Cullen’s Blog

Wow… I was at the Arnold Classic for the first time yesterday.  What a show! I was speechless… All these people there… everyone had massive muscles! I felt like a toothpick there.  It was AWESOME.  I saw Jay Cutler and shook hands with Ronnie Coleman and took a picture with him and even got his autograph!  He’s been my idol for the longest time.  I’ve always wanted to meet him and I finally did.  Yesterday rocked.

Sigh… a child’s want to please his parents.  It seems like mine will never be fulfilled.  They always want me to be the best of the best in everything.  However, they get angry at me that either that does not occur or it they vastly underestimate how difficult something is.  I’m an Eagle Scout and an instructor and 3rd degree black belt.  I play guitar pretty well and made Jazz 1 this year and started my own band.  I speak 5 languages pretty fluently.  I know how lots of computer programming languages.  I get pretty good grades.  I’ve been accepted into every college I’ve applied to so far.  I ran Track in school for 3 years.  I’m now an in shape bodybuilder.  I mean what more could they want?  It’s not like I sit home, play video games all day, and fail at life.  I’ve got lots of friends, people like me, I’m nice, I snowboard…  Yet they’re completely ashamed of me.  Today my mom just told me I fail at life and I’m going to work at McDonalds for the rest of my life because I got a bad grade in AP LIT. Not like some English Comp or something, one of the hardest classes in our school while I’m taking the other hardest class in our school, AP Bio… Like seriously… They wanted me to become an Eagle Scout yet yelled at me that it was taking too long…. WOW I’m sorry I don’t walk in there and they give me it.  Sorry it actually takes me effort. Sheesh.  Freaking morons.  I’m in clubs at school, I’ve applied to tons of scholarships… I try to spend their money only when I need it.  I’ve never asked for something I don’t NEED.  I don’t have a 30,000 dollar car.  I’m trying to get my own money to pay for college… yet I’M NOT EVEN ALLOWED TO WORK.  Sigh my parents may think I’m a failure… but I’m not.  I just wish they’d see it.

On the working out side: I’ve been sick A LOT lately. like riddiculous amounts. I’m not quite sure why… It’s killed my chances of going to the gym on a regular basis.  IT SUCKS.  I try to go as often as I can.  Man life is harsh.

Well, lately I’ve had to go to the gym alone because of my schedule.  It kind of stinks but at least I get to lift consistently for now.  I’m not doing track this year which sucks but at least I get to work and lift.  Also, I’m not as stressed and tired which is another plus. 

Oh wow, so sweethearts was so much fun! Dinner was amazingly cool, I loved our conversations and my girl was so nice and cool during the whole dinner! She looked so nice!  It was awseome!  Then the dancing.  Wow.  All I can say, wow.  My girl’s gotten so good at it.  I was so happy!  It was a blast!!!! Looking forward to prom.

Yeah so the rec is closed for the next two weeks. Thank god I just acquired a free bench from my month long stay at Washington DC. I can finally put that to good use. It sucks though being without a gym for so long. It is only two weeks but it feels more like two years. I have stopped taking creatine and will probably load again once the gym opens up again. I found a couple new lifting buddies (one who just came back from the army). I’m desperately trying to keep my weight up and hopefully gain a lot over the winter. We’ll see how it goes. Peace everyone. Happy lifting.

Well I’ll kinda miss the freedom here but yeah I’m coming back soon…

hopefully I’ll be back in the gym today. I’ve had to take like 4 days off due to work. Sucks!!!!

Kinda sucks that I have to sort of take it easy. I think when I strain i’m going about 80-90% of what I could push. Not too bad if you really think about it but it still sucks that I can’t push that extra 10% without risking further injury. Anyways the gym I’ve been hitting up is so freaking crowded. I think I perfer gold’s gym over ballys. Weight still keeping the same. That’s finally good news. I gotta pee. Cullen out.

Wow it sucks… first headaches now I wake up at 4 every morning. So annoying. It’s screwing with my training. I did back and bi today. Pretty sweet, felt a nice pump. I haven’t been taking much glutamine as usual. Uh I’m going to buffet tonight so more bulking! My weight has come back up. I looked in the mirror and I’m pretty happy with the results I’ve gotten so far. I’m just tired. Bought Harry Potter. Awesome. I wonder if I start taking creatine again will it shoot up my weight and arm size? I’m kinda curious. I love my girl. Shout out to her. Peace.

Finally! My headaches are gone! I didn’t have to take any advil which KILLS my pump. It was wonderful. Just drink lots of water and warm up 5 min before hand! I’m also back down to 130 but I still feel kinda fat. My arms seem a bit bigger so I’m pretty content. Can’t wait for my headphones to arrive. Hopefully they’ll get here soon… Might not be able to hit up gym today. Hopefully I’ll go tomorrow.

Well it’s been a week. I got a free two week guest pass to Baily’s Gym. The gyms got a lot of equipment but lacks in space. It’s too crowded. I like our rec better, it’s got a much more at home feeling. I’ve had god-awful headaches like someones stabbing a knife into my heart whenever I do any exercise… Whenever my heart beat rises it starts. It sucks ass. I can barely lift because of it… sigh… I’m bulking so much and eat so much but it doesn’t seem to be helping me add any mass. I still look thin. It’s frustrating that I can’t really lift. I have had to take advil to help with the damn headaches…