try try again….
i am very dissapointed in myself lately. i have really been struggling with my diet and with workouts that have been less than stellar i can’t afford it. (only because i am hacking my brains out between sets! not a lack of motivation or just being wussy… credit where it is due… it is VERY RARE that i struggle with working out.) i’m getting ready to clean my closet out and put my fall/winter clothes in this week… something i’ve been avoiding because i am dreading going through things and realizing that some of it’s just not going to fit right now. i know that in 3-4 weeks time i could be back into everything and looking better than before probably because i do have more muscle than i’ve ever had, but damn i have to stop eating **** to do that.
i thought i needed the consistency of getting up at 3:30 so i had made a workout plan that forced me to the gym 6 days a week but i think that (especially in the cold of winter) i’m ganna be better to only have to go in there early 3 days. (i have stuff to do things at home other days) and then go in on saturday with a little more sleep. so i reworked my workout plan back to close to what it was and am thinking i can cycle my calories to get a couple of lower cal days by sleeping in an extra three hours a few days a week. (i often think i have to have my cals up because i am tryign to stretch them out over such a long day.) i don’t even know what my weight loss calories are anymore with being pregnant and then nursing and now that i’m weaning him, i am clueless these days. it used to be 1500-1800 but i wonder now if that was too low even before because i would eat pretty bad on the weekends and still lose weight at that… i want more balance and consistency so i am thinking i can probably cycle between 1900-2300 (1900 2x, 2100 3x, 2300 2x per week) and lose but i may be in a dream world thinking that’s not too high not nursing?
tips and insight always welcome here!
my weight is clear up to 129… that’s 8 pounds i gained since the wedding. ugh. again, four weeks is the difference between where i am and where i can feel a little better, so it’s a matter of just sticking to it for four weeks… i want to feel like me and not like me wrapped in a big soft blanket!!!
