V’s Journey

Yesterday I was having a "fat" day.  A day when no matter how much you reason with yourself, no matter how much you stare at the mirror, you feel fat.  This feeling is not based on logic, reasoning or reality.  It is just a feeling. 

Feeling like this I got to gym.  Basically feeling sorry for myself.  (I confess my weakness, but somehow I don’t find it attractive.) 

Peddling away on the bike I watched an older lady on the circuit.  She finished and moved to the bike next to me.  She was older, I guess close to 70.  I helped her to get going (she couldn’t figure out why the display wasn’t showing).   

In a moment she completely inspired me.  Snapped me out of my self-pity and state of mental "fatness".  Why?

She has Parkinsons.

I watched her shaking hands grip onto the handlebars.  I watched her go beyond her limitation and age. 

I really wanted to applaud her.  I thought she was awesome.  Champion. 

Once upon a time I was a Night Elf Rogue. 

In case you don’t know - it means that I used to play World of Warcraft.  It was my obsession.  It consumed me. 

World of Warcraft is in my opinion the best game.  Ever. 

The game allows you to "live" vicariously through the characters you create.  You can be a hunter with deadly accuracy.  You can be a mage with supernatural powers.  Or even a rogue with stealthy abilities.  You can be a hero.  I loved it.  I was sucked in completely.

I say "sucked in" because that is exactly what happens, life becomes WoW.

Then revelation happened.  I wanted to be a Night Elf Rogue in Real Life (minus the funny ears though). 

I really coveted the athletic ability of my character.  I wanted to be able to run like her.  I wanted to have the nice muscular definition.  Heck, I think I even wanted to be able to throw knives. :)  Not to mention being able to wear those sexy outfits. lol

All that time sitting hunched behind a pc was not going to get me the athletiscm of my character.  In fact the better my character became the more unfit I became in real life.

I stopped playing.  I began "levelling" in Real Life. 

Level 1:  stop going to the vending machine every day for a chocolate

Level 2: start changing how I’m eating

Level 3: join a gym

Level 4: get on a proper nutrition plan

Level 5: get a proper training programme

Level 6: join bodybuilding.com

Level 7: start enjoying the changes

Level 8 to 50: Work on it every day

Level 51: Start wearing some of those sexy outfits

Level 52 to 60: Work on it some more every day

Level 61: Learn to throw knives - lol

Level 62 to 70: Work even harder on it every day

Level 71: Commit to competing

Level 72 to 79: Prepare for competition

Level 80:  Do your first competition

My assessment is that I’m a level 55.  Whew! A few more levels to go.  But hey, I think I’m going to be a pretty hot Night Elf Rogue (minus the funny ears) in Real Life.