Today I feel like crap!
It was a good morning I went to the gym and did my weights and then a 45 minute spin class. I felt excited and motivated and I was chatting to another gym junkie and told her how impressed I was at seeing Destiny from Gladiators on TV and how she did not always look fabulous in fact she entered the “12 week challenge” and became even more motivated to achieve her fitness objectives. I was excited about the prospect of changing my own body and decided that doing the “12 week challenge” would inspire me to achieve my own objectives. With all this inspiration and motivation behind me I decided to log on to the net and have a look at some before and after photo’s of other “12 week challenge” contestants… “Wow!” was what I was thinking… if they can do it I thought to myself then yeah I know I can … I’m more motivated than I have ever been and inspired by this so I thought I would call my boyfriend and tell him all about it. That was a big mistake!!!
I rang him up and told him about the “12 week challenge” and I read out some stories to him over the phone about the amazing contestants. And you know what he said “When was the last time you played sport!”… I knew where he was going with this so I burst into tears (as all I could think of was all the negative comments made to me by various people my whole life). What he meant was because they had played sport they could easily look fantastic after twelve weeks. Me on the other hand had played sport in high school and my 15 years of aerobics (and being in an aerobics troupe) and weight training didn’t count did it (during my late teens and thoughout my 20’s!)
He has his doubts about me and that’s because I obtained the application form before and was going to enter, I filled out all the details took photo’s but never sent the forms in. I wasn’t as educated about working out as I am now and my diet was not on track as it is now. So I guess he doesn’t want to motivate me as he probably thinks that I won’t follow through. Maybe I’m upset today because I some how believe that he is right… I just hope he’s not.
So instead of feeling really great about myself today…instead I feel like crap!
June 26, 2008 at 9:27 pm
Are you really letting him bring you down? Results can come slow.. but they are still results! It just takes the decision to do that for yourself.. not for others.. lots of people on this site to help out! =-)
June 27, 2008 at 4:32 am
Thank you jclemen I’m very excited about seeing changes in my body and that’s what is keeping me motivated. I’m definately doing this for myself and if other people appreciate it … that’s great … if not each to their own I guess!
June 30, 2008 at 6:01 am
hi victoria
firstly, i want to say that you should not feel like cr*p. You look gorgeous on your photo. I am saying it because it is true.
it is scary how sometimes we both go through the same things. I admire you for starting the 12 week challenge. it is something i have thought about myself but deep down i get the feeling that i would give up.
Thank you for your kind words and support re my blog about my boyfriend calling me fat. So i totally understand how you felt by your boyfriend’s commenst. sometimes, i think its really hard for my boyfriend because i have struggled for nearly 7 years. He has seen me come so close to losing all my weight and then to put it back on again. Its like, i get to the last stone and something happens to me and i go one a eat fest only to put it all back on again. SO in that sense i dont really blame him but that still doesnt excuse his comment.
Its motivating for me to follow your progress as it keeps me going as well. This time we are going to crack it