Princess Ashley’s Blog…Welcome

I don’t know what my deal is lately, I mean I do, but I don’t understand why I am in such a slump. I mean a major slump, like old Ashley is back and the new Ashley can’t be found anywhere…I think it all started when my trainer that I admired and was finally starting to feel progress with decides to not train me anymore, never called me back to reschedule an apointment…that really frustrated me, it was like he lost hope so why should I still have hope that I can do it. I have started with a new trainer and he is really good, and I really like him, but I have no motivation to workout on my own, or eat right…I know the eating is an emotional, I feel hopeless crap that I pull and I just need to snap out of it, but I can’t. Like today, I’m dreading the gym, I need to go, I know I love how it makes me feel, I love loosing weight and how I look, I just can’t seem to want to want it bad enough, I have so much to be motivated for, I just don’t get it. I really don’t understand it anymore. Plus Im dating a guy totally in shape and loves fitness and still nothing. I guess I just need to start forcing myself to go no matter what, and the new Ashley will come back…I also need to become a morning person so i can speed this crap up and get two workouts in. I’m tired of being fat.