HOW DID I DO THIS?

Now I see why the other boys did not want him in there routine.  He would have showed the up

Once again I found myself having a conversation while at the gym.  Oh how I love it so much, said with a smirk.  Well this time it was in the locker room.  A lady commented on how I did not have to worry about much b/c of the way I looked.  Yeah I hate to admit it, but I lost it.  I do not know if she considered it a compliment or not, but I did not take it as such.  I was like huh?  I blasted her! It went something like this.  Worry, lady all I do is worry.  What you see is hard work paying off.  I get up at 3:45, do 45 min of cardio go to work for 8.5 hours and entertain 42 second graders while struggling to fight the taunting of teachers, vending machine viewings, and goodies going under my radar.  Leave work and head to the gym for 2 hours of weights and more cardio.  All while transporting my two daughters where they need to be, cook dinner for them that I don’t eat and love them.  Not to mention maintain a diet of six meals.  I do not enjoy everything about working out, but I do enjoy being able to do all that I do and not have to breathe heavy while doing it.  I fight with my mind daily to stay away from the things I love and Lord knows I love chocolate.  So please do not consider what you said appealing to me.  I talk myself through everything I do. I recite mantra’s to myslef, I write myself motivational letters and I concentrate on the positive.
So I have a lot to worry about, I just choose not to.
She was like, "Well I AM SORRY."  I know, I responded

"Thank you." I said behind the blaring sound of my ipod as he mouthed that I look hott!  Once again refusing to take them out of my ears.  Thinking, o boi is is going to be another one of those gym days. Men staring and trying to make eye contact.  It has been a while since I had one, so I guess it was time.  "Wow you lift well." he mouthed as I was completing my Arnold Presses. "Thank you very much." I said quickly.  At this point I decided to take my plugs out (first time for everything). I even inttoduced myself.  "I am Angela and apparently you are trying to get my attention." I said with a half smile.  He laughed, he said, "You got jokes?"  "No jokes, just quick comebacks." I responded.  I did not want to engage in much conversation until he said something so stupid I had NO choice.  "Why do you train so hard?" He asked. I thought this is a gym, these are weights, we lift weights, weights are heavy, hence  I have to train hard to lift heavy weights! But I did not tell him that.  This is what I told him. Dude b/c she is training harder, b/c she is doing more cardio, b/c her arms are more developed, b/c she has been in the game longer than me, b/c her diet is perfect, b/c she will be standing next to me on stage, BECAUSE I WANT TO WIN!  Out of all that he ask, who is she?  I said "She is the one who would have ended this conversation about 5 sentences ago and I want to be better than her if not just like her!" I put my plugs back in, turned to put my weights up and gave him the peace sign from behind.  I am sure he thought b*t$@ as I walked away, but DUDE I WANT TO WIN!

Yesterday I had to teach a 24Aqua class for a fellow teammate.  If you have ever been to one, you know that the instructors teach on land.  Well while on land a class member (lady) gave the best compliment to date.  She said, "I wish I could do that!"  I said’ "Do what?" "Jump around and not have my legs jiggle."  she replied.  I was like thank you, no seriously, thank you.  I have never heard that before.  To know me is to know that my legs are my biggest challenge.  I have never liked my legs.  I was teased as a child about how my hair never grew and how thick they were.  I never took thickness as a compliment.  I know that no jiggle is good, so I am reaching som closeness to being happy about my appearance.  
I have not posted progress pics in a while because I am not happy.  Plus I had to buy a new camera.  
Now that I have switched over to bodybuilding, I am having a hard time finding a role model.  I love the way Cathy L. Priest looks, but I have not gotten her stats yet. I wish there was magazines dedicated to women bodybuilders, especially since there are some changes going on.
Enough!
Later!
A!

I have decided to do better.  I have kept my diet compeletely since last Monday the 5th.  I had a well planned cheat meal this past Sunday.  I did not want to ruin the 6lbs I lost in 6 days, so I thought about it carefully.  I decided to have a taco salad.  I kept my meat the same (5oz).  I had the serving sizes for my cheese and salsa.  I skipped the sour cream and did not even miss it.  It was good and I am proud that I did it.  Now I am getting ready for this Sunday.  I think my cheat meal is going to be breakfast.  Not sure what just yet?  But I do know it WILL include eggs.  I love eggs.

OK since I am not officially competing until next year I decided to treat myslef.  And ohboi did I. I had a strawberry and banana creme pie shake from Sonic’s and some pizza from the HUT.  I had a great cheat day.  It was so fun while it lasted. Now it is back to the chicken and turkey and egg’alicious.  I have to admit, my stomach hurts and I got a headache.  I enjoyed every bite and sip, while it was going on, but about an hour later, I was dying of thirst and wanted some aspargus.  This body God has blessed me with sure knows right from wrong.  If only this mind could follow along.

Take Care!