Deep thinking
Hey all, this is probably the deepest thinking I have done in a month, so I think i’ll write it down.
10 months ago I was an average kid. Not fat, not skinny. I did pushups, sit ups, curls, and pull upsas my workouts, and my diet was crap. Now I’m cut, and more dedicated to my health thank 99% of the people I personally know. Now I am also 9% body fat at 132lbs, which is tiny–I need to get bigger. Unfortunately, I have always fearedgaining back the fat I worked so hard to lose. I slowed myself down. I was afraid to add more than 50 calories to my diet, and I was closed minded. Now I realize the progress I could have made. From now on I’m not going to convince myself to add 50calories to my diet instead of 100, and I’m not goig to lie to myself that I will get fat. The fact is I screwed my progress by being afraid to eat more. I’m going to bulk until school starts, and then during school I’m gonna bulk a bit harder. I’m not gonna whine and b*tch about minor fat gain, because that will just make me overthink what I’m doing. I don’t know if this makes sense, but I thought I would get this on paper–err the Internet. It’s late. gotta hit my legs real early tomorrow.
