The Battle Continues…

Omg just had an argument with my mum and she stomped off home. Fookin’ biyatch! Every opportunity she has: "Oh, you don’t want to get too big", "training too heavy will ruin your knees", "when I was at the gym I did this, I did that", "have a slice of cake", "blah blah blah…"

My mother is FAT. She went to the gym for a year about 16 yrs ago and did no research, reading, paid no attention to her diet and only trained her back and biceps. Now her diet consists of cheese, chocolate and chips, no shit.

She forgets that not only have I been training on and off since I was 14 but I LOVE reading anything and everything about fitness and pay close attention to safe form, overall physique and positive gains from exercise. I said that perhaps if her knees hurt at the gym she may have been using incorrect form and she was like "well, I only did what the other guys told me." So cos some old dude at the gym does something one way means it’s right? Aside from the fact hip flexion differs in the sexes, the guys at the gym were just casual users and probably not that interested in what my mother was doing.

At the end of the day, people can’t live on "I USED to be, I USED to do" for the rest of their lives. And instead of just keeping her mouth shut, or stuffed with food, she needs to bitch about what I’m doing. And then because I said I didn’t need her negativity she said I was being childish and causing an argument. Hello? She’s the one that pokes at me all the time, grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Can’t wait to do my personal trainer stuff and move somewhere hot.

My training program is going really well. The diet not so good. I’m eating exactly what I should but am not seeing the results I ought to so as of today I’m cutting bread (aside from linseed wraps) and sugar to see if that makes a marked difference.

I’m seeing veeeeeery gradual changes in my legs; there is a better shape appearing to my calves and my quads and hams are sloooooooooooooooowly taking shape. However, as my thighs tighten up it makes my cottage cheese butt more evident. It’s literally that ONE area that I have cellulite and nowhere else, so ti looks like that butt does not belong on this body. I hate it!

I’m just doing 30min cardio a day, 4x a week, because I don’t want to lose muscle. I started working with the kinesis machines yesterday, which were great. I’ve decided as soon as I get paid next week I am ordering some of my old favourite and faithful friend, Hydroxycut; and some creatine to see if they make a difference to my physique.

I just found this site Nutridiary to log what I eat. It is SO much easier for me to visually interpret what I eat and where my nutrition is coming from instead of trying to work it out in my head or with a calculator.

Wow. It really sucks going back to trainng like a beginner but I know I have to take baby steps and progress gradually so I don’t overtrain and give up. Last night I crashed after my mini workout which was the best remedy for insomnia, yay! I have to make sure my muscles are not too sore atm because my job consists of heaving speaker cabs and other heavy equipment above my head and if I can’t lift my arms because I trained too hard, I’m screwed. Today, I’m going to do some lower body work - just using my own body as resistance and maybe a couple of dumbbells. I want to wake my body in anticipation for the/a gym. I hope the place is open; they had a renovation this past year to put a new Olympic training pool in and, well, that’s done, so the rest of the centre had better be open!

I really need to sort my messy place out too. It’s a matter of urgency! I moved house a few weeks ago and still haven’t unpacked things properly or found homes for the things I have unpacked. I need order in my surroundings to have order in my head. I’ll get it done!

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