Anandagirl’s SassyBlog

That’s what I feel like - I just haven’t been myself lately. I really think it started Thursday because I started Cytolean and Purple Wraath that morning and just felt TIRED. I thought "That’s not right" and realized as the day went on I must be fighting something. Well, I’m still fighting it. I’m taking my Vitamin C and my Zinc, drinking my tea and water, and eating my soup. Hopefully I’ll be able to fight it off soon and not let it go full blown. I just want to feel like myself again. And have the energy and stamina to be back at the gym!!! I have a facial tonight - maybe the stress reducing part of that will get me back in shape!

So happy - took some new measurements this morning and lost a little weight, size, and everything! It’s nice to still feel like the progress is continuing. Hope to get some progress pics up sometime this weekend!

9:30 am 1/2 cup oatmeal, 1/2 cup nf cottage cheese

12:00 pm 2 cups homemade vegetable soup, 4 egg whites, 3 stuffed grape leaves, marinated artichoke hearts

3:00 pm 1/2 cup nf cottage cheese, apple, 3 walnut halves

6:00 pm Not sure yet!

8:00 pm Not sure yet!

First of all, I want to say THANKS to BB.com because they have amazingly fast shipping - so worth it! I had no idea my stuff would come so fast, and if the price wasn’t so considerably better on bb.com, I *might* have gone to the Vitamin Shoppe just to get it faster. Now I know that it would onlyhave been a day or two faster!!!!!!! Anyway, I ordered Controlled Labs Purple Wraath, Gaspari’s Cytolean, and BSN Cheaters on Monday, and it arrived on Wednesday. How’s that for service?

So, today was day one with Purple Wraath and Cytolean. I took 2 Cytolean (to hell with recommendations! LOL) and not a full scoop of Purple Wraath, but more than the recommended 1/2 for a first time use. I took the Cytolean about a 1/2 hour before my morning workout, and sipped the PW before, during and after my workout. The taste - it’s just okay. I can drink it, but it isn’t pleasant by any means! No tingles or anything. Overall, my workout was good, but I am really tired. I don’t know if it’s because it’s the only heavy workout I did all week, or what, but I can’t say I was really energized or anything. I actually feel a little sleepy right now. I did improve on almost all my lifts I did today.

After a 5 minute warmup:

Squats 45×16, 55×15, 65×12

Deadlift 50×15, 60×10, 60×7

Bench Press 50×15, 55×9, 60×6

Barbell Row 50×8, 50×10, 60×6

Food:

9:00 am (PWO) 1 scoop Lean Dessert, 5 g creatine, 1 small banana

11:30 am 1/2 cup oatmeal with spenda, 1/2 cup NF cottage cheese

1:30 pm  2 cups taboule salad, 4 egg whites, 1 cup edamame

4:00 pm 1/2 cup nf cottage cheese, apple, 2 cups homemade vegetable soup

7:00 pm 2 cups homemade vegetable soup, 1 chicken breast

My knees are killing me. On Sunday, some idiot set their suitcase down right behind me, and I tripped over it, wrenching my knee. I stayed off of it mostly on Sunday, and it felt pretty good yesterday, and then I spent an unplanned 5 hours on my feet, in heels, at the end of a 13 hour workday. Needless to say, my knees are killing me today. I am going to take today off from the gym, and ice them down tonight, and hopefully feel better tomorrow. I will probably do some ab work this evening, and maybe some upper body at home (pushups, db overhead press, etc.) cuz I’m tired after my 13 hour workday yesterday, and working all weekend!

Food today:

9:30 am 1/2 cup dry Oatmeal, 1/2 cup nf cottage cheese

12:30 pm 4 oz grilled chicken breast in a WW tortilla with 1/4 avocado, lettuce, tomato and mustard, served with 2 cups steamed broccoli

3:00 pm 1/2 cup nf cottage cheese, apple, 2 brazil nuts

5:30 pm 2 cups homeade low sodium vegetable soup, 3 egg whites, 1 whole egg

8:00 pm 4 oz. Grilled chicken breast, green salad with balsamic dijon vinaigrette made with 1 Tsp. olive oil

10:00 pm 1 T. Peanut butter, 1 low carb tortilla

OH - one exciting thing - finally placed my order for Purple Wrath and Cytolean, and it arrives on THURSDAY! Just in time for the memorial day weeeknd - YAY!

I’m being a little B*tch. I need to stop whining and start taking control! Stay on track with workouts, hoping that my weight gain is temporary because I just started taking creatine again this week, that my BF% is going down, etc. I’m  just nervous because I am only 2.5 weeks from my boudoir pics! I hope that woman has mad airbrushing skills! j/k My food today:

9:30 am 1/2 cup oatmeal, 1/2 cup LF cottage cheese

12:00 pm 1/2 cup LF cottage cheese, apple

2:00 pm 3 oz. chicken breast

3:30 pm 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 1 oz. whole wheat crackers, 3 oz. chicken breast

5:30 pm Dinner - have no idea what - being provided GRRRRRRR (I will have a dessert protein shake and an ultrameal bar with me just in case)

10:00 pm - Maybe something, not sure what yet, depends on how I feel when I get back home.

