WannabBig!’s Blog.

Just got back from the gym…it was INSANE (in a good way).

Weights went flying up for all my exercises, I felt like shit all the way through my workout but i had a HUGE coffee before going so I felt like I was on ECA all over again.

I forgot to mention another nasty side effect…NO appetite Pushing down 5000 calories when you’re not even partially hungry is like torture. Considering I was ravenous when just on Test this is a really unpleasant side effect. M-drol would be awesome for cutting in this respect but feeling like shit all day long is not nice even if it does blunt your appetite.

I guess I’m keeping the M-drol in my regime for now. It’s really harsh and I probably won’t ever use it again after this run but for all this torture there’s got to be so nice gains coming (considering it’s WAY more anabolic that testosterone).

I also think my libido reduction might be from the combination of arimidex and M-drol (both suppress oestrogen), the lack of sleep doesn’t help but this might be contributing.

I honestly can’t imagine people running this shit without some sort of exogenous testosterone coming in, it just seems ludicrous to me. I guess all the vets were right, oral only cycles are probably a HUGE disappointment, full of side effects and next to no gains that you can hold onto.

I’m definitely sticking with the M-drol for now but it’ll be pinning for me from here on out, for all the side effects I’m getting from this stuff I might as well have thrown in some Tren to the mix!

M-drol is horrible…

I’ve honestly been virtually ’side-effect free’ all cycle whilst using testosterone, clean gains, insane libido, great sleep, elevated mood and no crazy side effects!

This is now day 5 of M-drol and I want to die Headaches, back cramps, insomnia, lethargy, no libido (although I think that’s from the lack of sleep) and really painful joints.

I’m tempted to drop the M-drol, nothing is worth all these crazy side effects. I’ve seen some mad strength increases from using it but nothing that the test didn’t give me and at least I enjoyed training whilst only on test!

I took 10mg this morning so I’ll see how my workout goes, if I become some sort of inhuman lifting machine I might be tempted to lower the dose back to 10mg/day and stay on but I doubt it.

I’ve got so much on right now with my thesis that I can’t afford not to be sleeping and feeling like shit 24/7.

Looks like I don’t respond well to oral steroids, kind of convenient isn’t it?

…and it’s ok so far! No side-effects as of yet but from the logs I’ve read it takes a few days to fully kick in anyway. The HCG should help prevent too much shutdown so I’m hoping for some nice, clean gains for these few weeks!

Took 20mg today (spread out over two 10mg doses), one with my shot in the morning and the other in the afternoon with my fish oil and perfect cycle tabs.

Had a good workout today (chest again), reps and weights continue to climb but not at the crazy rate of the previous weeks (had to slow at some point) so I’m hoping the M-drol helps me bust a few more PBs before I finish my cycle. I might throw in my creatine loading phase in the last week of test to help get it into my system quicker for PCT.

Weighed in again at 89kg same as last week. I’ll have to up the cals to 5000 now and see if that helps. I keep looking full and bigger overall, it was so funny getting asked by one of my students ‘how do I build big muscles like you!", LOL! I’ve never had anyone say I had ‘big’ muscles before!

My left hip is still painful, so I’m leaving out the squats for another week. It sucks but at least I can still go heavy on the leg press and deadlifts, I’ll work them back into my routine slowly, probably more as a ‘conditioning’ exercise as my squat has never been as impressive as my deadlift max.

Forearms are also giving me agro now! Tingling, numbing fingers made me worry about carpal tunnel syndrome! I think it’s just from overuse, if it doesn’t go away post cycle (when i lower the training volume a bit) I’ll get it checked by the doctor. For now I’ll put up with it.

Until next time.

Or at least that’s what I keep getting called! The weight is certainly starting to show now (and continuing to climb!) I look a lot thicker, especially in my traps/shoulder area, even my stubborn arms are growing!

I managed to hurt my left hip joint squatting last week I’ve been resting it but I can’t even bodyweight squat below parallel without pain. I’ll be substituting out heavy squats for leg press today and see if that helps and I’ll continue to do stiff leg deadlifts and normal deadlifts as these don’t seem to cause any pain.

Ordered up a few more ‘goodies’ for PCT including…some M-drol! I figured that since my cycle was going so well I wanted to finish with a bang. 4 weeks of M-drol should be nice (good reviews across the board) as it seems to be a decent clone of the original Superdrol.

I’m thinking of starting at 20mg/day and upping the dosage if needs be to a maximum of 30mg/day (no need to overdo it). The compound in the M-drol might help with ’solidifying’ some of my hard-earned gains on cycle and force a few more PBs before I head into PCT.

Creatine will be a staple in the PCT but I’ve also got some Reduce XT to help with the cortisol floating around. I think food and rest are going to be the main savours of my lean mass though.

