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292 Lbs.
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Days 340 (2013)-265 (2014)

well... it's been forever... the last time I entered anything into my workouts on this bodyblog was at the beginning of December 2013... a lot has happened over the course of the past 9 months.... stuff I would rather not delv into... however I will touch on the fact that I was in a relationship with someone who was a raging drug addict, who I fell inlove with.. but drugs won over love, and I realized that it was an emotionally abusive realationship where she wanted me for what I did for her rather then wanting me for me.. I'm better off with her out of my life and i'll never make that mistake again thinking that I could help/love someone who is addicted to all sorts of other ****.... anyway.. that's the one and only time i'll be posting about that **** from here on out...

this past week I have made a great effort to get myself back to the gym and putting all the negative behind me... this past 4 years has been a roller coaster of **** for me and I'm finally done with it and moving on to things that I need to do for myself rather then for other people... this is time to focus on ME and no one else... its time I grabbed life by the horns and took care of this weight problem once and for all...

I had great workouts this week that I tracked... and I'm looking forward to continuing to blog each day and continue on my journey to becoming the best I could possibly be physically...

here's to a great rest of this year, let's see if I can finally drop below 280 for the first time in 6 years!! :)  

Days 311-339

I have not been keeping up on this... shame on me... a lot has happened since I last wrote... first of all.. I've been training harder then ever, but not losing weight.. that's ****ing frustrating but I'm fighting through it.. I think my body is fighting me over it too..... I'm hoping after this month I can break the threshold and start actually making some more progress...

secondly... and ****ing sadly... the girl who I was absolutely interested in...who I actually thought I had a chance in hell with...  that I also had an amazing first few dates with... who told me that she "wasn't sure if she was ready to love again" after her last relationship.. who told me that I was so patient with her, and so kind... who told me that I was fun to be around.... a few weeks after that date last month... she changes her status to "in a relationship" with some ****ing douche **** piece of **** leading singer of some pile of trash garage band that plays in ****ing bars... some douche nozzle that she probably met while she was at one... well.. that guy wins... and as always... I lose.... I WAS SO ****ING PISSED OFF I couldn't see straight.... I have not been able to vent to anyone about this ****, and it's been really eating at me... so here I am.. venting on my blog that I get to vent about because It's pretty much been where I have gotten to write down my struggles over the past 4 years and it's also where i'll be able to write about my TRIUMPHS during the next 4!!!! I will get in the shape I've always wanted to be in... and i'll do better for myself.... now that I have that **** off of my shoulders.. time to press on!!! to more important matters... I have been working out about 4x a week... doing really good cardio now... (I've only really started doing cardio for the past month) ... im feeling differences in my arms, legs and back.. and hopefully if I keep on going at the rate I am i'll start to see some amazing results... I just ****ing hate my scale right now... and I'm actually planning on staying off of it until the end of the month because I don't want to put the damn thing through a window... at any rate... i'll be keeping up with this now on a daily basis... because I forgot about the venting properties it has on me.. it's actually calming... I think finally for the first time since I saw that ****ing "in a relationship" status.. i'll actually get some sleep tonight... I know people will say "bro it's not worth getting mad over" ... **** it's not.... I was being lead to believe I actually had a chance to be with someone beautiful, only to get **** on by the jerk ******* band singer who puts his hair in buns like miley cyrus and looks like a ****ing fruit cake........ I was absolutely really hurt by it.. but feel so much better now! thank you bodyblog for being my vent!!

PEACE!!! for tomorrow GOOD things will be written instead of bull**** bad crap!! ... it can only get better from here!  

