Saturday 3/29, My smirking anger.
I rolled into Gold’s after giving my truck its weekly was *yes at least once a week I was my truck, i take care of my stuff.* So I’m sitting there thinking about my life again, i’ve been stuck on this. I’m really a lonely person! Is this my own choice? Maybe it is and i haven’t realize it yet. Honestly, I miss my *soon to be, waiting on the courts* x-wife and my step daughter; doing family shit, running errands, etc. FAMILY stuff. OR maybe i have it so damn good i just don’t realize how damn good i have it right now………. I do what i want when i want. I have only myself to take care of. my only worries are 1. did the dog get out of the fence and 2. money. But then again I miss laying in bed next to her, i miss playing games with k-rock *s-daughter*, i miss cooking and eat dinner at a table instead of this desk i’m always perched on. Somedays doing a cannonball off the Key Bridge or Bay Bridge is very appealing. Is this life or am I just a loser?
Overall i did the cavles, forearms and abs thing today. I need to make a trip to the mall…….
