I was lucky to see the best concert I’ve ever seen and probably will ever see… IRON MAIDEN!!!!! Seriously, holy FACK. Our car broke down on the way there, which made us freak the heck out… we were so high when it happened too, all we could do is laugh, even though it was pretty serious, haha. Ended up getting there a little later than expected, but still way before the concert. I HAD SO MUCH FUN! I saw a lot of people I knew there too. I’m just still in awe from it… wow. I don’t want to get my head out of the clouds but I have to get back to real life today… I think I’m going to finally get another student card and gym it up (about time, I know!)

The concert was SO fun, but I ended up doing bad things. This past weekend wasn’t much better either. It was May long, so a bunch of friends and I went out to the lake for a few days. Drank both nights, did crazycrazy things… all in all, I had a blast and a half! haha. I really need to settle the heck down though, but it just seems impossible at this point. I look at my calendar, and every weekend there’s something going on!! Either a concert, calgary stampede, a birthday, etc… and I know I will be drinking at these events, there’s no escaping it! I suppose it IS summer, but still; it just frusterates me. Killswitch is this Saturday (WOO!) and Kanye & Rhianna on the Tuesday… so it should be a good time. I’ve been biking around everywhere lately, which is good because it saves me money on bus fare and sometimes it’s just faster than the bus, period. I decided to not do my 10k on the 25th because I feel like I’m not ready in the least bit. I will aim for a 5k on the 8th of June. Gym hasn’t been happening lately because I lost my student card (UGH) and I don’t know how or where to get a new one, so I guess I should probably look into that pretty quick here… Hmm. I’ve been getting comments from people asking if I’ve lost weight and I say "no, not really..maybe a few pounds", because that’s the truth, ha. Feels good though, that other people can notice a change and not just me for once, lol.

Well, last week I finally got back into the swing of things (thank goodness!) I’m really just trying to focus on my eating habits (though it’s SUCH a hassle!) Whatever. Not much else is new… No more school, so I pretty much do nothing with my days now besides working/wandering aimlessly around this city/gymming it up/hanging out/ and sleeping, haha. It’s ok though, it IS summer. I’m super pumped for Sunday— Gigantour!!!! (In Flames, Children of Bodom, Job for a Cowboy, Megadeth!) I’ve already seen In Flames how many times, but I LOVE THEM. It will be my first time seeing COB, so I’m a little more than excited for them. Maybe I’ll get lucky again and meet/party with some of the bands, just like I did with Lamb of God… Let’s hope!

I don’t know what’s up. I don’t know what’s wrong. I wish I knew. I didn’t go to the gym once last week, and I’m not entirely sure why not. I didn’t even bother to go for my runs. I wish I could say I was sick, someone died, or that the gym shut down; but nope, there’s no excuse other than my own, whatever that may be. I’m really not happy with myself or my actions. This weekend was a good friend of mine’s bday. What did we do? Well, duh… we partied, we drank, we got a little crazy… Should I have done this? Absolutely NOT. Did I know what I was doing and that it was wrong whilst I was doing it? YES. The thing that baffles me is ok, one drink is fine, but when I’m on drink #10+ I should come to my senses and freakin’ STOP… but I don’t.

Whatever. I feel like crap, I look like hell rolled over and I really don’t have the mind to do anything constructive like study or gym it up… All I want to do is sleep and never wake up… Well, I at least don’t want to get up for a very,very long time.

Haha! I freakin’ rock. I just won tickets to Kanye & Rhianna off the radio! woo. Ha, I got to be on the radio this morning, too! How exciting. I never win anything, but lately I’ve been having a lot of luck with radio stations… lol. I’m not the biggest fan of Kanye or Rhianna, but it will still be fun! We go for drinks at a club before the show, then we get a ride to the concert, then back to the club for more partying. It should be fun! Now I just have to figure out which ONE friend I want to bring with me! I have too many good friends… ahh.

Okay, okay… enough excitement… Gym time!

Yesterday was horrible. I wrote my Stats exam and felt like I just majorly effed up my entire university career as I was walking out of it. Whatever. The only thing I wanted to do was drink myself into oblivion, but, thanks to the weather, I was unable to do that. I went out for a bit, but after one drink we decided we better trek it back home as the blizzard was getting worse and worse. So, I just came home and slumped around. Today hasn’t been too productive either. I haven’t done a single thing other than laze around in my PJ’s all day and just mope around; what an existence! I might go out tonight for UFC… I haven’t really decided yet. I spent 150$ yesterday on two dresses. What the heck? I don’t even know. I’m not even a dress type of person… They are nice dresses, but still. I got my tickets for Monsters of Rock, and I am SO EXCITED. Other than that, not much else is new… Same old, same old… blah! I can’t go for my runs outside anymore b/c of this stupid lame-ass weather. Frick, I need to move.

I thought I would cave in and drink tonight, but I didn’t! I was supposed to go to a show tonight (Protest the Hero), but it didn’t happen. Which is a good thing, because I know I would have had a few (too many) drinks, and that just sets me back. I have a month and a bit to get in shape before summer is here. I really have to watch the eating thing, which is the hardest thing for me! I can go the whole day with eating good, but right before bed I munch out like whoa. So, SOOOO bad, and I need this to stop once and for all…

There are so many good shows that I’m going to this summer, and I want to be the hottest headbanging chick at each and every one of them… bwahahhaaha. I can do this, I can do this! I CAN DO THIS.