Zenea’s BodyBlog

Hello all, again!

Well, I AM DOING IT!!!! I finally decided to do my first figure competition!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Oh my god!!!!!  I am SO nervous about it and afraid!  I am afraid I won’t look right!  But I have found some FANTASTIC people in the industry who coach for competition and so I am committed as of today to start my journey to March 28th in Vancouver, WA!!!!!!!!!  Oh my god!!!!

I went to my first posing seminar, where I sucked, but that is ok.  It was fun.  Many more to come!  And I am enlisting a fantastic online coach for nutrition and workouts…  Haven’t gotten my first plans, yet, but soon…

I am feeling bummed that I am not ALREADY in contest shape!!!!  Discouraged about that!  I have been working SO HARD! I have been working so hard for 12 years and also since this past April 1st when I started back on track with my food and totally changed my workouts!!!!!  I feel I should ALREADY look like a figure competitor and like you women out there who are already cut!!!!  So that is discouraging, but my coach insists I WILL be ready with proper nutrition and workout.  So I hope so!!!!!!!!!

I look forward to your support and meeting you also, at upcoming shows in Washington State in 2009!!!!

Love,

Kathy 

Hello all!

Well, things are going very well, I would say!  My weight is stabilizing sort of at around 127 or so, now.  Still wanting to go to 125, for now.  I am getting buff, though!  My body is definately cutting, slowly!  That is cool!  Today I took the day off from working out, which is unusual, due to my personal trainer suggested it and I have been pretty exausted, so it SHOULD do my body good!  Although it always freaks me out to take time off working out!  I am afraid my body fat/weight loss will stop!  Well, you know how we can obsess about these things, especially us with eating disorders/body image issues!

I am going to a posing workshop on Saturday! My first! I am rather scared, but hopefully, it will be fun!  I will let you all know!

I was reading a post and a bodybuilding.com friend was talking about how now figure is looking for less muscle and more bikini-model style bodies in the competitions.  This is disappointing to me, as who’s definition of a WOMAN’S FIGURE are we going for, here?  Obviously, some man’s!  It is very unfair.  Why should we have to have BREAST IMPLANTS, HAIR EXTENSIONS, FAKE NAILS, AND HIGH HEELS to be a woman in competition?  And no muscles?  It is defeating my own purpose of what I believe to be a muscle-toned woman’s figure.  A woman should be curvey and I like the muscle aspect of bodybuilding.  But we have different hair, different shapes, different figures, and different breast size.  When we diet down to show off our hard-earned muscle, we lose breast size.  So what?  Why should we have to have a life endangering surgical procedure for someone else’s benefit?  Someone else’s artificial idea of beauty for a woman?  Why are our REAL bodies NOT ENOUGH OR NOT GOOD ENOUGH?  What kind of HORRIFIC message is that sending to us women, men and their idea of women and beauty and girls all over this world????

This is getting very horrific.

Anyone else’s thoughts?

Back to another track, I am doing very well with no gum chewing!  I am proud of myself for that.  Also continuing to eat clean.  And, of course, working out!  YAY!

Hello all!

Well, things are going very well, I would say!  My weight is stabilizing sort of at around 127 or so, now.  Still wanting to go to 125, for now.  I am getting buff, though!  My body is definately cutting, slowly!  That is cool!  Today I took the day off from working out, which is unusual, due to my personal trainer suggested it and I have been pretty exausted, so it SHOULD do my body good!  Although it always freaks me out to take time off working out!  I am afraid my body fat/weight loss will stop!  Well, you know how we can obsess about these things, especially us with eating disorders/body image issues!

I am going to a posing workshop on Saturday! My first! I am rather scared, but hopefully, it will be fun!  I will let you all know!

I was reading a post and a bodybuilding.com friend was talking about how now figure is looking for less muscle and more bikini-model style bodies in the competitions.  This is disappointing to me, as who’s definition of a WOMAN’S FIGURE are we going for, here?  Obviously, some man’s!  It is very unfair.  Why should we have to have BREAST IMPLANTS, HAIR EXTENSIONS, FAKE NAILS, AND HIGH HEELS to be a woman in competition?  And no muscles?  It is defeating my own purpose of what I believe to be a muscle-toned woman’s figure.  A woman should be curvey and I like the muscle aspect of bodybuilding.  But we have different hair, different shapes, different figures, and different breast size.  When we diet down to show off our hard-earned muscle, we lose breast size.  So what?  Why should we have to have a life endangering surgical procedure