Anandagirl’s SassyBlog

I’m being a little B*tch. I need to stop whining and start taking control! Stay on track with workouts, hoping that my weight gain is temporary because I just started taking creatine again this week, that my BF% is going down, etc. I’m  just nervous because I am only 2.5 weeks from my boudoir pics! I hope that woman has mad airbrushing skills! j/k My food today:

9:30 am 1/2 cup oatmeal, 1/2 cup LF cottage cheese

12:00 pm 1/2 cup LF cottage cheese, apple

2:00 pm 3 oz. chicken breast

3:30 pm 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 1 oz. whole wheat crackers, 3 oz. chicken breast

5:30 pm Dinner - have no idea what - being provided GRRRRRRR (I will have a dessert protein shake and an ultrameal bar with me just in case)

10:00 pm - Maybe something, not sure what yet, depends on how I feel when I get back home.

I know I shouldn’t rely on the scale, but I still weigh in weekly with a co-worker, because I feel like that’s the only support I get in my physical life (although everyone here has been GREAT!). I’m UP this week - 1.6 pounds!!!!!! I don’t feel good either - bloated like everything I have eaten for the last 2 days is still stuck in my belly. I’m angry - at my Fiance for trying to sabotage me, at other people who don’t understand and put pressure on me, and mostly, I’m angry at myself for not having the willpower to say no. I don’t know if it’s better to eat what you shouldn’t or not eat at all. It seems like that is my choice these days, between all the traveling, and the events, and being away from hope 4 out of the 7 days a week. I’m in a total funk. I think I need some of that Cytolean euphoria.

Just drained, stressed and the like. YUCK! Skipped morning cardio to sleep in, will jog 2.6 miles this evening with the dogs when I get home. I got the money stresses mostly - between the wedding and just daily spending, not to mention FI can’t hold on to a cent to save his life, I’m going crazy. Seriously going to have to put that man on an allowance. PLUS when I have to work late, like the last two nights, he goes to the store and gets these great ideas abotut what he’s going to cook for dinner. Last night was anaheim chilies stuffed with corn and chicken, which wouldn’t be so bad, except for the entire bag of kraft cheese he put in them too. He is a complete retard when it comes to anything involving health or fitness. He thinks eating half a bag of cheese is okay, but he emailed me today telling me someone brought in fresh strawberries and asking me how many he can have. WTF??? I’m certainly not on Keto, and apparently he isn’t either if he is drinking beer and eating corn.

Okay, I’m done. I just feel like I am the ONLY person in my life that understands and supports what I am doing. My coworkers either eat as much crap as they want, or eat crap within their calorie range (which is probably too low to begin with). My FI eats crap unless I make it for him. Even the people who think they are being healthy and fit, eat fruit piled with sweetened yogurt and granola, or hamburger patty’s with cheese on top because "that’s good diet food." Okay, I see everything else you eat, and you’re not on Keto EITHER! But these people wear smaller sizes, and have normal cholesterol levels. It’s JUST NOT FAIR!

Here is what I am eating today. It’s def a protein day for me. Maybe I’m cycling my carbs without trying?

7:45 am  1 cup Kashi Go Lean with 1/2 cup skim milk

10:30 am 3 egg whites, 1 whole egg, apple

1:00 pm  2 cups tabboule salad (bulgur wheat, parsley, onions, lemon juice), 1 chicken breast

3:00 pm 1/2 cup LF cottage cheese, 2 Ry krisp crackers, 2 cups steamed broccoli

5:30 pm 1/2 cup FF cottage cheese, 1 oz pitted prunes

6:30 pm Jog

7:30 pm 3 Oz chicken breast, 2 slices light whole wheat bread, 1 T. Smart Beat mayo, 2 cups steamed broccoli

9:30 (Maybe) 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 1 T Peanut butter

Remind me to do squats more often! Today was chest, tri’s and I threw in one set of OH Presses to hit shoulders a second time this week. I tried the Crystal Light Energy this morning (caffeine and B Vitamins) - not really a noticable difference, oh and I did take some EAA’s before the workout.

WU Set: DB Presses 10×15

Bench Press: 45×12, 50×10, 55×7

Pushups on Knee: 9, 9, 8

Negative Pushups on Toes: 3 (TIRED!)

Pec Dec: 50×10, 55×8, 55×7

Cable French press with rope: 15×15, 25×12, 35×9, 35×6

Cable Rope Pushdown: 20×12, 25×8, 25×9

BB OH Press: 30×10, 30×9, 30×3

Food today:

8:30 am 1 banana, Lean Dessert with creatine

11:00 am 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 2 cups steamed broccoli, 2 Ry Krisp Crackers

1:00 pm 3 Oz Chicken breast, green salad

3:30 pm 1/2 cup cottage cheese, Apple

6:30 pm Ultrameal Bar

9:00 pm Not sure yet!

