Tyyger’s BodyBlog

OK!  I love football.  Always have, always will.  Well as you all know the NFL draft was yesterday.  There wasn’t any mystery to who was going first because of course, Miami ruined that earlier this week by signing Jake Long.  So the mystery lied in who would be 2, 3, 4.  So anyway… we head over to my sister and brother in law’s house where the big screen and surround sound is a big attraction.  I’m thinking, why don’t we cook out since the weather is nice here FINALLY!  Have the first official cook out of the season. Not just for the draft, but just as a family.  In suggesting this, I knew that I would veer off my path.  That being said…. yes I was a bad girl…but not as bad as I could have been.  I did have one beer… Bud Light and a glass of wine.  But then I had hotdogs, and a hamburger. We never sat down and formally ate, just kinda ate here and there.  But they had a cooler full or soda and water.  I wanted that cold Pepsi SOOOO bad, because I haven’t had a soda for like two weeks.  This is after I’m used to drinking 3 or 4 a week.  But I opted for the water.  Which in my opinion was a good thing for me… (baby steps LOL)!!  All in all I’m not TOO disappointed in myself.  It could have been worse.  Sister could have made Mac and cheese…I could have made dessert…. could have been REALLY REALLY bad. I know that today is another day and another chance to make it right.  I can handle that.  OH  and I knew I was going to veer off so we played tennis yesterday for Cardio before going over there.  That was the first official game of the season also.  We played alot last year and it helped alot with the soreness I was feeling from the gym.  So I am looking forward to more games.

I am feeling it today!!  I’ve been working out steadily the last two weeks and I tell you today… it’s taken it’s toll.  I got home and all I wanted to do was submerge myself in a hot bath w/epson salt and just soak it all up!!  I’ve always had problems with my knees(no doubt from the weight)  But I’ve been doing the stairclimber and it’s been hard on my knees, but I’m determined to keep doing it.  I was told that if I continue to do excercises that uses them, it make them stronger.  I’ve completed all upperbody parts the last two days and I will tackle legs next.  I looked in the mirror and asked myself why was I putting myself thru this…I mean I can happy being big right???  WRONG!!  I can’t be happy like this because I am constantly wanting to change it.  My cardio also been VERY good this week!  I’m staying on track and that’s good, but for some reason when I got home and I just wanted to say Forget it…it’s not worth it.  But it is isn’t it???  I have to be worth it.  I have to keep going for me.  It’s not easy and the more I remember that, the better off I’ll be!!  This is where motivation or lack thereof comes into play for me.  Just like an actor I ask myself… What is my motivation??  I am my motivation.  My health is my motivation.  A sound body and mind is my motivation…………………………….
Of course…that’s it!! 

I was just reading someone else’s blog and he said something to the effect that being on here is great and about accountability….  I must admit that is one of the reason I have never joined a website that promoted weight loss or anywhere that I had to be ACCOUNTABLE!!!  I’ve always just said what I wanted to do but knowing there was no one checking my progress… I didn’t really put forth an effort.  Every since I’ve joined this website, I’ve been conscience of things I eat and working out (weights/Cardio)  I want to be able to post pics where you can see a change.  I was roaming thru pages last night and I saw quite a few folks who have posted pics of their progress and you could see the weight loss and the changes they made.  I was thinking to myself…wow can’t wait until I can put up some progress pics.  It looks easy to me because I’m seeing the end results.  I haven’t heard about all they went thru with changing eating habits, working out.  It’s a difficult process and one that take time and dedication.  I KNOW all of this and I am trying to make sure I stay focus.  Like this morning…. I’m thinking what can I eat for breakfast that won’t be too bad.  That’s another thing…as I get off topic LOL!!  Grocery shopping is something I do maybe once every two weeks.  I’m going to have to program myself to do better shopping for better foods.  But back to breakfast.  I have decided to have 3 boiled eggs, salmon and cup of grits.  And some oj.  The oj is low in sugar.  That will keep me full I know for 3 or 4 hours.  I won’t be ready to eat again until 3pm or so.  Then I will have a protien shake.  I’m also going to have to start planning the weekend meals.  That is always the hardest time for me as far as my eating.  Saturday such a lackadaisical day…. it’s easy to get out of the practice of eating right.  But anyway I said all that to say that I know I have to be accountable for everything I eat and every activity I do.  Being on here makes ME responsible for the changes I make.  Thank you all for the encouraging words.  They do help… it always helps when you have people who cheer you on and offer advice.  I can say that this is the first time I have actually WANTED to do better and actually took the steps to make it happen!!! …..

PS:  Breafast time!!

I LOVE FRIDAYS!!!!  Let me start off by saying that.  I do I love them.  For one thing I get off at 12 pm.  EVERY friday and it is such a good feeling. Especially on a day like to day when the weather is so beautiful.  PLUS.. dn’t know if you have heard but we had an Earthquake here early this morning I guess it was around 5:45 am.  Now if that isn’t a trip!!  We are almost in the Midwest and you always here about earthquakes where…… in Cali… well not anymore.  We had one of those bad boys.  It was only 5.4 lasting maybe 15 sec at the most.  But it’s still historic for me.  Anyway…I digress…. being that it is friday, I always have a hard time getting to the gym.  Usually don’t go until 5 like other days and I guess that is part of the problem.  But that is the time my husband and his partner goes.  But I tell you by the time I get home and relaxed…. I’m hard pressed to get out again!!!  I went last Friday as a testament to the new leaf I have turned but today…. didn’t make it.  Part of the reason is because it’s SUCH a nice today… i want to walk my new found trail.   So I don’t feel as guilty as I should because I know that I want to do something.  Not just sit around, but I’m not sure when he will be done at the gym.  They have a tendency to sit around and talk and all that.  SO hopefully he will get home before it gets dark.  But if he doesn’t, there is always tomorrow morning.  I think what I will start doing is taking my clothes with me on Friday’s and when I get off, go straight to the gym.  Sounds good right…………………….  hmmm.. BLAH!!!!  LOL!!

