Never been stressed….
Hi. My name is Amina. I am 31 years old, and apparantly I have never been stressed out. Before now. I mean dont get me wrong, I have been sad, suffered lost, struggled a little bit, but I guess it never was official. I would see others who had difficulty sleeping, loss of appetite and other things when they were stressed out, but not me. I could always just lay my head down and instantly sleep, no matter where. And I never, EVER had a loss of appetite.
Enter 2008.
My mom has not been in great health. Her sister (my auntie) broke her foot. Her brother had a pace maker installed. All in ONE WEEK! I have been living on airplanes, trying to get runs in here and there, and when I am really lucky actually get to a gym (its times like these that Ballys doesnt sound so bad).
For the first time, ever, I have tossed and turned at night, thinking of all I have to do and during the day not only have I been too busy to eat, I havent really wanted to. I find myself forcing myself to make lunch, and picking at dinner. But the biggest thing, which I realized is actually a good thing, all my sweet cravings have taken a flight to sugarville. I havent had a cheat dessert in I cant remember when. I have been tempted with various sweets, but to no avail. After one nibble my tongue all but rejects it!
Anyway, its been a long past few weeks. I am back at home, with no travel insight ( I HOPE) and actually got a good workout in today. I jumped on the scale yesterday just to see what the damage was and to my happiness and delight, I was at 156. I thought for sure with the Gym Absence I would have gained weight… I actually lost some. Sadly I am sure I actually just loss muscle. So now that I am home, and able to go back to the gym, I hope the sweet cravings dont resume, and the stress levels go down. But I like the weight going down, lol.
March 20, 2008 at 4:47 pm
hun sometimes in life there are things we cant control and have to leave in Gods hands so we dont stress ourselves out …..hugsss to you
erik