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Days 292-310

I know I haven't updated this in awhile so here it goes.... I have been doing great... the past few weeks I have not had a beer night... and I have focused on going to the gym on the days I work at the delivery place.. On my days off, instead of sitting at home feeling sorry that the girl that I want to date is too busy to see me I drive myself to the gym and just work out and push myself... so far I've been seeing lots of strength gains, I can push more weight and I feel a lot better.. today is an off day and I'm using it to change the oil in my car .. I weighed in at 294 today, which is another week on a loss! ... that's different for me, I haven't seen this much progress in years... it's because I'm sticking to it... and it's making me feel confident that I can finally get this damn weight off and get in shape... now if only the girl I'm after could get a few more days off this month to see me, that would just really make my month :) she messaged me this morning! she doesn't know it but that made my night.... :)

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Days 286-291

had a weird week last week... finally got on track to get in the gym though, then last night I go and drink a bunch of beer and freaking ruin it all.... so tonight I hit the gym hard... did back and biceps then hit the treadmill for 55 minutes and a 2.50 min cool down... it was actually pretty good and I feel like I got a good session in... looking forward to doing it again tomorrow.. I have been lacking updating my blog and adding my exercises but I'll get better at that for the coming days.... no more beer for me until I get to my goal weight in may... and then if I hit it, I'll have a celebratory beer :P then after that it's a new goal to get to by the end of NEXT year!

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Days 261-285

just a quick note and update.. sorry I haven't been adding stuff to this lately.. I really should be.... just noting that I have gone to the gym each night I've gotten off of work in the past few weeks.. I have not done cardio just weight stuff... trying to just get into the habit of GETTING THERE... next week I'll start cardio.. for now im happy that im just getting there! ... on other notes... had an amazing first date last Wednesday with an amazing girl who I hope one day will decide that she wants to date me / see me exclusively (be my girlfriend) it's been so long.. 5 years since I've had a relationship... but I enjoy her company very much and she is one of the sweetest persons I've met in a long time... I guess moving to the east coast was well worth it so far.. she wants to see me again next week! so that's always a good sign! :) it's just more motivation for me to get this show on the road and get myself into the shape I've always wanted to be in..

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Days 258-260

been a busy weekend! I have been eating somewhat right :P not having accessibility to the fresh veggies and meats I do at my second job makes it a bit difficult for my other days off.. but I'm learning to manage!... on Wednesday I'm going to finally register my car and all that happy stuff, then on my way back I'll stop by my gym for a good work out :) I haven't decided if it's going to be a shoulder/leg day or not... but honestly, it probably should be... we'll have to find out Wednesday!

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Day 257

Today seemed more stressful for some reason... lots of idiocy at work... a co-worker slapped me on the shoulders after sneaking up with me.. my reaction was instantaneously In fight and survival mode.... you NEVER do that to someone and expect a calm response.... that's NOT cool to do at all to anyone... after I scared the **** out of him he apologized but I was still angry about it for awhile... busted it out at the gym and got it out of my system tonight.. it was a good workout! .... for some reason when I set the treadmill to 30 minutes I must have goofed though cause it suddenly stopped 20 minutes in and I didn't pay attention to it... these machines at this gym are a little weird but I'm getting use to them... I just wish they had a better abdominal machine.... over-all a good day and a good second day start to my go-at-it-again fitness goals!

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Days 20-256

WELLLL!!!!!!! it took several months... but I'm back at the gym.... to sum up what has happened during the last 9 months... I pretty much came to the east coast.. got two awesome jobs... and finally got my car fixed up to working order again and out of debt a little bit, and now im at a place where I can go to the gym and start working on myself! it's been a tough 9 months but I'm here... I fought through it and im ready to go... I set a new goal for 240 lbs. by next June... I think that is a safe thing to try for.. then we'll work from there! ... any way... today was my first workout since my previous work out entry! . I did back and biceps and did 32 minutes of cardio (including cool down) ... felt really good when I got done! looking forward to the future!

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Days 7-19

Well things went to **** for me up here real fast.... I couldn't get a job up here... apparently i failed the old school "it" test from staples, when all i've been doing the past year is computer repair and support. makes no goddamn sense... so me not being able to get a job is putting stress on my brother who in turn has a bitch girlfriend who is anti-social and needy and whiney and gets what she wants by telling him she's leaving him then comes back an hour later... im sick of it... ****ing sick of it so i've decided that im going to head to the east coast and reboot my life... my mom who was never there for me while i was growing up has decided that she would like to offer me help and a place to stay and an opportunity to get a job there and save and just be better... which would in turn be drama free and no bull**** that i would have to deal with... which is going to be good for me.... so i had to cancel my gym membership here... and now the first or second week in february ill be heading to massachussets... so until i get there, and i get a gym membership you wont be hearing from me... hopefully things will get better.. they've already gotten to be the worse they can be,....