I left home earlier today to go to the track.  Do some walking and run some stairs.  Well the high school track team was still there practicing.  So I went across the street to watch my niece at her soccer practice.  Now the elementary school where they were practicing has this road/trail that runs around it.   So I thought well I don’t feel like waiting on the track to clear so I’ll just walk this trail.  Two times around is probably a mile.  In my guesstamation!  Anywhoooo…. I set out with my MP3… Starts out pretty good… then I get to the front of the school… there is a hill… so I’m trekkin… finally make it to the top.  By now my calves are like…uhhh…waiting to exhale.  It levels off and I continue and turn another corner to the last leg….  another hill… more steep this time… I know it was sheer will that got me back to my car!!!  I did a calf workout on Friday and they are still a bit tight.  And I felt every bit of it during this walk on those hills…  I had to move my car so I got in and moved it to the parking lot in front of the school.  I sat there contemplating… do I really want to make this trek again….. my answer..HELL NO!!!!!!!!!!!!    LOL!!   But I got out and did it anyway… I went around twice more before I called it a day.  I know I can do more than that.  But I don’t think my legs were ready.  But the next time, I’ll be ready.  No more regular ole run of the mill track for me….. I’m doing that trail every chance I get!!!  It made me feel good because I kept going and didn’t quit.  Which is the norm for me.   Especially once I’m tired.  My sister and her husband were there to pick up my niece and said they could tell those hills were kickin my tail!!  They just laugh… I’m glad I could someone’s source of entertainment!!! 

Ok, so I messed up last night.  My mother is an excellent cake baker.  So much so that she has  a little side business making cakes for people.  I wanted to see if I inherited some of her talent.  So I made a moist pound cake yesterday.  Never tried to do one before.  It turned out SOOOO GOODDDD!!!!!!!  LOL!! I had like two pieces yesterday.  To keep myself from eating it all, I took some to work and now I have less than half left.  And I am going to give the rest away tomorrow.  I’ll have ONE more piece and then take the rest to work tomorrow.  I just had to confess though because I have been doing so well as far sweets.  I worked extra hard today at the gym.  I pushed myself on cardio because of my slip up.  I know it happens and there will be times when I do slip up and eat the wrong thing.  But I think I did penance today!!

So far this week, I’ve worked out everyday that I have wanted to.  I went to the gym Tuesday. I went to the track on Wednesday.  I walked the track and ran some stairs.  When I say my breathing was so labored when I got thru with those stairs.  All the oxygen in the free worlds wasn’t enough.  It’s a eye opener let me tell you.  I took Thursday off.  I went to the gym on Friday.  I did a leg workout, Abs, and cardio.  I felt really Good when I was done.  I felt so good I weighed myself.  My weight has not changed in the last 4 months which is the last time I weighed myself.  I didn’t put it on the page because I want to measure my loss by body parts.  I lift weights so I know that muscles weighs more than fat.  I want to feel the difference in my clothes and not by numbers.  To be honest, I’ve felt like I’ve ganed 5 t0 10 pounds in the last couple of months.  But the number doesn’t show that.  A good thing I guess.  I am so motivated right now, I’m going to go the track once my food digest.  Get in an extra day. Always helps!!

Got home today and was like…I’m not going to make it.  Then I made the mistake of falling asleep!  But I got up and gave myself a pep talk.  This is something I HAVE to do… gotta do.  I didn’t go yesterday because my hubby was sick and he couldn’t go, so I stayed home to nurse him back to health. We both went today. He is not back up to full strength, but I figured hell if he could make the effort… I should be able to also!  I enjoyed today.  I did the stairclimber and upright stationary bike.  I get more of a work out from this bike more so than the one that you sit and lean back.  The only problem with the upright bike… my ass hurts like crazy on that thing!! LOL!!!!  But hopefully while working on slimming my ass down, the seat will eventually feel better!! LOL!!  Just updating my progress for today!!

My biggest problem right now I would have to say is my motivation.  I have been going to the gym since 1996 when I was in college.  But I never went consistently until 2001.  I lost two dress sizes and I was looking good and feeling good.  But as always with me.  I just stopped going.  It’s been hard every since to get back into that regular routine.  I work as a Vocational Rehabilitation counselor and I am sitting on my bum for about 90% of the time.  I go thru the same motions everyday.  Around 11 am I am excited about going doing some cardio and weights… then around 2…. my mind is thinking damn do I really wanna go!! LOL!  Just that quick.  I’ve tried the work out partner… that didn’t work.  They were either late or I was late, or we couldn’t coordinate a good time. Things like that.  So I think I’m better off by myself.  I think one of my main issues is I just look for results too quick.  If I don’t SEE anything, I’m quick to give up.  And I know it takes atleast a month to see any kind of results.  So that is where I am right now…trying to get this motivation thang up…so I can get to work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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