April’s BodyBlog

i haven’t posted in a while due to the fact that so much was going on. i can’t believe 2 months has flown by that quickly! geez. i can admittingly say that i kinda feel off the bandwagon for a bit, but only as far as my eating is concerned. i did, however, turn it up with the working out and have seen the results but i just have that one area that i can’t get rid off: my damn tummy. it’s not huge but i want it gone! i know this is due to my unhealthy eating habits but i also know i can CHANGE it!

so yeah, i’m seeing the results from working out a little harder. i’ve been working out 6-7 times a week, sometimes twice a day. i’ve made it a point to include weightlifting each week, and have added supersets which REALLY gave me results.  overall, my body is more defined. as far as cardio, it’s been crazy bc new choreography was being introduced at both gyms i work for  (we do this every 3 months) so i was teaching, team teaching and subbing Body Step and Body Attack  like crazy. since things are calming down in that area, i’ll be adding the treadmill back into my workouts during the evenings, doing interval training at an incline and the stairclimber, just to change things up. i’ve also been jogging in the mornings that my daughter is with her dad. i want to work on my distance. for not typically being a runner, i’ve been doing ok. i did 4 miles yesterday morning, but want to shoot for about 7-8 mi. if i start up early enough. i’ve never done it before and it’d be a nice change. on the weekends, i have been going home and biking and jogging outdoors. it’s a refreshing change from being in the gym all week. i’m going to try to add in some yoga and pilates for flexibility as well.

ok, the EATING! ugh! i’m an emotional eater and this summer was NOT EASY for me! in fact ever since my separation, life has been TOUGH! i posted a long entry about my ex boyfriend but had to delete most of the context for fear that he might find it. i also had to delete certain progress pics bc i was afraid he might thing i was flaunting myself for other reasons than showing my progress. i was in a controlling relationship on and off for about a year and i’m happy to say that i’m over and done with it for good this time. i have no feelings left  and finally WOKE UP! i feel much better now, more at ease,  more free. at first, i admit it wasn’t easy bc i was no longer used to the single life, but i’ve learned to accept it, embrace it and concentrate on my daughter, my future, myself.

during these hard times, though, i always turn to FOOD! this weekend was a little rough for me. financially, things have been very difficult and it just really brings me down. this weekend i must have eaten like 30 oreo cookies! i’m horrible! i also worked my butt off, but still. i have got to stop with the sweets! i know the less of them i eat, the less i’ll WANT them.

we just had a luncheon with the firm i work for and i brought my own lunch (yay me!). i usually avoid them all together due to the unhealthy food choices that are provided there, but a coworker was speaking and i wanted to at least be present for that. yes, they kind of gave me a hard time and sometimes i feel like a snob, but i know that making one mistake on my diet will just turn into a whirlwind of screwups and i want to avoid that. sometimes it’s hard to turn down food bc i don’t want to be rude. they think it’s out of vanity or they start feeling guilty for eating unhealthy, but we all know it’s bc of how it makes us FEEL. food personally affects my whole life! when i eat badly i feel gross, lethargic and helpless. if only others could understand!

though i have my struggles, i still pick myself up and try, try again. i still do my  best to keep going and motivate and inspire others. i believe that you should "be the change you want to see in the world" as Ghandi says.

i have helped me sister to be more determined and to make healthier food choices. she’s really worked hard with and without me, and made varsity on her high school cross country team and she says had it not been for me she would not even be athletic. i am so very proud of her

yesterday morning a woman i see at the gym told me that i am her inspiration

the other day after working out, i stopped by the grocery store to do my shopping. the woman in line in front of me kept staring at my groceries on the conveyer belt then looked up at me and said, "you eat so healthy! i feel so guilty for buying all this junk now ". i smiled at her and didn’t know what to say. i’m not sure she’ll go home and try to eat healthier, but she definitely thought about it, so maybe she will

well, that’s all for now. thanks for reading! i will try to keep up more now.

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