April’s world

I started my new workout regimine today!!! It was hard to get my butt out of bed this morning, but I managed to do it! Yay me!! Somehow, I just feel like it is all going to be ok! I am going to stick with this! I have a work out journal and eating journal as well! I feel accomplished today! Like I got the gym out of the way, I wont have that nagging in the back of my mind all day! So…to everyone trying to make it to your goals, You rock, and you can totally do this!

~*~*~*~April~*~*~*~

Hola!

So, I am still sick, but today I just have this stuff on mind. Sometimes I get down because I feel that my weight loss is taking forever! I realize that we live in a society where we want everything right now, and hard work is rarely needed in anything anymore. All you have to do is simply push a few buttons to have a hot meal, pop a pill to "work miracles", click on a link to get news around the world…we are a RIGHT NOW society. When I think back on my childhood there is a sense of "right now-ness" but not nearly as bad as it is today. I have parents that dont take care of themselves pretty much in any sense of the word, and that for me is beyond frustrating. They are extremely overweight and heavily reliant on the medications their doctors prescribed to keep their bodies in the normal range of functioning. Food is their life, their drug, their very sense of happiness. I was raised to depend on food for everything and every emotion… It is a very difficult habit to break. I get angry when I think about the how simple it is to fix alot of the health problems in our country today! I used to work for a phamaceutical company and the things I read could fill books! If people just stopped being lazy, started eating healthier, got off their rapidly growing behinds, I am sure they would amaze themselves at what they could accomplish.

Ok…sorry, I get a little frustrated when I see certain things…

But I guess that is where my motivation is steming from. So maybe I should be thankful?! I know this sounds mean, but when I look at my family, it renews my motivation. It drives me to prove to myself that I am not like that. It drives me to show them what they do if they just tried. My new goal is to lose my last 30 pounds in 3 months! I am giving my self until June 1, 08 to be at my goal weight. As soon as I am better, I am going back to the gym first thing in the morning. Hopefully that will be in the next couple of days. I also am taking dance classes, and I am going to be starting guitar lessons. I am striving to improve on the quality of my life.

 I need to change. I need to be the best that I can be…so here goes…