tewie-building

so i had a bit of a bumpy weekend.  i found out that chex cereal made all but their wheat chex gluten free and i decided to try the new honey nut flavor and the new cinnimon… unfortunately i tried the whole box of both.   just when i thought i’d gotten past that.  i guess i shouldn’t let my gaurd down.  i will still be fine as long as i just get my butt back in gear now.  i screwed up and over cut the day after, and then when i was suprised with my bridal shower, i totally lost my head and ate way too much (can i blame the champaign? i haven’t drank in sooo long…)  so i am sitting here feeling a little bloated and crappy, but trying to remember that those feelings are what drives me back into that place where i can’t get out so i have to simply continue forward thinking and not focus on my two slips in one week.  i am good with having one slip a week but when it happens twice i start to lose faith in myself which is detrimental to my sticking to a diet.  it is paramount that i finish out this week back on track, but if i try to overcut to make up for my slip, i know that i will simply set myself up for further damage backpeddeling from my goal.  it’s not worth it. i can simply pick up the peices and move forward now because i’m CERTAIN that with two and a half weeks to go, that’s enough time to make even more changes.  it’s also enough time to undo the work i’ve put in as well though, so FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!!!  also, i’m not doing this JUST for the wedding.  the wedding gives me a reason to to have a goal date of some specific changes i wanted to see… but this is life for me… and i need to remember that and not freak out that i took a small step back.  two days is small… two and a half weeks.. that can be a huge step forward.

i did have an awesome workout this morning.  i put a fourty five on either side of the bar this and squated (unassisted, not a smith machine) three times for 15 reps (and even with a light supersetted exercise between!!!). the sad part is i think it hurt my shoulders holding the weight more than it hurt my legs and bum! there were two guys that stopped and watched the first few, totally prepared to save me if i couldn’t do it, hehe… it felt good to get it up on my own for three whole sets and show ‘em i’m i got it!  135 isn’t too bad! it was wierd when i got on the sled then, and could only rep 15 with two plates on either side… i’ve done a LOT  of those with three on each side in the past so maybe i was just worn out from the squats.   anyway it felt good to hit that weight.  now if i can get my leg curl back.  (couldn’t lay on that machine preggers and lost  A LOT of strength)

okay i’m falling asleep as i type here which is a sure way to get sick, so it’s nap time!

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