atray87’s BodyBlog

Good Morning All!! I am not sure of anyone’s political views but last night watching the Democratic National Conventional the message  of CHANGE was brought up continously. It made me think about myself and others that are here on this website making changes in their lives daily.. Let’s not be afraid to change!!! I know it sounds easy but if it was more people would do it!! Don’t let the negativity of the world keep you down and stunt your growth! Remember it is easy to stay the same and we all know the easy way out is not best in the long run!!! With that said have a wonderful loooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggg weekend.. I will and I plan on exercising like crazy while enjoying my weekend with family and friends.

Productivity this week has been grand.. I have worked out so hard with weights and doubled up workouts a few days… I am sore as hell but not hurt or damaged .

I feel renewed today and also I am getting compliments left and right.. I feel confident and I really am glad I got that big cry out earlier this week…. I am a turning into a butterfly

 Peace and Blessings My BB Peeps!!!

Work is picking up.. that is a good thing! I am mastering the morning workouts.. I love them and that gives me a second chance to workout again if I please

So this week so far so good.. make a tiny mistake with my lunch yesterday.. I thought what I ordered was not too bad but who would of known that lemon pepper chicken breast from pei wei would have a gignormous(however you spell it) amount of calories.. at least it was lunch and I was able offset it by eating a protein shake at dinner. So my calorie intake for the day was still around 1600-1800 YAY. Well people around the office are noticing my weight loss so that makes me happy considering my semi meltdown this morning.

I had a emotional cry fest this morning.. kind of freaked the significant other but damn he has transformed his body and looks great.. I found out I weight way more than him like 40lbs more.. he did not believe it!! He is a supportive part in my life and he loves that I am working out again.. he has known me for a long time but did not start dating until 2 years ago.. when I lost all the weight and had so much confidence but he has never ever ever made any comments about my weight gain…he does not even know how much I love him for that!! Back to the emotions.. my weight has been a huge part of my life and I know it should not be but my parents are pretty fit and in shape folks and over the years my dad(sometimes mom) said really mean things when I gained weight.. like calling my legs turkey legs that one was kind of funny  but later on as the weight creeped on he said meaner things… like calling me obese and I was smaller than I am now and saying no man wants a huge women…etc.. and forcing us to exercise when we lived at home!! So these are my issues.. I want to face it now and finally because I think this might have something to do with me losing and gaining and losing and gaining…. 

Okay sorry I got deep but I needed to let it out.. this is website is helping me shed more than weight!!! Have a blessed day yall!!!

I am so sore.. I have not lifted weight like this.. hmm let me think.. EVER!!!!!!!! I woke up again this morning and did back and biceps and 1 mile interval run. There is this machine at La Fitness for the back that I love.. it is kind of akward looking so I will only do this in the morning(less crowded) because your booty kind of pokes out hahahaha . Other than that today with my sister was better.. I was able to talk more and I killed her with the planks.. whohoho who am I kidding I killed myself… tommorrow we are doing cardio only spin class baby!!! Then thurs she has no idea that my boyfriend/personal trainer in training/workout freak will be making a guest appearance to help us brewhahahahahahahaha(evil voice).

So my new plan.. since my weekends I indulge.. I think that I will have to do cardio all weekend to offset the badness until I can get more willpower to do better especially this long labor day weekend coming up. I do so well sun-thurs but friday/sat are so bad… I will give myself some credit and say that they are getting better. I have a huge confession.. I use to go to costco and get this hagen daas ice cream bar dipped in fresh chocolate and then rollled with almonds and I would top it off with a huge slice of cheese pizza… ok shhhhhh don’t tell anyone!!! Hope all is well I gotta get to work now Peace!!

I was bad so bad… I planned for friday to be bad but not sat…ugh!!!! I had family in town for my granny’s 87th birthday so we had dinner, cake etc…. I did not workout all weekend!!! The reggae party went well.. I drank but I danced way more than I drank so it was kind of a workout…. they played my favorite music called soca.. which is super fast so I was moving at double time !!! Other than that I worked out this morning with my sister a couple of issues but hey she is the way she is and I am the way I am I just want her to push herself so we will see how the next two weeks are.. maybe oh maybe I can get her to go to bootcamp with me . I will also work out this evening… It was a light workout this morning so a good evening run might help offset this weekend too!! Hope everyone had a great weekend.. have a wonderful monday!!!

