A twinless twins journey to health

Greetings all,

Just to let "you" know, I am in school earning my national personal training certificate so that I can officially help people change their lives through fitness and diet.  With that, I had my first "official" training session this morning.  Its funny, on the way to the session with my hot cup of coffee in hand, I was thinking about what questions I was going to ask in my preliminary interview with my client/friend.  I had NO idea that it would go much deeper than… ok, what time are you eating the nasty foods you eat that got you to this size.  10 minutes into the interview I asked, "What got you sedentary?"  My friend replied, much to my astonishment, "my fiance’ died sometime in the night and I awoke to find her on our bathroom floor, she was gone."  I WAS FLOORED!!!  It was like listening to my story with my twin sister.  I was reliving my sadness and shock all over again, but this time I could do something about it, I could make it better!!!  And I did!!!  I listened intently to him as he told his story.  We exercised afterwards and I told him I would be there for his journey back to healthiness.  I MADE A DIFFERENCE AND IT FELT GOOD.  I am realizing that through fitness you can heal.  You can overcome.  You can change.  The ability to dampen someones grief and sadness is nothing less than a miracle, and I am doing it.  My eyes are opening and I feel alive.  With that, I drove home and felt incredibly rewarded.

Do something wonderful for someone today, listen to them!  

Tracey (Twin to Stacey)

Hmmmm…where do I start?  I guess, "In the beginning".  My bodyspace manifestation began 9 months ago but my dilemma began 4 years ago.  My identical twin sister commited suicide and my life ended, or my life as a twin ended.  For the past 5 years I have been on a plethora of psychotropics/anti-depressants and sleeping medications.  I gained 51 pounds and was drinking copious amounts of alcohol.  I came across bodyspace by accident while surfing the web for diet plans and bodybuilding.  I was so ashamed of my weight and appearance that I didnt even post a picture for the first 5 months of having my account.  As I read through peoples blogs and accounts I began to transform mentally and become motivated; I realized that there are people out there with the same pains and tourmoils as me.  I felt like I wasnt the ONLY person.  I had an apifany that we ALL suffer and have pain!  On March 30th I took my last drink and began training, eating healthy and got my ass back into the gym.  I am not healed yet, but being in shape and exposing myself to the numerous stories of success and positivity on bodyspace has helped me deal with the depression and mental pain that comes along with the grief I experience everyday. 

My body transformation story has JUST begun!!!!

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Tracey (Twin to Stacey) may she rest in peace!

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