did not realize so much until now.  I miss just hanging out, doing whatever… see a movie, yadda yada- no I have to go do more cardio!  It made me change my focus….. this is all a journey and I’ve already won!  And it doesn’t matter what anyone in this world thinks otherwise.  I am gonna walk on stage with confidence and shine, I will NOT be focused on a win, a silly little trophie.  Added bonus, why yes it is… but that’s all.  I know my trainer wants to say he’s got clientèle who are winners but I think I need to tell him straight out how I’m looking at things.  Jeremy put it into perspective for me… any first things we try, aren’t usually the best- but we try, that’s all… a win is cool but I will NOT set myself up for disappointment- NOT then.  Disappointed I was today, Yes.. because I can’t keep my hand out of the candy dish (I am such a little girl…haha)

I am much better now.  I know I am inspiration and motivation for some others and that’s awesome!  The key is trying and not giving up- whatever the goal.  You make it there, you can always make it better.  Sometimes we all need baby steps.. not huge leaps and bounds.  Slow but steady wins the race, right??!

From my good friend, Natasha’s blog:

Achievement:

What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals.

k so I was doing so good with the diet until last night, when i cheated again!  damn, i’m so mad at myself.  i should be chained down at night or something to prevent me from going in the kitchen!  i really should take pics of all the goodies my mom makes, you’d understand?!!   anyway- i did BodyAttack yesterday- 1 hr  cardio plus practiced it- made me sweat so…. then 6.72 miles and 803 cals burned on the elliptical.

now even though i took off wed-fri, i’m considering taking today also… just to get my head straight, get some energy back, prepare some stuff for the week.  just don’t want to work, i want to know i’m doing all i can for this.  ugh, i don’t know what to do!  i suppose i shouldn’t waste my time but i feel guilty, tired.. i still have to teach later, then do a workout so it would be a late night… i just don’t want that.  man, i need a new job!!