Don’t try to walk down stairs right after a crazy leg workout. I thought my legs were going to just give out! I was holding on the rail for dear life and easing myself down. Big surprise, since I didn’t think i did so much????

Stationary Lunges 24×12

Squats 40×12, 40×12, 40×12

Leg Extention: 50×13, 60×10, 60×8, 60×7

Leg Curl: 50×12, 60×10

Stiff legged deadlift: 50×12, 60×10

supersetted with

Plie Squat: 20×12, 30×10

Food today:

8:30 am (PWO) Dessert and creatine

10:30 am 1/2 cup oatmeal, 3 egg whites, 1 whole egg

1:00 pm 5 oz chicken breast, lettuce, tomato, and 1/4 avocado in whole wheat tortilla, served with steamed broccoli and a pickle spear

3:00 pm 1/2 cup NF cottage cheese, 1 apple

5:30 pm 1/2 cup NF cottage cheese, 1 cup string beans, 2 cups green salad

8:00 pm 4 oz lean pork tenderloin, green salad, 1 T. Peanut butter

Well, my diet was already “tight” but I was thinking I needed to try and eat my macros more evenly spaced throughout the day. Here is day one:

One more pound down, and I couldn’t be more pleased. Good stuff maynard. I am also signing up for a 5K on June 9, so I will have some direction for my cardio workouts other than just getting them done. And it supports programs for the development of local youth. Good stuff! I think FI is going to try and do it with me too!

Breakfast: 1/2 cup oatmeal, 2 veggie sausage patty’s, 1 cup grapes, 4 brazil nuts

Snack: 1 cup soybeans in shelks, string cheese

Lunch: chicken breast, 1/2 cup sugar snap peas, apple

Snack: Orange, 9 pistachios, 1/2 cup yogurt

Dinner: Not sure yet - probably chicken breast, veggies and maybe some sort of grain

Snack: 1 cup skim milk

Fi told me he was interested in coming with me to lift weight twice a week! I might have to alter my program somewhat to accommodate him, plus he does kickboxing 4-6 days a week, with lots of pushups, bw squats, etc. so I want to make sure he’s not overtraining. BUT I’m really excited because this is the first time he has really taken an interest in bodybuilding in the four years we have been together! Hopefully he will start to understand my workouts and diet a little better.

Anyway, I did 30 minutes high intensity steady state on the Gauntlet Step Mill this morning, at 85% MRH.

9:30 am 1/2 cup oatmeal, 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 9 pistachios

12:00 pm Chicken breast, 1 cup steamed broccoli, 1 cup broccoli salad with 1 tsp sesame oil, 1/2 cup quinoa, orange

2:30 pm 1/2 chicken breast, apple, sugar snap peas

5:00 pm 1/2 chicken breast, 1 cup soybeans in shells, 1 cup grapes, 1/2 cup yogurt

7:00 pm 1 chicken breast, 1 cup quinoa, 1 tsp olive oil

Tweaked something in my shoulder not even doing a shoulder exercise or a chest move! WTF? Oh well, nothing a few days of rest won’t cure. OH, but that rest is just for my shoulder! I did legs and a quick chest just to keep my strength up while I let my shoulder rest. Oh, and remind me not to ever try to lift after work - what a zoo!!!

Leg Sled: 60×12, 110×13, 2, 170×12

Leg Ext: 60×12, 60×10, 75×7

Leg Curl: 45×15, 75×12, 90×10, 105×10 (this seemed too easy, not doing that machine too!)

Pushups: 12, 10, 9

HIIT Cardio on the Gauntlet Stepper for 20 minutes.

Okay, well new to me since most of these clothes I haven’t worn in 3 years!!!!!!!! SOOOO Excited - I had the idea to go try some of my "skinny" clothes on just in case… and they fit! I actually got rid of a couple pairs of pants because they were a little dated. Of course, there were a couple pairs that did NOT fit. Something to aspire to! If I can fit into them by the time I take my Boudoir pics (four weeks from today - GASP!), I will be STOKED! I am pretty darn excited. Was out late at the baseball game, so I am going to workout AFTER work for once. See how that goes! Food today is planned well:

9:30 am 1/2 cup oatmeal, 1/2 cup cottage cheese

12:30 pm  Chicken wrap in a whole wheat tortilla with 1/4 avocado, lettuce, tomato and mustard. Served with 2 cups steamed broccoli

3:00 pm 1 cup soybeans in shells, 1 apple, 2 cups steamed broccoli

5:00 pm orange, dessert protein, sugar snap peas

7:00 pm Ultrameal bar

8:00 pm Chicken breast and green salad, 1 cup skim milk