This was too good not to post… I talked with my sister and I asked her if I did not annoy her or talk too much can we work out together for the next two weeks… she agreed and also promised me that she would work out harder!!! So yall please pray that we will not argue and this will be a success both of us need to conquer the fat ASAP!!!

Hola buddies.. today is a good day.. I moved a little slow getting into work this morning but thank God my job is flexible(so far)!

I feel brand new today… I feel like I will accomplish my goals and prove to everyone I can finally do this forever and ever!!! 

Next subject: To tell or not to tell

Not too many people know what my plans are… I kind of joke around and say I am going to be a fitness model but they know I am a pretty goofy person so no one really listens. I think only my mom and boyfriend really know my true plans!! I am waiting for when I loose more weight and then mention it.. kind of scary because once you say it … you have to stick with it or get called out!!!

Tomorrow night will be my first night to be around temptation… going to a reggae party.. my goal is to have one shot of patron and then dance really hard the rest of the night… that should do it.. and then sat wake up and do my half of a half of a half marathon.. haha 3 miles for those non math folks

Then sunday will be a rest day(maybe a fast.. not sure yet)

Then next week goals: Bootcamp is over for two weeks so I will be doing weight training mon-friday with interval cardio and then 3 or 4 miles on sat morning.

Greetings and Salutations!

I am feeling good today, my energy level is way up and I did my morning bootcamp workout.. yay me!! I will say that my clothes are feeling looser and even though the olympics kept me up late I was still able to get up at 5am and not feel tired

I have a question.. have you ever really wanted someone close to you to get motivated too… for me its my sister.. she is a smart and beautiful girl inside and out but very overweight(100+ lbs). She is young and wants to date and I think if she would lose weight this might happen…. I say this because whether she wants to admit it or not I think the extra weight causes her to be negative and it does not help with her social life… I mentioned to her to get some personal training maybe that will help because we cannot not work out together.. I know I annoy her to the fullest but I get so pumped when I am in my zone. So we will see if she does it.. please keep both of us in your prayers.

Okay well that is enough of my venting.. I am trying a new product this week and I am not sure if this is in my head but that BSN Dessert has helped me with my sweet cravings.. it has been 3 days and I have not had anything sweet besides the BSN dessert .. does anyone else feel this way and will it last???

Okay so I know I can be a bit obsessive and that is why I work out so hard do things so well loose weight and then get tired and gain it back… I am all or nothing….I am so special .

So back to monday.. I was so excited about my day that I did a hard core bootcamp workout in the morning and then I went last night with boyfriend to do weights and it was a intense short workout. I ate well and everything was grand!

 Forward to Tues.. I HURT ALL OVER… why do i get so excited, I am 31 but I swear Im really in 2nd grade!! I overdid it and I could not get up and I wanted to call into work and the sad part is no one is here so I really could/should of stayed at home

 So note to self.. slow down Amber slow down.. do not kill yourself!!!!

 As always thanks to my buddies out there.. I am enjoying this website more and more each day!!!

As always thanks to all the motivation and new friends I have met on this website!! This weekend went better than I expected and I did not gain back the weight I have lost!! I went to bootcamp this morning I did not work out sat and sun.. I am nursing a hurt knee and thank God I did that it feels 50% better today!!! My clothes are fitting looser and one of my bootcamp buddies made a comment about my weight this morning whohoo!! I feel positive so that is a great way to start a week.. I encourage all those out there who want to loose weight to start now don’t wait another day.. yes the weight might take forever to come off but the good feeling on the inside starts right away!! Peace and have a great productive week.

I am so excited about this website.. so many positive people have reached out to me and that is so amazing.. I did not expect that at all !!! So thanks yall for the motivation!!! I am going to post progress pics every month so I am working hard to see a difference when I put up my Sept pics!!

 Also I went to bootcamp this morning.. it was a awesome workout and I feel really happy so this is a great way to start my week!!! Have a wonderful day and stay focused!!!