tewie-building

so i go to nutritiondata.com and put in my info.  says my maintenance is about 1900-2100 (depending on exercise options… i always put a few to see where it averages out to so that i know what to eat on longer workout days vs. easier days…)  this means diet calories for me are like 1400- 1600 which sounds very uncomfortable to me… then i go to about.com where i find that my maintenence is 1900 without exercise, 2400 with exercise, which would lead me to believe i could easily lose at 1900 with exercise but it shows only dropping 100 and losing at  2300 with 60 minutes exercise…. this is a VERY different number than the first.  other calculators have varied as well from usually saying anywehre form 1400-1900 calories.  i am struggling with this because i easily lost weight for the wedding (and felt pretty good energy wise) at 2000-2100 but i was nursing brayden at that time.  now with not nursing… do i really have to go back to 1500-1600 again and feel like crap.  also i have read of women who lost weight EASIER AFTER nursing because of the hormones involved in producing milk.  even though i’ve gained weight my stomach feels actually flatter than it did there at the end of nursing him… so i don’t know if that is a matter of just time since i had him or if it is more directly related to the hormones connection.  anyway… i am interested in hearing anyone and everyone’s thoughts on calorie needs…. i need to have enough energy to play with brayden and i feel awful on low carb diets… that said… any advice out there is beyond welcome.

there is this great big community on this site, and i have seen women claim eating 1400 calories that don’t look taht different from those who say they eat 2400 … this can’t ALL be genetics?  very nterested in anyone’s thoughts on the matter…

1.  brayden is officially off the boob.
1a.  OMG THAT IS PAINFUL… WILL THIS EVER END.  I STOPPED ON THURSDAY LAST WEEK.  IT’S TUESDAY NIGHT AND I AM STILL IN SO MUCH PAIN THAT I DON’T EVEN WANT TO GO FOR A RIDE IN THE CAR BECAUSE THE BUMPS ARE LIKE A CRUEL JOKE.  SO PAINFUL.  SO SO SO PAINFUL.  WHEN WILL IT END!! i thought i was drying up anyway because he wasn’t getting enough from me durring the day but my sister said that even if you don’t have much milk that you will just take longer to fill up and reach the point of engourgement before it will begin to dry up for real.  (this makes sence because i quit thursday and the pain didn’t really sink in till saturday night)  sunday was AWFUL and yesterday had to be the peak of pain. today is only a SMIDGE better.

to make matters worse:
2.  brayden is teething AND SICK.   he wants nobody but me and can not be happy… he twists and pushes and… all i can say is with every jerk and movement he makes…   OWWWWWW for me and my boobies.
2a.  the teeth part… they finally broke through today so hopefully that is on the upside now. but…
2b.  this is the first time in my life i’ve had a sick baby and i feel so helpless i don’t know what to do for him.  he just whines, cries, sleeps and produces snot.  any attempt to get him to play or laugh yeilds more crying.  wiping his nose=crying=more boogies=more wiping=more crying… you get the idea.  this is so hard… there’s nothing i can do for him but give him tylenol, orajel and a hug.  that’s all i have for him.  he looks so miserable.    i can’t even make it better.   argh!

dieting has been A LITTLE better since i quit nursing… wonder if it really did make me that much more hungry or if i’ve just been preoccupied with brayden being sick.  hopefully just better.  the problem is that i used to diet on like 1800 calories and it just doesn’t feel like enough with the hours i keep now… i have a reallyh hard time going under 2100… wondering if i’ll be able to lose at that with the changes my body has gone through over the last year and a half.  there are girls on here with that calorie range who are very thin so i’m hoping that is a possibility for me now.   any thoughts welcome and appreciated.