Three and a half weeks ago I gave birth to my first child, a little boy named Evan, and I did it all completely naturally (meaning no pain meds whatsoever). My mother gave birth this way five times, and I never thought I would follow in her footsteps, especially since I worked as a Labor & Delivery nurse before my days as a SAHM. I didn’t think I had it in me to deliver a baby that way, heck…I am a whiney mess when I have a migraine! I did it though, and my little guy wasn’t such a little guy…he weighed in at a whopping 9lb 12oz! Holy Cow!
Anyway, childbirth was the greatest accomplishment of my life, and it has left me with the knowledge that if I could do that, I can do anything. So…here I am…ready to get my body back…and not only that…but I want the body that I never had to start with. I’ve always been overweight to some degree. I think over the past eight years, my "best" was right before I met Mike (michaeljazz). I was going to the gym 3-4 times a week, and watching what I ate…and I weighed 190-200lb then. My motivation however was wrong. I was doing that because I wanted a man…and I thought that I would never find one as I was because I was convinced that men only wanted to date "skinny chicks" and I was not one of those. I never had been, I never would be.
Then I met Mike. He proved to me that my thinking was all wrong. I was so surprised by the way he thought that I convinced myself that he was too good to be true, and that he had a serious flaw somewhere. Well…we’re going on our second year of marriage now and I still haven’t found that serious flaw I thought he had. Granted, he does have a few minor ones, LOL…but who doesn’t! He’s totally helped me changed the way I think about myself and the way I see myself. I no longer have the goal of being skinny…I just want to be healthy. Yes, I want to look good in my clothes, but I know that I can look good…dang good in a 14-16! I’ve got solid childbearing hips, LOL…and a lot of other curves, and I don’t want to lose those anymore. Mike has changed all that!
In my pregnancy, I gained 30 pounds (thank God I didn’t follow in my mother’s steps and gain 80!). At my 2 week postpartum check I was already down 20 pounds (just one of many positive aspects of childbirth!) so I’ve only got 10 more to go until I get to my pre-preggo weight. My first goal though is to get down to 200lb, and we’ll re-evaluate from there.
So that’s it…we’re getting started this coming week. I guess Mike is going to "train" me while he wears Evan in a baby sling, LOL. Wish me luck!
but hopefully I’ll be back in there tomorrow!
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