Anne Marie’s BodyBlog

Every month my office provides a "treat" to celebrate all the staff birthdays for that month. Cake is usually the "treat" but this time it was cup cakes!!! Aaaahhhh! What are they doing to me??!! I know they are both cake, but there is something different about a cup cake. Needless to say, I over indulged. Granted, I have been doing pretty well the past few weeks with my diet and to be honest I wasn’t even hungry or overly tempted to eat those cup cakes…I just did it! No apparent reason really…just that they I could. Is that crazy or what? Well, I’m not going to sit here and beat myself up about it…it’s done and over with…imma keep it movin’!

Following my "Fat Tueday" morning sabatoge yesterday…I made a vow to take control and finished the evening off yesterday successfully…no binge fest last night! Woohoo!

I’m off to a good start this morning with my first meal…my challenge is to get through the rest of the day and night with 6 small healthy meals.

I know I can do it.

“Would you like me to give you a formula for success? It’s quite simple, really. Double your rate of failure. You are thinking of failure as the enemy of success. But it isn’t at all. You can be discouraged by failure or you can learn from it, So go ahead and make mistakes. Make all you can. Because remember that’s where you will find success.”
– Thomas J. Watson

It’s day two of my diet plan and I have been making a point to prepare my food so I can stick to my plan…I believe I did pretty well all day yesterday…that is…until that evening. I was good until me and the kiddos got back from the library about 9pm…I put some chicken breasts and turkey meatballs that I had prepared in the oven to cook. Shortly after I got the kids in their beds, the binge-fest began! OMG! What have I done?! If I could, I would have kicked myself in the a$$! Why am I so weak?? Night time is so hard for me because I’m so used to getting home from work and eatting late. I need to figure a solution to my late-night cravings. All the crap (i.e. chips, cookies, etc.) in the house is there for my kids, although, they shouldn’t be eatting that s@#t either. I need to get rid of it all or be more self-disciplined.

Just as I tell myself I will use last night’s binge-fest as a learning experience, I arrive at work this morning and I’m greeted with an email ironically titled "Celebrating February Birthdays and Fat Tuesday"…announcing that a white almond cake with chocolate butter cream icing is in the kitchen. OMG! What are they trying to do to me??? Am I being tested?? Is there a "fat cam" somewhere and I can’t see it??? Luckily, cake doesn’t really spark my taste buds, but a spicy southwest dip definitely does it for me! Of course, my weakness sets in and I’m dipping two, three, four wheat thin crackers into this fat-laden dip that was oh so good and oh so bad for me…I lost count on the tenth cracker or so…

I’m sitting here at work right now pondering what to eat as of course I didn’t prepare anything…that only leads to starvation and irritability or total binge fest and regret!

As stated in previous posts, my diet is what is most challenging for me. I read a lot about diet but the abundance of information can be so overwhelming and confusing. And all of our bodies respond differently to different things and I need something that is going to work for me and help me reach my personal goals.

I’ve been looking into getting some professional assistance with my diet and even workout. Especially, if I want to meet a goal such as competing. My issue with that is I am a single mom with limited finances and such services can get expensive. I was browsing Mike Davies site http://www.mikedaviesfitness.com/ because he has worked with many professionals in the industry and he is somewhat local for me. The prices didn’t seem too outrageous so I am seriously considering investing in his professional assistance.

Any thoughts? Do you think investing in professional assitance is worth it? Any feedback is greatly appreciated! Thanks!

The hardest part of this journey for me is my diet! I do pretty well during the day while I’m at work, but the evenings and weekends are a struggle. I think I’m not eatting enough during the day and I am starving by the time I get home from work, so I tend to binge on whatever is available. It’s a work in progress I know and I must give myself some credit because I have come a long way from eatting completely crappy the entire day!

Staying away from sweets is not a problem. I pretty much grew out of that as I got older. My weakness is pasta (carbs), lots & lots of cheese, and I indulge in a lot of alcoholic beverages on the weekends! Oops! Did I admit that??? And the thought of eatting bland, dry chicken on a regular basis makes me cringe!

Yep! My diet sucks all around! I think I know what my issues are but I guess I’m not as focused on my diet as I am on my training. I know I could do ALOT better with my eatting and drinking habits, but the discipline is not there yet. “Yet” being the key word.

Please help! Any suggestions or recommendations in this area are greatly appreciated! Thanks!