XXX666’s BodyBlog

I had an outstanding weekend!  Finally sold my last motorcycle/atv; now if only the boat would take a damn hike!

Did shoulders today, cleaned 265 several times, should have tried to go heavier but i’ll save it for next week.  My overhead presses are still a shit sandwich.

I rolled into Gold’s after giving my truck its weekly was *yes at least once a week I was my truck, i take care of my stuff.*  So I’m sitting there thinking about my life again, i’ve been stuck on this.  I’m really a lonely person!  Is this my own choice?  Maybe it is and i haven’t realize it yet.  Honestly, I miss my *soon to be, waiting on the courts* x-wife and my step daughter; doing family shit, running errands, etc.  FAMILY stuff.    OR maybe i have it so damn good i just don’t realize how damn good i have it right now……….  I do what i want when i want.  I have only myself to take care of.  my only worries are 1. did the dog get out of the fence and 2. money.  But then again I miss laying in bed next to her, i miss playing games with k-rock *s-daughter*, i miss cooking and eat dinner at a table instead of this desk i’m always perched on.  Somedays doing a cannonball off the Key Bridge or Bay Bridge is very appealing.  Is this life or am I just a loser?

Overall i did the cavles, forearms and abs thing today.  I need to make a trip to the mall…….

Yeah……………

So, the gears in my head have been turning a lot lately as perviously stated.  WTF am I doing with my life????  Seriously!  I go to work, then the gym, then home and repeat.  My life is bland.  Is there more to it than this?  Am I missing the overall point?  I feel as if i’m depriving myself but of what I have no idea.

Today I did bi’s and tri’s, loads of fun.  I still need to get a camera and update my photos…….  OH WELL someday. My dog is eyeballing me.  If his eyes were lasers I would have a hole burned through my head.  Time to play.

Angry, lonely and hungry.  Currently fixing 1/3 of my problems; 10 more minutes until the chicken is finish.

I haven’t been able to turn on any intensity this week but overall i’m content with my strength perfromance.  The wheels have been spinning a lot upstairs lately and i think its distracting my focus.

Lets rant!  My hamstrings are enormous which cause a few problems. First finding jeans that fit good is damn near impossible so i have to buy baggy jeans which isn’t cool depending on where i’m going.  Second these damn hams rub together when i walk like a normal human being; so i have to walk like a duck. 

Rant #2! Seriously!  I have a big penis, almost 10 inches. Sometimes after doing deadlifts, power cleans, abs; anything where my hips are involved my underwear stretches.  After my underwear stretches my dick flops all around when i walk; it makes me paranoid since i wonder who notices my wang flipping around like a fish out of water.  I’m embarassed.

I think i’m done for now.

Time to get a new camera, i haven’t updated my profile with any photos in a few months.  I shredded up a little bit more and put a little bit of size on my forearms and calves but I probably still look the same.  I’m going to order a measuring tape so i can keep better track of my progress.

Otherwise its the same old boring consistent life which isn’t necessarily a bad thing.  Patiently waiting for my tax return to show up in my account *probably when i’ll get a camera, maybe.*  The weather is finally starting to break so i’m back to walking the dog around the hood. 

Time to shave and shower.

Damn, this month is almost cooked!

Another day of shoulder work completed; honestly my lack of intensity was a disappointment!  Fealt a lot of neasua and breathless half way through the session.  i’m wordering if my sugar is dropping….

 I need to post some new photos, maybe next week i’ll get a new camera….

Today I’m out of the office wrapping up the Easter break I took to visit my family.  I actually got up and got ready to go into work then decided not to go.

I have been having a had time getting out of bed in the mornings…..

I’m starting to feel stressed and depressed again. 

Life could be worse, I could be a one legged crack whore featured in a HBO special.

Trained shoulders today.  Struggling with my over head press poundage; going to think about my routine and switch things up.

Have you ever wondered what the hell your going to do with your life at any given moment?  I’ll be turning 29 in little over a month and I honestly feel like an over grown boy.  Yeah I have a job, my priorities, I take care of my bills and my dog but other than that I feel like I’m missing something.  What is the big picture?  Should I be trying to make a difference for something some how?  Some days I feel like little joe dirt all alone in the grand canyon………

Anyway, today was Legs, Calves, Forearms and ABs at the gym.  Nothing overly exciting to make a statement about.  Been home ever since eating and doing laundry types of tasks; the excitement is electric! 

Have you ever wondered what the hell your going to do with your life at any given moment?  I’ll be turning 29 in little over a month and I honestly feel like an over grown boy.  Yeah I have a job, my priorities, I take care of my bills and my dog but other than that I feel like I’m missing something.  What is the big picture?  Should I be trying to make a difference for something some how?  Some days I feel like little joe dirt all alone in the grand canyon………

Anyway, today was Legs, Calves, Forearms and ABs at the gym.  Nothing overly exciting to make a statement about.  Been home ever since eating and doing laundry types of tasks; the excitement is electric!