baby_girl269’s BodyBlog

A few months ago, I was having problems with staying awake. I mean I have always had problems with it since I was eight but it got wrost. I couldnt stay awake for nothing work, school, driving. Yeah very bad found out I have narcolepsy. So I have been on five different types of medication. Two are working okay for now. But theres a problem Im on adderall which really messed up my stomach i couldnt eat at all. Most of the time I would just plain forget to eat anything the whole day. And on top of that its a stimulant. So I was dropping weight very fast and couldnt eat on top of that. I just now started eatting everyday again. I look horrible you can see my ribs i love having some meat on my bones. And my muscle is no where to be found but on my arms. And im embrassed to say this but my booty has flat!!! I have never had a flat butt. And recently I went on xyrem to take at night. To put me into a deep sleep cause people with narcolepsy dont go into regular deep sleep. But that has me dryed out and gives me acid reflux. So I am all kinds of messed up. I want my heathly body back i havent even stepped on a scale afraid to see the numbers. I hate looking at myself naked I look sick. My clothes dont even fit right, I was embrassed walking around in my favorite pair of jeans because the butt part of my jeans sagged. I know it sounds alittle funny and I joke about it but I hate being this skinny. I want my muscle back. I want to be nice and tone again. Hopefully I can get back there soon cause this just wont work for me.

I cannot believe I messed up all my hard work. I drank sodas and ate too many fatty foods. What was I thinking; but I guess I have to get back up and start where I left off. And just when I felt progress in my mid-section.

Well I going to start doing Two a days. Its going to be hard but I will stick to it. I need to push my self harder so thats what I’m going to do. Wish me luck.