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Days 5-6

Took a few days off.. my body has been sore as hell... I didn't cheat too bad on the diet... kinda lounged today for the football games though.. went to the gym and did a little bit of cardio then went to walmart and took back a water filtration system... got a different one instead... hopefully tomorrow night i'll get back in the swing of things... tomorrow afternoon i have a job interview, so that'll be good.. can't wait for that... i'm hoping I ace it so i can start having income and a better workout and sleep schedule..

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Day 4

Today sucked at the gym! not because the workouts were hard, but because there were a ton of old people there that wanted to banter and bull**** about random crap then work out and they hogged up the weight stacks and the machines and just sat there and babbled about nothingness.. on top of that, the cardio room was full to the brim... so just did what i could do that day, and after i was done with doing triceps and back because those were literally the only things that were open... i just gave up on cardio cause there was no room in there... seriously.. it was like it was a geriatric ward from a hospital ... all of these people musta been retired... or something... i am going to try to get there tomorrow AM at 6am.. but if i don't make it there at that time im just gonna wait until about 9pm to go instead... screw that noise.. that was pretty frustrating especially cause i wanted to get a good workout in today since my tattoo session is on wendesday! ... oh and i guess good news... i got offered an interview for a pc repair technician job at a local office store... so that'll be a good thing.. i do that monday...

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Day 3

Went to bed last night at about 10pm with the intention of sleeping till 1am then going to the gym, ended up sleeping till 6am! and got up and went to the gym right after eating some oatmeal and taking my vitamins... I got a **** ton of stuff done AFTER the gym this morning! It actually was pretty cool to go to the gym and just bust it out in the morning... i'm not going to do it tonight but if i can maintain going right when I wake up i'd like to schedule it so that I get there and get some cardio in 3 hours at the end of the night before i go to bed! that way i can get some double stuff in! .. come wendesday i'm getting some tattoo work done on my upper right arm.... so i'm not sure how long ill not be able to do any lifting but im sure my tattoo artist will know what/how/when...

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Days 1 and 2 RESET! NEW YEAR!

New year! resetting the days to 1 and 2! the 1st was spent being lazy and relaxing... and this morning I went back to the gym and did some light training to get myself back in my groove... it felt good tonight, real good... i can't wait to get back in there later tonight/tomorrow morning to get back on track and get busting some more... I can only go UP! the ****ty thing is my dog got bit by the goddamn pit bull that my brothers girlfriend has AGAIN... this time in her upper arm... so far it doesnt look too bad but ive been monitoring it for redness and tendersness i just really cant afford to go to the vet... but i wont hesitate if i think she needs to go... so far ive been using neosporin so we'll see how that goes and if the punctures start to close up and heal the next few days... its goddamn pathetic how she's pretty much been injured the entire first month of me being here, all because when we were drinking she wanted to try to "introduce them" again.. for ****s sake her goddamn foot finally healed enough to where i dont have to keep a sock on it... and now this.... its so frustrating..

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Days 363-365

Fell off the wagon over the new years weekend... I drank on saturday night and felt sick for 2 days afterward... i blacked out... it was bad... this morning) the 2nd, and im gonna make a separate blog for the 1st and second) I did a light workout to get myself back in rythm... felt good... ill be back at it full swing tonight/morning

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Day 362

Taking one day off to rest everything... I was too tired today, didnt get much sleep at all...have to wake up at 8am to get some personal stuff done... and I am going to go to bed early tonight... tomorrow night at the gym i'll double it up, i'll do back bi chest tri tomorrow when i get there... should be fun ill make it so!

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