aerika0613’s BodyBlog

I just feel horrible. I have not been eating as clean as I should be. I need to get on the ball. I don’t know what I can do to up my weight loss. Any suggestions anyone? I really want to lose more weight. I got the toning thing down, but the weight loss….ummmm not so bueno! I wish I loved cardio as much as I love to lift weights. I need some motivation!!!!

Enough sulking. I need to suck it up and push myself harder. I do have a funny story to tell. Okay so this morning at the gym I am doing my "thang" and I usually keep to myself, hit it hard, and go home.(Don’t really pay attention to what others are doing) Well there was a group of guys working out or more like following the only one guy who knew what he was doing. I had to laugh because one guy would do about one set on a machine go the mirror flex, lift up his shirt as if that one set magically melted away the fat to show of a beautifully chiseled body. I kept my eye on him the whole time, and machine after machine, the same thing. One set over to the mirror to check out the progress he had made. It was pretty much like a circus in there. None of them were really working out, just hanging on all the machines and when they did use the machine it was with terrible form. All in all it was pretty fun to watch, it gave me a little entertainment while I worked out.

Okay so all weekend, I have been taking the easy road and been eating fast food.  I feel horrible and I don’t know why I even got the stuff.  I think it was because it was getting late and my hubby and I just grabbed was quick and easy.  I totally need to slow it down.  I can feel myself slacking off.  Ugh….I am so frustrated with myself.  I just want to lose my stupid belly fat.  I know it takes time and of course Rome wasn’t built in a day, but I can’t wait to see results.  I think that is why I push myself so hard, because I want to see results.  I am definitely going grocery shopping tomorrow so I can eat a whole lot cleaner than I have been these last couple of days.  I have class tonight and I can’t go because I will get out of class too late.

Gotta keep moving forward!!!

I had not posted any new pics or weighed myself until just recently.  I didn’t want a picture or number on the scale to bring me down, so I just gauge my progress by how hard I push myself in my workout.  It has been a little over 2 weeks since I posted any pics and once I did I couldn’t believe the progress I had made.  I noticed my clothes fitting differently, but I was really shocked.  Seeing the progress I have made in the last two weeks has made me want to push myself just that much harder.  It is a refreshing feeling knowing that all my hard work has made a difference.  I am very excited to see how much more I can transform my body.
So far I am juggling school, marriage, work, and parenting pretty well.  I don’t feel so guilty being away from home so much because my son is only 9 months and he won’t remember mommy going to work out, then work, then school.  My husband has also been a lot more understanding and has been giving me a lot more support.

Keep Moving Forward

I feel great today.  I did shoulders, back, and calves and I can really feel my work.  I never usually feel the workout in my back, but today I pushed myself and did really well.  Funny thing just happened.  As I was typing this blog, a driver comes in and sets 5 chocolate chip cookies on my desk.  I have no desire to eat one.  Woo hoo for me.  Plus eating it would totally upset my stomach.  But anywho…At the gym this morning there were these 3 guys working out and I get that what is she doing in here look, when I enter the weight area. Annoyed, I just turn on my mp3 player and bust it all out.  It’s weird that there are not that many women who lift weights at my gym.  I am usually the only girl in that portion of the gym when I do workout.  Whatever a trio of dudes isn’t going to stop me. 

I am still going strong.  Still wake up at 4am to lift weights, I have also added 15-20 mins. of cardio in the morning now as well.  I also walk for 20 minutes at work and walk/run/jog in the afternoon.    But even with staying consistent I would say the hardest thing for me to do is push myself harder.  I need to remember to push myself when I am at the gym or running. I have to tell myself that I am not going to lift heavier weights or get stronger if I stay at the same weight and reps and sets.  So this morning with that in mind, I pushed myself out of my comfort zone to get the feeling I did when I first started lifting.  It has only been two days of me feeling like I could do more, but I don’t want anything to deter me from my goals.  So for anyone who reads this, I would love your advice on pushing to the next level and breaking through.

I am having a very tough time in my personal life.  School starts today and that will take up some of my time.  I am not sure how I am going to manage everything.  I just want to be able to balance being a mom, student, and employee.  I still wake up at 4am and lift weights and then I do cardio in the afternoon.  I am trying to hold it together, but my life feels like a dam with a crack that keeps on getting bigger and bigger.  And at any moment can break.  Even though I don’t receive any support from my significant other, I do receive encouraging words from my family and that helps to keep me going.  I told myself I wouldn’t give up and I am not going to.  I need a calm during this storm!!!!

I had a very bad weekend.  I went to the state fair this weekend and I would’ve had a better time, if I had more in common with those around me.  I had corn on the cob and a corn dog.  And let me tell you, my tummy was not ready for the corndog.  I haven’t had fried food in a long time and it just didn’t agree at all.  I wasn’t as tempted as I thought I was going to be and I didn’t even have my annual funnel cake.  I just thought about all the hours I spend in the gym all week and that keeps me on track. 

I did exercise and eat pretty clean the rest of the weekend though, but I am having a lot of stress at home.  My husband does not support me at all.  I wake up at 4am before my husband and my 8 month old son, to workout, but last night my husband sayid he is going to go to work early just so I can’t workout. He does things like that all the time. He doesn’t agknowledge how hard I have been working or anything.  I have decided that I am not going to let him bring me to his level.  I am going to continue to try my hardest to reach my goal and maintain a healthier lifestyle.