Anne Marie’s BodyBlog

Well…I’ve had a major set-back…it’s been way too long that I can’t even remember the last time I worked out…it’s gotta be about 3 months??  That’s way too long for me and I’ve been beating myself up about it and yet I have still not got my butt back in the gym! And let’s not even mention my diet…more like "what" diet! It’s so hard to get back in the swing of things when you have been out for so long!

Thing is I have been crazy busy the past few months between the holidays, the kids, full-time & part-time jobs, moving, etc…I haven’t had the motivation to do much of anything! I know I know…that’s not an excuse…I need to make time! Now that things have slowed down a bit…I’m eager to get back into my routine.

I think a lot of my motivation right now comes from the fact that I am planning to attend The 2009 Arnold Sports Festival in Columbus in just a few weeks! I am so excited! I’ve never seen an actually show and I know for sure I will be hooked! I’m very interested in the new NPC competitive division - NPC Amateur Bikini Championships - I want to make this one of my goals!

With that said…I need to get with it!

I guess I get somewhat emotional about all of this at times. It can be quite depressing. 

I decided to take some full body pics of myself Sunday afternoon in a bikini thinking they couldn’t be that bad….or could they???

When I looked at the pics….reality struck me….all I was thininking is….OMG….what have I done to myself!? I couldn’t believe (or I guess I didn’t want to believe) that I really looked like that! I just wanted to cry!

As hard as it may be, I’m trying to turn this "moment of truth" into motivation.

Do you feel me on this one??? Ever been there??