ZARia9999’s BodyBlog

Well, Saturday I did a leg-work out!!! And I accepted help from an obvious veteran lifter.. .who helped me with my form on the Smith doing squats… well, let me just say.. I’m walking on my tippie toes today becuase of that help…. it killed my quads and my glutes.. and made me realize how incorrect I had been doing it in the past.

So for me, it’s all about going back to the basics and concentrating on my form…

And cardio… yes, cardio… I’m working on that!

I’m a little bit low on the energy stakes - I get up at 4:15AM to get my workouts in and I need something (other then coffee) that will help "pep" me up a little. PLEASE NOTHING ILLEGAL OR HARMFULL - if I can’t buy it at a health/sports store - don’t bother!

Any suggestions would be highly appreciated.

P.S. 4 kids, very demanding job and stressfull commute also added to mix!

PB!!! Walked-Ran @ varying Incline - HIIT - Burned 500 calories in 44.2 mins -  did 3 miles! I’ve NEVER done this before.. it feels so great!

Adina wrote a post about how to redefine words for yourself - well, I don’t LIKE cardio… I don’t enjoy doing it… but you know what.. I LIKE what cardio does FOR me.. so now, I don’t try and sell myself on the fact that I LIKE cardio… but I LIKE what Cardio does for me.. same word, whole new understanding.

Bodyspace is really helping me to BREAK out of my self-imposed shell.. the limits that I’ve set on high high, how far and how wide I can grow… what I can and cannot do and accomplish and what words I place next to my name -in my own mind - that define who I am to ME!!!

I thank every single person who has reached out to me, given me some advice, encouragement, or even just blogged about their journey.. becuase every little piece is adding to the whole of who I am becoming!

Ok, I get it now..

1. I cannot NOT have a WRITTEN PLAN - DAILY PLAN - Does anyone have a sample daily plan I can work from please?

2. I cannot keep a Food Journal in my HEAD!!!! I just put my food down for today and guess what, it’s 12:38pm, and I’ve only eaten ONE  meal…. at 7:00AM this  morning… I’m grossly underfeeding my wonderful body - which makes it hold onto the stores it has for food - cause I’ve been STARVING it from nutrition.

3. I cannot keep an Exercise Journal in my HEAD!!!! - enough said!

4. I need to go back to basics -stop reading about P90X, 30-day Shred, Heart Rate Workouts, etc. etc. and just stick to the plan I have and work THAT PLAN to it’s max, and then expect to see some results.

I need a reality check…. FAIL to PLAN (Food, Exercise, Water, Rest) = PLANNING TO FAIL (staying in the same place I’ve been stuck in for all my adult life….. )

Now make that CHOICE and keep making it daily till what you see and what you’re expecting to see match up!

My mindset is slowly changing… almost how the earth rotates around it’s axis!! I’m not going to sit here and stare at the ground (my body) to see this change.. instead, I’m going to look at the signs around me… night turning into day(me getting up to go to the gym - no excuses, no matter how hard my flesh is yelling NO!!!), winter turning into spring (the fact that my legs are getting stronger, I’m starting to feel muscle underneath all the fat….)… and one day, as the world turns….. I will go from Jan 1st to Dec 31st and the change will be so overwhelming…

But for today, and tomorrow.. and each day to come, I choose to lift my eyes away from the ground, and watch the clouds…

Change really is be-coming a part of me!

Every single muscle in my entire body must be in a growth state right now, cuase I’m hurting like you won’t believe.. my booty hurts (the muslce…).. I can’t walk cuase my legs hurt, my arms hurt… my chest and shoulders hurt…. but my heart is HAPPY cause I know the pain is an indication of change, just as much as my muscles are growing and changing so my resolve is solidyfying.. another 4 AM wake-up survived… and one day, I’ll be happy to hear my alarm go off when most of the free world is still blissfully asleep… I rise, I rise, out of the ashes… the Phoenix rises!!!

I was reading some blogs yesterday, and something I read, I can’t even remember exactly where, got me to the gym today..

So, please don’t think that your experience on this journey, whether good or bad is for nothing… someone else might benefit from you putting it on here… I know I sure did, and something about staying in bed is just not that appealing to me anymore..

I’m now officially a member of the "4:00AM - Club"…. folks that have to get up at 4:00am to get to the gym and get their workout on!!! Yeah to us!  

MAKE IT A GREAT ONE FOR YOU!!!!

Why is it so much easier to critisize someone else for being weak, unfocussed or just plain lazy.. and yet, when looking in the mirror, you find a gazzillion excuses for your very own weaknesses in the EXACT same areas… well, the rant of the day is becuase I’ve just come accross a sheet of paper where I wrote my goals on in February 26th, 2008.

Well, sufice to say that I did NOT by any long shot reached ANY of those goals… and now I’m sitting here asking myself.. what is the point of me taking an hour or two out of my life to write down goals, if I’m going to stash it away somewhere and then again hap-hazzardly live my life, hoping to reach my target…. hmmm… somehow that seems like insanity to me… so, here we go.. I NEED to find a comprehensive plan of how to make my goals into reality… (deep breath…)…

How do I change ME!

My clothes are starting to fit a llliiiiitttttllllleee better… but then again, I haven’t been 100% on my new eating lifestyle, nor have I been to the gym as often as I should.. but still my clothes are fitting better, I’m feeling stronger and I’m making better choices, one at a time!!! I’ve faltered, I’ve even scrapped my knee a good time or two, from stumbling…but I’m walking towards the light… (clean eating, consistent exercising…)…

Downside… the scale is telling me that the total of my bodyweight has increased by 3lbs… my mind tells me that the % of muscle has increased relative to the % of fat, hence the upswing in the numbers.. my heart is telling me that I’m just FAT… so herein lies the dicotomy of being me…. who’s report do I believe!!!!!!

And still …. I rise!