Talking about over doing it
Okay I have not been able to move my neck and not too much my back either since Friday morning. Thursday I over did it. I went for a long run with my dog when I got up, then went to the gym and weight trained for over a hour, came back home with son and we did some major gardening. Big yard and just bought the house last fall. Bachelor lived in this home before me and it needed alot of work. You know - a woman’s touch. Flowers, flowers and some more flowers. Yah I love flowers.
Anyways I am so mad at myself cause I have caused myself to lose three days of working out. And to top it all off - I have been eating crappy for three days. You think I would be the opposite since lately I am really noticing the body fat going down?????? I am going through this weird thing right now where I will catch myself in the mirror and just stop and stare. Who is that? Wow maybe this clean eating, weight lifting, vitamins, drinking my water is actually doing something??? Did I get scared a bit last time I reflected on this and thought that maybe I don’t deserve this? Sometimes I do that to myself. And the other thing is I use to have men just glance at me, sometimes a second look but now - they stare. At first this made me uncomfortable. I have been invisible for the last six years and my whole life I didn’t like men. Now in my life (major learning journey) I have come to love men. I am starting to UNDERSTAND men. Anyways I have shared a bit too much. It has been raining for four days straight and I am going mental stuck in the house with three kids, dog, cat, etc… 
Well today is a new day and it is going to be a good one. Life lesson learnt.
Thanks for reading
June 8, 2008 at 7:53 am
Do you go through a thing with the mirror that one day you go "wow…right on" and the next day "why isn’t this happening faster?" It happens to me a lot. The only thing I can say is what needs to be changed seems to become much more apparent as things around it get more right.
As for the stares as a man I can’t help myself, it’s chemical. To see a woman of stength, grace and beauty does stops me dead in my tracks, my IQ suddenly drop by 50 points and english escapes me. Or maybe its those tights of yours! You could get used to worse things hun! Best Rob
June 8, 2008 at 8:28 pm
Thanks Rob for your feedback. Yes I do the same thing that you do when you look in the mirror. As for the "chemical" thing - I am starting to finally understand how visual men are.
Have a great night.
June 9, 2008 at 7:44 am
The ones you want to meet is when you are "out and about" with a baseball cap on while wearing sweats. I think you are turning into a formidable force. Looks at the dedication you have now. My balance is coming from being "positive" with myself and trying to visualize myself being better. It’s just the patience part i struggle with… Best R