anissa3’s BodyBlog

I realized yesterday looking at the calendar that in 2 weeks I will be 39.  It is really bothering me and I cant figure out why….Is it because it is the last 12 months in my 30’s?  Is it because I dont think I will reach the goals I want to by 40?  Even now thinking about it, I am getting the shakes!!!  I know it is just a number and you are only as young as you feel, I did have a 22 yr old ask me out last week….I did turn him down.  I just hope it doesnt send me into a major funk.  I mean most people are 39 for the rest of their lives :0)  Oh well, diet and workouts are going good so at least that makes  me happy.  Getting older beats the alternative, right??!!??

We had our health fair at work yesterday.  I got a clean bill of health.  The thing is I have always thought I was 5 7, they said I am 5 6.  This got me thinking I must be shrinking which made me think…..I am turning 39 on March 3rd, which made me think……I am getting old, which made me think……I will be 40 before I know it, which made me think……I have to get my butt in gear if I am going to reach my goal!!!!

I have to rant for a minute.  My ex husband went out of town on business and called me to tell me he wouldnt be  getting the girls. First problem….if i was the one going out of town i would have to make my own arrangements. Why do men (ok most) think that when they watch their kids they are babysitting?  People you dont babysit your own kids!!  Even when I was married, I had to say weeks in  advance if I wanted to do something, when he would just pop up saying he was going somewhere and walk out the door.  I know this wasnt just my guy, but my friends were saying the same thing…..Men…..Ok rant is over!!!  Diet and Workouts going  good. BAck in a flow.  Took my daughter to see Twilight since she was home(see above), it was a great movie….Books are addictive!!!

My motivation has been waaaay down.  I think between the flu and life in general, 3 kids and being single can be crazy!!, have gotten me down.  Dont get me wrong, the Hydroxycut Max Challenge is a great motivator and the $5000.00 is great.  The thing though is the money isnt mine, I cant see it, I cant hold it.so….I went out and bought a paid of really adorable skinny jeans that are 2 sizes smaller than what I wear.  I tried them on, yeah they dont even come over the thighs.  They are laying over the treadmill which is at the end of my bed.  They will be the first thing I see in the morning and if that doesnt kick my ass to get out of the bed and do my morning cardio nothing will.