tewie-building

so i definately measured myself for the first time since i found out i was pregnant… and it looks as though i’m pregnant alright… but why does my body think i’m carrying my baby in my inner thighs!!!!  ahhhh!!!  i keep telling myself it’s okay it’s okay it’s okay i know how to lose weight and i’ll be fine after the baby comes… but i still have 22 friggin weeks to go so i guess i need to get more of a grip than i thought.  i don’t think i gave myself enough credit for eating as well as i did before i got prego because i have definately not been CONSISTENTLY as good about my choices these days.  each time i slip i feel like i just get that much further from what i know to be right.    this is HARD!  and i’m so damn hungry all the time! 

 just let the next 22 weeks go quickly!!!!

on the upside… i’ve talked jeremy into a total trainer.  it’s similar to the total gym, but they actually ahve better reviews by amazon users, and  they are WAY more reasonably priced.  i’m JACKED about this… but i’m thinking i’ll wait a few more months till i’m ready to cancel my la membership.  i’ll still have my planet fitness membershpi, though that place just makes me feel restricted on options for workouts… the total trainer will give me enough variety if i keep that as well and for my cardio.  (my eliptical… yeah i dn’t think it could handle a whole year of my use… i’m pretty hard on those things so i save that for days when going to the gym is… just not ganna happen… rare but we all have them.  i call it insurance against an unneccessarily missed workout!) 

is it me or does everyone around you seem to get thinner though when your body is hijacked and you are forced to get fatter! 

deep breaths… i’ll get through this!

so my birthday is on thursday  … i’ve been doing SO well eating right the last two weeks since the morning sickness eased off… but now we meet birthday week.  there is a combination of challenges this week:  we got just plain the regular old pregnancy stuff…  then there’s  birthday treats everyone throws at you… then there’s the sunday birthday dinner with the parents (i have no intention of fighting this one… mom’s turkey lasagna with gluten free noodles makes the whole year worth waiting for that one!  she won’t make it often becasue she gets nervous she’ll get me sick… but my birthday is MY DINNER! so turkey lasagna it is!!!! yum!!!)  then the mega challenge… i don’t want to eat badly on saturday.  jeremy and i are going to take a bus trip to atlantic city.  i’m excited since i’ve never been there but our last trip to baltimore was when i first figured out i was pregnant.  i got so hungry i started crying!  there was no restaurants around that served a lick of gluten free food and i finally resorted to a bag of peanuts for lunch.  i tried to search the area and i’m hoping i can just find a seafood restaurant and go for coctail shrimp or something. but after that i don’t have a clue what to do.  the best i can come up with is to take some tuna salad and almond crackers (no wheat)  and maybe some popcorn (pop it before i go).  a bag of soy chips and hoep that is enough for the day.  i’m trying to keep it sa clean as possible so i guess a little fruit and some nuts too… i wish i could come up with a few more things just in case that does not have to stay cold and i can travel light with.  i’ll prack a few packets of whey too… but carbs are the hard part for me because of the wheat issue. 

 i’ll stay posted… but if i survive this week without gaining the whole second trimester weight gain guide line in just the week… i’ll be happy!

 i wish i could find pictures fo women who actually devoted themselves to getting back inshape post pregnancy to get a little idea of how long it will take with focus on it and for encouragement!  some days i don’t stress too bad but some days i have to admit… i get a little nervous.  i’ve never weighed 135 in my life… i’m so uncomfortable right now… but its’ not like i can diet for the next five months. so it is what it is for now… all i can do is damage control.