VisualizationME’s BodyBlog

Okay I have not been able to move my neck and not too much my back either since Friday morning.  Thursday I over did it. I went for a long run with my dog when I got up, then went to the gym and weight trained for over a hour, came back home with son and we did some major gardening.  Big yard and just bought the house last fall.  Bachelor lived in this home before me and it needed alot of work.  You know - a woman’s touch. Flowers, flowers and some more flowers.  Yah I love flowers.

Anyways I am so mad at myself cause I have caused myself to lose three days of working out.  And to top it all off - I have been eating crappy for three days.  You think I would be the opposite since lately I am really noticing the body fat going down??????  I am going through this weird thing right now where I will catch myself in the mirror and just stop and stare.   Who is that?  Wow maybe this clean eating, weight lifting, vitamins, drinking my water is actually doing something???  Did I get scared a bit last time I reflected on this and thought that maybe I don’t deserve this?  Sometimes I do that to myself.  And the other thing is I use to have men just glance at me, sometimes a second look but now - they stare.  At first this made me uncomfortable.  I have been invisible for the last six years and my whole life I didn’t like men.  Now in my life (major learning journey) I have come to love men.  I am starting to UNDERSTAND men.  Anyways I have shared a bit too much.  It has been raining for four days straight and I am going mental stuck in the house with three kids, dog, cat, etc…

Well today is a new day and it is going to be a good one. Life lesson learnt.

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