amyrose

Hope everyone had a happy, healthy Thanksgiving! (If that’s possible with all the pies!) Well, I have to say that I really did look at this day that is so focused on eating very differently this year. I cooked the dinner and as I was shopping I really tried to make healthy choices about the foods I was going to prepare.  Of course there were the old standards but I didn’t stuff myself and I was very happy about that. OK, I did eat apple pie complete with ice cream AND butterscotch caramel sauce, oh so sinful! But I had half a piece not a big giant piece of days gone by. I kept myself focused and although I indulged it was back to clean eating on Friday and also my workout. I did as my trainer told me and completed my 3 days of weight training.

My struggle this week has been with cardio.  I used to run/walk on the treadmill but decided to try something different. I tried TaiBo with Billy Blanks and also some typical aerobics on the TV. I became very discouraged because I feel so out of shape and it is hard to move the mass. My husband and I have a gym in our basement complete with unforgiving mirrors. I know the unsightly mass that my body has become should be encouragement enough to keep my a$$ moving but I just stood there and stared at myself and became so discouraged thinking it was NEVER going to change. The weight workout is great, I feel strong and actually went up slightly in weight by my third workout and have recovered quickly this week, the cardio sucks!!! I feel like I weigh a million pounds complete with concrete legs. Maybe I just need to slow it down, not expect so much with the cardio, start out with walking and then increase to a walk/run. I really don’t want to whine, as I said I wouldn’t, (so here it comes) BUT I know myself … OK I am going to stop this train of thought right now! I will be positive, it is all a process, stay focused, it will happen, I am dedicated, it has taken quite some time to get my body to this point, the fat didn’t happen overnight so I will push myself in a healthy way and I will get stronger, the cardio will get better.  I meet with my trainer tomorrow, well I hope (you know those fat gods . . . well they’re at it again, one of my kids now has a fever, so we will see what the morning will bring) if I can’t meet with him, I will just do my workout downstairs again, I will keep reminding myself that I will get stronger with the cardio!

Yes, I type these words but the cardio really brings me down, I know I need it to burn fat, but I can destroy all positive thinking with one bad cardio workout.  Anyone care to share on this topic?

Hope all are well.

I AM SO HAPPY!

Let me start this story by saying it could have been a disaster! One of my kids was not feeling well on Sunday and I thought "Are the fat gods keeping me hostage?, Not allowing me to break free?" Kids come first, so I called my trainer and told him I just didn’t know what Monday would bring and was afraid that my son would be home  from school, so that means I would not be able to meet him. (This week he was only going to be available on Monday because of the holiday.) Ok, so in my mind I’m thinking "next week, it’s OK I will start next week, life happens." So, he says to me "It’s OK that we can’t meet but here’s what you WILL do this week, your old program 3 times this week". He runs thru what he expects of me. (can I just say, I love him for that) In my mind I’m still thinking next week! But of course I have already told him and promised myself no more excuses.  Called the doctor about my son, kept him home as I thought and after I got my other kids off to school, downstairs I went, cardio & weights.  Mission accomplished!!!  I am so proud of myself, I am on such a high, I certainly have to get myself back into it, but I slightly pushed myself and I felt great after, both physically and mentally!  I am so happy, I did not make any excuses because plans had changed, I just did it, left the dishes in the sink, let the dust bunnies run wild and got my butt dwonstairs and did it.

I am so HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY!  Hope all are well.

Meeting with my trainer on Monday 19th. I am just so excited!!! No excuses, complaining or whining this time around. I have been eating clean and I think that will help me with this start. When I started with him in December 2006, all the changes were overwhelming, especially the changes in eating.  I seemed to fall off the wagon alot. Not this time, I am determined to make a change and now that I believe I have the food under control I hope to see even better results. (OK, i know, that wicked Halloween candy, but no more of that . . . Oh yeah and the boyscout that knocked on my door last night bringing the chocolate covered popcorn that I ordered! Can I run far, far away? I told my kids they need to eat it up and fast!!!) I will resist these temptations because the hot body will be way better than the taste of the JUNK! So, I am going to take photos Sunday nite & measurements when I see my boy on Monday and will continue to post both as I progress.  Sorry in advance for the start pics, not so pretty, for those of you that saw them when I posted them early on, you know what I mean. Anyway that will soon be the past and the best is yet to come. A healthier lifestyle both physically and mentally!

Hope all are well

called my trainer tonight to see how his recovery is progressing, he was at the movies and sent me a text message "hope you’re about ready girl, about two weeks away" so, all that talk about getting my butt moving, the time has come! tomorrow morning - cardio and back to the weights! i need to be ready when he is, just realized i must be the biggest procrastinator around. let’s see i logged on here for the first time october 4th and now it’s november 4th, hmmm, seems i would have had a month under my belt if i would have just done something! well, don’t look back only forward, i will be positive because i have seen body changes just from the clean eating and i have more energy, both which have given me a better frame of mind and certainly more motivation (i guess i should change the "how i stay motivated" question). so tomorrow morning i will get up early and start my cardio and my old routine of weights, i have 2 weeks, yikes!!!!! i really shouldn’t say that, i really am looking forward to making this lifestyle permanent this time, i would love nothing more than to post some amazing transformation pics, thank you to all who have taken an interest in my journey, you have already helped more than you will ever know! 

STOP THE MADNESS!!! yes, my body is screaming this statement at me, complete with stomach aches and headaches . . . life with 3 small children and oh that horrible, miserable, disgusting, wonderful, delicious, sweet tasting candy. sorry, i got lost there a minute from the sugar high! so i think, "they are small little bars, 1 can’t hurt too bad", 4, 5, 6, small bars later and a headache that just won’t quit, i say was it really worth it? NO - i won’t do it again, but then there it is staring at me in two big bowls like two glaring eyes, screaming come on, just one and it’s all over. yes, i fell off the wagon with the candy, clean eating all the way around except for the curse! the funny thing is and i have to remind myself of this, is that it doesn’t taste as good as i think it will and certainly the after effects are not pleasant, so today i will hope that the terrible wicken that has cast this curse upon me has left the area and moved on to another victim. Hope all are well 

sorry i dropped the ball on writing blogs, home life has been CRAZY busy! i have been doing great! i have been eating clean consistently now for 2 weeks and it feels fantastic. i am seeing changes in my body just from the change in eating habits, my stomach is shrinking! for anyone who doesn’t believe making changes in your diet can have dramatic effects (myself included), i will post some new pics soon. i have been thinking about maybe training for a figure comp after experiencing it first hand with julofthenile. don’t know if i would actually do it, but maybe train like i would. there’s alot to think about with it, time and financial commitments especially. either way i have a new dedication to this lifestyle and no matter what i decide i know i feel a million times better just from changing my diet and i’m sure once i get back on track with the exercise i will feel even better. hope everyone is well.