Mission Im(Possible) ?

hi there everyone  ! for those of you who know me, you know that i have been m.i.a

so i am back with a MAJOR mission ! and hopefully with bb.com and with your help i can conquer this mission. so here is the deal, my boyfriend arjun will be going away for 5 months for work and while i will miss him A LOT and i will probably be bummed out for awhile, i figure i could take advantage of this time to really put focus on myself and lose some weight for good. i was thinking that it would be great to transform myself for arjun and of course myself. i would love for him to come home after being gone for 5 months and find me happier, healthier and of course sexier lol i know that it would make him so proud and i think that it would be the ultimate returning home gift. soooo i am looking to you guys for inspiration and motivation. i am hoping that you guys can give me the best tips and tricks for my journey. wish me luck !

hey there all ! i dont really know how to start this blog but i need some serious encouragement !!! for the last couple of weeks i ve been eating anything and everything…but the good news is that my weight hasnt gone up…everyday i keep telling myself that i ll eat good or i ll be like tomorrow is a new day…then the next day comes and goes and i always manage to screw it up ! the new year is coming and i was hoping i would have most of this weight gone…i want to make sure that december is a very successful month…why do i keep eating whatever i want ? how do i finally overcome this ? im just getting really sick and tired of going through this battle, and i just want it all to end ! i want to wear any clothes that i desire and i want my bf to be able to pick me up (corny i know lol) but im sure im not the only one that would like this…i feel so bad every single day and i want to stop feeling this way once and for all…i am getting sick and tired of crying every day…please someone just give some words of encouragement…i dont think i can keep going like this !

your damn right that it was the best thing i ever did for myself !!!

just last week i decided that i was gonna try a semi-fast…meaning i didnt just drink water. i also included protein drinks made with water, green tea, 100% fruit and veggies juices…also i took my multi-vitamin ! i completed 2 and a half days of this. why ? i made this decision because i wasnt getting the results that ive been wanting…your probably all thinking that i just lost water weight and fasting isnt really that great for you…well for me i wasnt doing this for a fast fix or as a last resort. ive noticed that i do not have any discipline, when it comes to food. meaning that i eat just because i can, and like a lot of other people we take food for granted. so i thought to myself as long as i have this way of thinking then the longer i ll be carrying this weight…i really needed to change my way of thinking…so the whole reason behind the fast was too teach myself self-discipline, and i must say it really has changed my way of thinking ! after those 2 and a half days i started eating clean and drinking tons of water and i havent looked back…when i get hungry i dont just grab the first thing i see…i drink water ! if that doesnt work i ll eat fruit after that, and almost always it works ! i realized that my way of thinking was holding me back from gaining success…discipline was the key to my success ! ive been losing weight consistently ! also i came across this quote:

"its hard to solve a problem with the same mind that created it"  

i could not agree more with this statement !

it may seem like a big goal to lose 13 pounds for november 1st, but im gonna give it a go !

me being under 200 pounds is so0o0o0o close and im beginning to get really excited ! im gonna do whatever it takes to get under 200, by healthy means of course !

well lastnight i had an upgrade…lately i ve started doing pushups, and crunches on a ball and plie squats…at first i did 100 of each, which is a big deal because i ve never done 100 of anything, especially pushups…when i did those first 100 pushups i could definitely feel it for a few days after, but it felt go0o0o0od !!!

lastnight i managed to do:

~150 ball pushups in 10 minutes

~300 ball crunches in 10 minutes

~100 plie squats using an 8 pound dumbbell in 10 minutes

wahoooo !!! im am so happy for myself and amazed how far my body has come…also on top of this it wasnt that long ago when i ran an 8 minute mile, which equals to running at 7.5 mph !!!  i remember when i first started jogging how much i suffered and struggled, i would get so upset with myself that i couldnt run and i cried about it…i just wanted to be able to do it, considering i could run in the past due to me playing rugby…so it was really frustrating knowing i could do it and now im having such a hard time with it…it really upset me because it shows how much i have really let myself go… BUT NO MORE !!!  i am here to get my old life back and get into the best shape of my life !!!

this is the beginning of Mission Im(Possible)…meaning will it be impossible to reach my dream body or is it really possible ?

i will be blogging often about anything and everything while in search of my dream body… i ll be writing about my strengths and weaknesses…this could include me reporting to you guys about days that i ate junk food or me having an awesome workout !

i ve been having a really hard time sticking to a plan…thats why i have decided to join BB.COM to really help get me on the right track…previously to joining BB.COM i set some low expectations for myself, goal wise…     i ve always just wanted to lose weight just because that seemed like the easy way out…  i was always saying things like "oh i ll just lose a few inches from my hips and waist so i can get down to my old size"  OR  "i want to lose weight" AND "i ll just get to 170 pounds"

i want to lose weight ? hmm what exactly is that ?

really that goal has no definite meaning and its not very precise…of course i want to lose weight, but what is it that i really want ?

in the last few days i really thought things over, long and hard and this is what i have decided…

~ i am VERY capable in attaining my "dream body"

~ i WILL lose weight, meaning tone up and build some true definition and have a fit body

~ body fat% goal 15-20% (i never ever would have gone for this before)

~ i WILL achieve a more than average body

BB.COM has really changed my way of thinking…before  when i would see thin women i would be like " oh i wish i was that skinny " but now when i see thin women i think " i can be better than that "

the other day i pointed out this woman to my bf arjun…and i said " see that woman ? shes thin, but not fit ! when i look at her i dont say WOW she has a nice body "

i want more than just a thin average body…i want a body that will WOW people…when people look at me i want them to say " WOW she has an amazing body, shes so FIT ! "

so now my goal is to not settle for just average, im going for AMAZING !