ZARia9999’s BodyBlog

I am feeling so stoked!!! Hubby and I went to work out today and yeah.. I did cardio for more then 30 mins for the FIRST time in my life.. yeah to that!!! And on top of that, I did little mini-sprints which helped me burn a whopping amount of calories.. I’m so happy!!!

Also did an awesome shoulder and trap workout with him, and I"m so glad! My husband is a beast in the gym, but his major weakness is food.. now I have to step up to the plate and figure out how to get him to like more healthy cleaner food!

Thanksgiving dinner was bad, but not an entire wash, becuase I only had a small serving of desert and tried to have as many (messed up) veggies as feasable!

LOL, so I decided that I wanted to take better before pictures… man, I didn’t know it was such a deeply emotional thing. I took the pictures, but I can’t post them yet.. I’m not ready… Wow.. this is some deep emotional baggage that’s coming out!

I’m confused.. My hubby says he wants to help me in any way he can.. but then he is the same person who tempts me with all kinds of junk. I don’t think he understands what eating clean really means.. for him if it’s "good" then you can have as much as you want.. and I know that it’s NOT the case.

Also, I’ve been asking him to help me take some more before pictures, but there’s always something else that comes up… even when I had the camer RIGHT there last night.. I’m loosing weight, I can tell.. and I want a good record of where I’ve started from… and also just to be able to keep myself accountable…

He’s a phenominal guy, but I think that in some wierd way me coming out of my "fat suit" is somewhat of a challenge to him. How can I help him understand that I’m doing this for me, but it’s NOT going to change how I feel about him. He is my ONE and only!!! Period!

Yesterday I was invited to a HUGE babyshower, for someone who had tried, and tried, and tried and finally she is having a baby!!!

From all I’ve learned on BB.com and here on Bodyspace - reading other blogs etc. - I knew that I would be tempted to eat bad, but since my trainwreck of a Friday, I could not afford to… - so I ate a healthy meal before leaving home… - and by the time the food was served, I didn’t even LOOK at the fried chicken.. I had 2 small pieces of potatoe, some beef and LOTS and LOTS of salad (with spritzer dressing).. I had my cake packed up in aluminum foil, to take home to hubby and the kids.. and I ate a super-smalll piece myself. Then when I got home, I opted to have my steak with only veggies, no couscous!!!

I know that I’m not 100% clean yet, but I’m learning to make better choices.. the Fruit Parfait at McDonalds instead of the Cheeseburger.. the salad over the fries… one step at a time.

And the Coup was when I got up, tired as I was, and I cooked my chicken for this week!!!! I am so infinitly grateful to EVERYONE here who has shared their journey with us, the struggles as well as the triumps becuase it’s due to all of you that I had a good weekend and I’m closer to my goals today!

YEAH… you guys totally rock!!! Thanks so much to all who encouraged me to pick myself back up. I went to the gym today, and man… was it crazy or what.. I’ve NEVER felt so much in the zone.. I had a plan, I had purpose and I kicked my own "a@@"!!!

I did complete upper body, plus a nasty lower set…. never did 110 on the leg press before!!! And then I topped all that off with a great 30 mins of cardio, burning a total of 500 calories… I don’t know where this workout falls on the Richter Scale, but on the ME scale, it’s a full on Godzilla-quake!!!

Only problem was that I didn’t eat ANYTHING before I worked out, so after this brutal workout, when I got back home, I was so totally feeling like I was bout to faint… I had a mutha of a headache too.. so I ate some eggs and some bread.. I figured if I did protein and complex carbs I should be OK…

Bodyspace has been like an injection of fuel into my veins.. I’m so deeply grateful to all of you busy dynamic folks, that take the time to send a comment, or encouragement my way…

Let’s do this!

I just came back from lunch with a few collegues who have left our firm, and needless to say.. it was brutal. We had lunch at a Thai Place, and the food there is my ABSOLUTE weakness… not that they didn’t have any salads on the menu, I just didn’t want them. I settled for seafood sweet melody.. but I can’t even begin to know how many calories THAT must have been… what now… flush it out of my system with water.. what to do.. it’s starting to snow outside, so my late night work-out might be in jeopardy too.. man, Murphy SUCKS!!! Or maybe it’s just me with horrible lack of planning!

I just came back from lunch with a few collegues who have left our firm, and needless to say.. it was brutal. We had lunch at a Thai Place, and the food there is my ABSOLUTE weakness… not that they didn’t have any salads on the menu, I just didn’t want them. I settled for seafood sweet melody.. but I can’t even begin to know how many calories THAT must have been… what now… flush it out of my system with water.. what to do.. it’s starting to snow outside, so my late night work-out might be in jeopardy too.. man, Murphy SUCKS!!! Or maybe it’s just me with horrible lack of planning!

I’m so proud of myself, ya’ll. I was going to make my TYPICAL excuse for NOT going to work out in my lunch hour… tired, busy, have to "do" lunch with a friend.. but today, for the first time, I let my "Best Me" talk to my "current me".. and it was awesome. I didn’t get all the stuff done that I wanted to… but I did a good overall body workout!!! Hit my legs (problem area!!!), my upper(biceps, shoulders and chest)… yeah me… I feel like I can sing and dance…. now why doesn’t my BRAIN remember how good I am feeling now, next time I have to fight with Ms. Mediocre-Ordinary…. hhhhmmmmmmm but on we go.. cause we are WARRIORS and we will win this BATTLE!!!!

I’m so proud of myself, ya’ll. I was going to make my TYPICAL excuse for NOT going to work out in my lunch hour… tired, busy, have to "do" lunch with a friend.. but today, for the first time, I let my "Best Me" talk to my "current me".. and it was awesome. I didn’t get all the stuff done that I wanted to… but I did a good overall body workout!!! Hit my legs (problem area!!!), my upper(biceps, shoulders and chest)… yeah me… I feel like I can sing and dance…. now why doesn’t my BRAIN remember how good I am feeling now, next time I have to fight with Ms. Mediocre-Ordinary…. hhhhmmmmmmm but on we go.. cause we are WARRIORS and we will win this BATTLE!!!!

My hair!!!! I’m having some type of scalp situation going on. My entire scalp is peeling off, and my hair is coming with it.. this all started on Saturday morning… so by mid-day I was sitting with bald patches all around my head. Off to … the Hair Cuttery.. and there we did it.. chop, chop, chop….

In a wierd way it’s so immensely liberating!!!!

I am NOT my hair!!!! I am NOT this skin.. I am the SOUL that lives within!!!! - India Arie!!!