Another day!
I’ve been working out and staying in shape for most of my life. I have always had the dream of getting bigger and being that huge mass on stage " Markus Ruhl" But for lack of strick diet and training, and gene pool, I have not been sucessful. Alot of my friends have always said I have a good build, and that I look like I work out. But I dont ever see that. I think thats another issue in fitness and nutrition, We as humans have a natural instinct to judge ourselves, demanding a higher, sometimes unachievable goal. I tend to have to talk to myself, while "posing" in the mirror, Trying to keep that " high" of yes I am doing good, and soon I will see my " trophy". its hard to do/live this lifestyle. however, I cant give it up, its like breathing I get sick and light headed if I dont do it.
I have this desire to be someone important, and I feel I can find that through body building. I dont work out to gain popularity, or to get rich, or any of that shit. I guess it all comes from that childhood dream of being a pro baseball or football player.
Never the less, I keep pushing myself. Working third shift, eating oatmeal, and drinking slim fast shakes. Well see if any of this will make it.