I know I shouldn’t rely on the scale, but I still weigh in weekly with a co-worker, because I feel like that’s the only support I get in my physical life (although everyone here has been GREAT!). I’m UP this week - 1.6 pounds!!!!!! I don’t feel good either - bloated like everything I have eaten for the last 2 days is still stuck in my belly. I’m angry - at my Fiance for trying to sabotage me, at other people who don’t understand and put pressure on me, and mostly, I’m angry at myself for not having the willpower to say no. I don’t know if it’s better to eat what you shouldn’t or not eat at all. It seems like that is my choice these days, between all the traveling, and the events, and being away from hope 4 out of the 7 days a week. I’m in a total funk. I think I need some of that Cytolean euphoria.

Just drained, stressed and the like. YUCK! Skipped morning cardio to sleep in, will jog 2.6 miles this evening with the dogs when I get home. I got the money stresses mostly - between the wedding and just daily spending, not to mention FI can’t hold on to a cent to save his life, I’m going crazy. Seriously going to have to put that man on an allowance. PLUS when I have to work late, like the last two nights, he goes to the store and gets these great ideas abotut what he’s going to cook for dinner. Last night was anaheim chilies stuffed with corn and chicken, which wouldn’t be so bad, except for the entire bag of kraft cheese he put in them too. He is a complete retard when it comes to anything involving health or fitness. He thinks eating half a bag of cheese is okay, but he emailed me today telling me someone brought in fresh strawberries and asking me how many he can have. WTF??? I’m certainly not on Keto, and apparently he isn’t either if he is drinking beer and eating corn.

Okay, I’m done. I just feel like I am the ONLY person in my life that understands and supports what I am doing. My coworkers either eat as much crap as they want, or eat crap within their calorie range (which is probably too low to begin with). My FI eats crap unless I make it for him. Even the people who think they are being healthy and fit, eat fruit piled with sweetened yogurt and granola, or hamburger patty’s with cheese on top because "that’s good diet food." Okay, I see everything else you eat, and you’re not on Keto EITHER! But these people wear smaller sizes, and have normal cholesterol levels. It’s JUST NOT FAIR!

Here is what I am eating today. It’s def a protein day for me. Maybe I’m cycling my carbs without trying?

7:45 am  1 cup Kashi Go Lean with 1/2 cup skim milk

10:30 am 3 egg whites, 1 whole egg, apple

1:00 pm  2 cups tabboule salad (bulgur wheat, parsley, onions, lemon juice), 1 chicken breast

3:00 pm 1/2 cup LF cottage cheese, 2 Ry krisp crackers, 2 cups steamed broccoli

5:30 pm 1/2 cup FF cottage cheese, 1 oz pitted prunes

6:30 pm Jog

7:30 pm 3 Oz chicken breast, 2 slices light whole wheat bread, 1 T. Smart Beat mayo, 2 cups steamed broccoli

9:30 (Maybe) 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 1 T Peanut butter

Remind me to do squats more often! Today was chest, tri’s and I threw in one set of OH Presses to hit shoulders a second time this week. I tried the Crystal Light Energy this morning (caffeine and B Vitamins) - not really a noticable difference, oh and I did take some EAA’s before the workout.

WU Set: DB Presses 10×15

Bench Press: 45×12, 50×10, 55×7

Pushups on Knee: 9, 9, 8

Negative Pushups on Toes: 3 (TIRED!)

Pec Dec: 50×10, 55×8, 55×7

Cable French press with rope: 15×15, 25×12, 35×9, 35×6

Cable Rope Pushdown: 20×12, 25×8, 25×9

BB OH Press: 30×10, 30×9, 30×3

Food today:

8:30 am 1 banana, Lean Dessert with creatine

11:00 am 1/2 cup cottage cheese, 2 cups steamed broccoli, 2 Ry Krisp Crackers

1:00 pm 3 Oz Chicken breast, green salad

3:30 pm 1/2 cup cottage cheese, Apple

6:30 pm Ultrameal Bar

9:00 pm Not sure yet!

Don’t try to walk down stairs right after a crazy leg workout. I thought my legs were going to just give out! I was holding on the rail for dear life and easing myself down. Big surprise, since I didn’t think i did so much????

Stationary Lunges 24×12

Squats 40×12, 40×12, 40×12

Leg Extention: 50×13, 60×10, 60×8, 60×7

Leg Curl: 50×12, 60×10

Stiff legged deadlift: 50×12, 60×10

supersetted with

Plie Squat: 20×12, 30×10

Food today:

8:30 am (PWO) Dessert and creatine

10:30 am 1/2 cup oatmeal, 3 egg whites, 1 whole egg

1:00 pm 5 oz chicken breast, lettuce, tomato, and 1/4 avocado in whole wheat tortilla, served with steamed broccoli and a pickle spear

3:00 pm 1/2 cup NF cottage cheese, 1 apple

5:30 pm 1/2 cup NF cottage cheese, 1 cup string beans, 2 cups green salad

8:00 pm 4 oz lean pork tenderloin, green salad, 1 T. Peanut butter

Well, my diet was already “tight” but I was thinking I needed to try and eat my macros more evenly spaced throughout the day. Here is day one: