tewie-building

played around a bit on fitday and here’s what i came up with for my first four weeks of cutting for jr. nationals… TOTALLY OPEN TO ADVICE….

5am- egg whites, potato, hot peppers (omelette style)  sf katcup
…i can’t workout on an empty stomach
        6-7:30 hour of cardio and half hour weights
7:30- face fat free plain yogurt, strawberries, glutamine, flax seed (1/2 scoop whey on lifting days)
10am- gf hot cereal (similar to oatmeal… for celiac diet) egg whites, flax seed, sf jelly
12:30- brown rice, salmon (or another fish) broccoli 
3pm- apple (or whatever fruit) almonds
5:30ish- grilled chicken breast on large salad (salsa for dressing)
8ish- egg beaters, spinach, onion, broccoli, sf katcup       
+ supplements (viactin calcium chew, multi, cla, b) total calories is 1600 about 40%carb, 40%pro, and 20% fat.

open to thoughts (i’m super torn on fruit and milk so i figured i’d cut that and the yogurt closer to time and replace my post workout with a soyshake or something?? i always hear no fruit/milk products for comp diet, but i see an awful lot of fabulous bodies eating both on here…. ) as for the carb percentage, i don’t know what to do about that.. my energy totally DIES if i go lower than fourty five, and that’s fine four weeks out from a show, but not 12 weeks out… phase it down?  or is that low enough carbs… i really hate to lose a good workout so far out on account of how tired that makes me… i’m stretching to be starting at 40 i think… but……

and by the way… any man who ever tells me it’s hard to diet ever again in my whole life will be punched in the eye.  just once, inject your sorry, wimpy, winey, lazy asses with a good dose of female hormones and lets see how you weather it!!!  not to mention how depressed you get when you see your bloated gut and water holding thunder thighs in the mirror…. a few days of that shit, and you’d probably give up on your diet once in a while too…

(kay so maybe now i’m feeling the guilt with the peanut butter…)

UGHHHHHHHH

lets go back to the garden.  i swear i wouldn’t have eaten the ****ing apple!!!!  (hmm how many people will get that joke??)

so this morning, i get up and go to the gym.  i’m on the eliptical thinking how i’d like to die more than i’d like to be on that effing thing.  (this is rare… i am one of those weirdos that LIKES to workout!) but i was.. well… i was hungry!  so i decided to tan for fifteen minutes and try to get myself in the mood.  i ran into my mom on the way in and she mentioned that she could see my shoulders looking a little bonier.  NOOOOOOOOOO… granted this is the first place that will show my weight changes before anything else has even thought of tightening up, so i was glad to hear that my small (prep for contest diet… easing in) changes were showing even if only just a LITTLE BIT… i laughed and said, "i can fix that… got any peanut butter?"  needless to say after a long friday at work followed by grocery shopping, i ate me some peanut butter.  i now feel like absolute CRAP.  (oh no it was natural peanut butter but i just think it’s not normal to be able to eat the way i do sometimes haha)  anyway… so now i’m definately not going to be enjoying festivities sunday night.  probably best because i agreed to train a friend at seven in the morning!!!  (YES… A REASON!!!!!)  anyway for now i feel like i’ve got a brick in my stomach and i’m going to bed.  thirteen weeks.  i’m anxious for 12 weeks… something about that really helps me focus.  i guess it’s knowing that there’s no omre time to dick around.  just wish i could desipher all the ****ing diet controversy out there.  frankly, i can’t seem to kick with those low carbs.  i’m ganna try going 1600ish calories and keep my carbs high (like 45 percent maybe) and SLOWLY (every two weeks or so) decrease the carbs, up the protein untill closer to time… then i’ll cut the cals a little and then continue to phase out some carbs untill the show.  that’s my theory.  open to advice.  i just can’t get good workouts if i don’t have the energy.  it’s like not eating any carbs before bed has me so depleated just waking up that i can’t get through my cardio!  i also read that you need carbs before bed since sleep is when your muscles really heal (makes sence) but is opposite of what i seem to read most of the competitors i like are doing… i don’t know how my body reacts to anything these days, so for now i feel like it’s guess and check.  next week i’ll start cut and try and get photos rolling.  i’m going to baltimore to see the bodyworks museum and i’m JACKED about it.  jeremy and i are going to celebrate the engagement there, so i’ll definately have a few drinks and enjoy my last day before competition diet.  when we get back there are a lot of wedding reception sites we are trying to get in with, so it’ll be a busy day.  i’ll be okay on diet, but probably won’t get to work out, but i’ll live.  it’s VERY rare that i actually miss a day without squeesing SOMETHING in….

up for diet advice!!!