Anne Marie’s BodyBlog

Following my "Fat Tueday" morning sabatoge yesterday…I made a vow to take control and finished the evening off yesterday successfully…no binge fest last night! Woohoo!

I’m off to a good start this morning with my first meal…my challenge is to get through the rest of the day and night with 6 small healthy meals.

I know I can do it.

“Would you like me to give you a formula for success? It’s quite simple, really. Double your rate of failure. You are thinking of failure as the enemy of success. But it isn’t at all. You can be discouraged by failure or you can learn from it, So go ahead and make mistakes. Make all you can. Because remember that’s where you will find success.”
– Thomas J. Watson

It’s day two of my diet plan and I have been making a point to prepare my food so I can stick to my plan…I believe I did pretty well all day yesterday…that is…until that evening. I was good until me and the kiddos got back from the library about 9pm…I put some chicken breasts and turkey meatballs that I had prepared in the oven to cook. Shortly after I got the kids in their beds, the binge-fest began! OMG! What have I done?! If I could, I would have kicked myself in the a$$! Why am I so weak?? Night time is so hard for me because I’m so used to getting home from work and eatting late. I need to figure a solution to my late-night cravings. All the crap (i.e. chips, cookies, etc.) in the house is there for my kids, although, they shouldn’t be eatting that s@#t either. I need to get rid of it all or be more self-disciplined.

Just as I tell myself I will use last night’s binge-fest as a learning experience, I arrive at work this morning and I’m greeted with an email ironically titled "Celebrating February Birthdays and Fat Tuesday"…announcing that a white almond cake with chocolate butter cream icing is in the kitchen. OMG! What are they trying to do to me??? Am I being tested?? Is there a "fat cam" somewhere and I can’t see it??? Luckily, cake doesn’t really spark my taste buds, but a spicy southwest dip definitely does it for me! Of course, my weakness sets in and I’m dipping two, three, four wheat thin crackers into this fat-laden dip that was oh so good and oh so bad for me…I lost count on the tenth cracker or so…

Woohoo! I was ecstatic to get back in the gym today after a long time being out! My frustration, however, comes from being pressed for time. One of the only free times I have to workout is during my lunch hour at work. The gym is close to my job, but by the time I leave work, drive over to the gym, change into my gym clothes, I’m already about 15-20 minutes into my lunch hour!! I might have maybe 30 minutes, if that, to work out, then I have to leave at least 15 minutes early so I can rush back to work! Aaaaahhh…it’s so frustrating because I feel so rushed and it makes it hard to really focus like I want. Not to mention…I feel like I’m not doing enough! Today I did biceps and back. I got about three biceps excercises in and only one back exercise! I had a workout plan, but not enough time! I’ve been out for a while, so I definitely need to do some tweaking to my workout. I guess a little is better than nothing at all, right? Well, all I know is I have to figure out how to make this work. I’m confident I will figure something out.

Any suggestions, comments, etc? When do you work out?

I’m sitting here at work right now pondering what to eat as of course I didn’t prepare anything…that only leads to starvation and irritability or total binge fest and regret!

As stated in previous posts, my diet is what is most challenging for me. I read a lot about diet but the abundance of information can be so overwhelming and confusing. And all of our bodies respond differently to different things and I need something that is going to work for me and help me reach my personal goals.

I’ve been looking into getting some professional assistance with my diet and even workout. Especially, if I want to meet a goal such as competing. My issue with that is I am a single mom with limited finances and such services can get expensive. I was browsing Mike Davies site http://www.mikedaviesfitness.com/ because he has worked with many professionals in the industry and he is somewhat local for me. The prices didn’t seem too outrageous so I am seriously considering investing in his professional assistance.

Any thoughts? Do you think investing in professional assitance is worth it? Any feedback is greatly appreciated! Thanks!

Well…I’ve had a major set-back…it’s been way too long that I can’t even remember the last time I worked out…it’s gotta be about 3 months??  That’s way too long for me and I’ve been beating myself up about it and yet I have still not got my butt back in the gym! And let’s not even mention my diet…more like "what" diet! It’s so hard to get back in the swing of things when you have been out for so long!

Thing is I have been crazy busy the past few months between the holidays, the kids, full-time & part-time jobs, moving, etc…I haven’t had the motivation to do much of anything! I know I know…that’s not an excuse…I need to make time! Now that things have slowed down a bit…I’m eager to get back into my routine.

I think a lot of my motivation right now comes from the fact that I am planning to attend The 2009 Arnold Sports Festival in Columbus in just a few weeks! I am so excited! I’ve never seen an actually show and I know for sure I will be hooked! I’m very interested in the new NPC competitive division - NPC Amateur Bikini Championships - I want to make this one of my goals!

With that said…I need to get with it!