Another HCG shot in an hour, looking forward to it

Ok the weight gain is getting a ‘little’ crazy….86kg this week

That’s almost 20lbs since I started! I’m a participant in an experiment at the moment for my mate, he honestly cannot believe the amount of weight I’ve gained since he last saw me weighed (I’d just finished my cut for the bboy Uni champs), I guess the old ‘creatine’ excuse will just have to do…

Had an HCG injection this week, hopefully it’ll make my HPTA recovery a bit quicker in PCT. Even though ‘feelings’ are in no way indicative of how shut down you are, I feel great!

Recovery is still excellent, although I just couldn’t bring myself to do cardio after my legs session today. I annihilated the squats and was so I was exhausted there was no way I was jumping on a treadmill, even if all I do is walk!

I’ve switched out some of the isolation work in my training for more ‘big lifts’ (power cleans and more squats). Reason being is that the Test should have peaked by now so I think it’s time to get as much ‘bang for my buck’ as possible and start whacking on some slabs of muscle mass, the stronger I get overall (hopefully) the bigger I’ll get.

I’ll be watching my recovery and won’t be afraid to drop the cardio if it starts to dwindle.

Calorie intake is still ridiculously high but bodyfat isn’t creeping up too much, I look better on some days that others (water retention).

Well, it’s the end of my fourth week and I’m up to 86kg!! Not seeing much in the way of size gains, my traps and shoulders may have grown a little (hard to tell when you see yourself every day)  and my body fat is roughly the same (impressive for nearly 20 extra lbs of weight!).

All this week I was paranoid about over-training (due to my 6 day routine) but I’ve gained a HUGE amount of weight and my arms are finally growing!! so I guess I’m not doing too much wrong! It’s strange how my weight seems to be coming in short ‘bursts’ rather than a gradual gain in weight.

I think I was bordering on tendonitis in my forearms, I added in 2 extra forearm work sessions and that’s when the pain started. I’ve cut it right back to some extra work with my arms on Thursdays and that’s it.

I keep reading on the various boards that the noticeable size gains can be as late as week 6 so I guess I’ll just have to be patient.

HCG starts this coming week (5), so I’ll be pinning the day after my test shots all the way up to week 10, think I’ll reconstitute the HCG today and refrigerate to save some time.

So far this cycle couldn’t have gone better! I think I’ll stick with injectables for all future cycles, I don’t fancy risking my liver and testosterone seems to agree with me (Maybe just kick start the next cycle with some prop?).

Well, 3rd round of pinning began again and it was all good Quads FTW!! Little to no pain, went in smooth as butter.

Weighed in today at 83kg!!! (182lbs) That’s a 6kg (13.8lb) increase!! Well chuffed! So I’ll stick with the 4000kcal/day for now and see how the weight fluctuates next week.

Great workout today, great pumps and a mate commented that I was looking bigger! All good.

Oh and I’m all better now

Well maybe overreacting a bit but I feel like cr*p!

A flu virus has been circulating around recently on campus/town and since I’m training so hard at the moment (ok that’s an understatement, my training intensity has been NUTS!) my immune system must be down because the blocked nose, headaches etc. started yesterday

I hit it on the head though! Good old home-remedies to the rescue! I cut up a massive piece of ginger root and infused it with some lemon juice and two bags of green tea in 0.75L water, seems to have done the trick

I weigh in tomorrow, getting a bit fatter but I don’t care I don’t have to impress anyone! Hopefully the mass gains will come soon

Quad shot tomorrow (good riddance delts!).

God I feel like a prat today!

Just finished my second delt injection (OMG does it hurt!) and almost had a heart attack because I forgot to aspirate fully! I dove in headfirst with the lance and started to inject, realised after about 0.1ml and then tried to aspirate!

That could have been fatal, I will NEVER do that again. Especially since I take every other precaution to keep things sterile and do things properly.

I tried heating up the oil today, it drew a little easier so I think I’ll do it for all my other injections.

No fountains of blood thankfully from the right delt, just pain, pain, pain!

As you have probably guessed I did my first delt shot today and I am currently in agony

Since the quad shots had gone so well I thought I’d give the legs a rest and shoot the shoulders today…big mistake! First of all, as soon as the pin came out, a stream of blood went everywhere! (when I aspirated there was no blood though) and it left a lump in my medial delt which thankfully (4 hours later) has gone down.

I trained chest and back today, it was an awesome workout but the pain was excruciating!

I’m honestly NOT looking forward to training my shoulders on wednesday and friday, plus I have to shoot the other delt on Thursday!

I’ll probably shoot delts again depending on how quickly the pain subsides (small muscle group so it might go away fast), if it’s this painful to shoot small muscle groups I might leave my arms free for a while! (ventromedial glute next!)