Discipline/Jealousy/Threatened
It has been TOOOOO long since I used to keep up with this invaluable and goal/motivation generating web page. Just wanted to say that I am motivated to get shredded!!
My dad was a former bodybuilder, Mr. Alabama, to be exact. He has ALWAYS told me to pursue my goals for ME, but as of late, my motivation has become to prove OTHER PEOPLE wrong. Specifically, one of my best friend’s families continues to bust my ego (not huge I might add) by saying I’ll never reach my goals. They would tease me while I was bulking for 3 years, "You’ll never get slimmed down and ‘ripped’….that is….whenever you stop deciding to be LARGE." Also, they would tell me I was crazy for letting this be so important to me. Well I have news for them: I bulked up to…let’s say a plump, 230lbs. Now, after being bedridden for a month during the cut cycle due to sickness; taking time off to study for college finals; dealing with family stresses; I can say that I am ready to prove critics and myself wrong. I have never been "ripped" in my life, but that is all about to change! My journey began 1 week ago, and it ends on June 27th. As of now, I am 193lbs (including water retention from creatine and sodium intake).
Something weird bothered me today though. A kid, who is a bit of a punk, shocked me. I used to see him when he first started lifting about 1 year ago, but now, he has changed slightly. When I say slightly, I mean he has big arms now. However, that is about the only thing big on him. He never works out legs or anything. He mainly does chest, arms, and sometimes back. What REALLY bothered me was that his arms seemed BIGGER than mine! Sure I admit it was a bit of jealousy, especially since he kind of shames most serious lifters by only working out arms and chest. Also, my arms, mainly my biceps, have always lagged…..I haven’t measured my arms, but I can just tell that they lag behind….like my lats. I just haven’t found a better way to make then grow, and it angers me that he has bigger arms than me. Oh well…..more motivation I suppose.
The journey continues…
