Tyyger’s BodyBlog

I completed my goals this week!!  I wanted to go to the gym atleast 3 days this week and I did it.  It felt great being back in there with the machines and weights.  I know some may think this isn’t a big deal, but for me it’s the biggest.  I used to go the gym anywhere from 3-5 days a week.  But going thru some things in my personal life has taken precedent and I haven’t consistently gone to the gym in over 6 months.  It has been the hardest thing to just pack a bag and go!  Just get off of work and go straight to the gym.   But I felt like I couldn’t do it.  It seem to hard.  I wasn’t motivated enough.  I wasn’t filled with the desire to want to fix or change anything about my habits.  I just started eating more to make myself feel better about the issues I was dealing with.  My clothes still fit, but I can see any definition I started to see in my arms and legs fading fast.  But even that wasn’t enough to get me back to working on it.  Cereal is my comfort food and I started eating it in droves…. but then I had to realize that I wasn’t hurting the other person, I was hurting myself.  I am the one who would have to live with seeing my stomach sticking further and further out.  I was the one would have to see my my thighs continue to balloon out every time I sat down.  I had to realize that I am the ONLY one that can change my appearance.  I have to be motivated enough to just get started.  My eating habits have never been the best, but I knew how to eat and what to eat.  I am still a work in progress on that one.  But I am so proud of myself for getting back into the gym and getting the first step out of the way.  The way it works for me is the more I work out, the better my eating habits become.  I can only do so much, but I can do something.  We only get one body and it’s up to me to make it the best body I can.  I can’t expect results overnight or over 20 nights, but I have to be strong in my motivation, strong in my will to continue going, no matter what!  Life is still not ideal and perfect for me as far as personal life, but maybe just maybe things will fall into line collectively…………………..

P.S.  If anyone has any ideas for motiviation, they are greatly appreciated!

I went walking again yesterday.  It hasn’t been easy because I have been gone for so long.  My right Knee started hurting yesterday, but let go of the hurt holding me back and kept going.  I didn’t go today because I ended up at my niece’s softball game.  But I will be back out there tomorrow… yup you heard me…going on a Friday! 

Well it’s been a few months since my last post.  I am starting again…. after I started again two times before.  I went walking today and did about a mile and half.  And let me tell you I was tired.  Not to mention the humidity that almost knocked me out.  I am a big fan of picking one self up and starting again.  So here I am picking myself up and starting again!

Okay, So I am on here today and I’m looking thru body blogs and bodyspaces, trying to get motivated.  Trying to get back to the place I was 3 months ago.  I had awesome drive, my motivation level was so high.  But I have had trouble getting back to that point.  Laziness, sluggishness(is that a word??), procrastination have all been my friend as of late.  And I know the bottom line is…..IT"S MY OWN FAULT!!  I joined this site to hopefully keep that motivation and I haven’t been on here to even get my daily serviing.  I would get on and put my workouts on the tracker and track my progress.  But even that has gone to the sh!TTer!!  (excuse my french)!!  But I am starting to get really angry with myself and really discouraged.  It should be a cinch since I live with a bodybuilder.  And If I could just rub his arm and get a tiny bit of his determination.  I wouldn’t be having this conversation with myself.  But alas, I cannot do that.  It’s about me and what I need to do.  I wish it were so easy, but it’s not.  I was looking at a particulate bodyspace page and this lady’s body is awesome…. It looks as thought she has no body fat at all, but I’m sure she does, I’m not expert.  But to get halfway to where she is… would be a real accomplishment for me.  I don’t want to be 125lbs, I just want to lose some weight and tone myself up.  I’ve started the process, I just need add on and continue the fight. 

Okay so I’ve been loafing now for about amonth.  Going to the gym here and there.  My eating hasn’t been too bad, but not as well it should be.  So I’m like okay, got this new product I wanted to try called Melt down… so I’m psyched for the week.  Went to the gym on Tuesday and tried this circuit training a friend told me about.  It’s with weights, and you work about 3-4 body parts in a circuit.  It’s truly like cardio.  A sista was breathing hard!!! LOL!!  After this, I focused on my legs.  Did some squats and leg presses.  Then switched to my hammies.  Then on to Calves.  Well I thought since I’m toughing it out I might as well go for the stairs.  It’s an excercise where I do calf raises on the stairs.  There are about 10 steps and a plaform and then 10 more to get to the cardio machines upstairs.  I only did the first ten and instead of 10 reps, I did 8.  You know, slowly getting myself back into things.  I was cool…. when I left the gym.  I wore my thigh high boots to work on Wednesday…. was looking sharp too….. WHY DID I DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I got home wednesday afternoon took off my shoes and could not step down on my foot.  My calf was TIGHT, I literally had to walk on my tippy toes… Oh yeh..I OVERDID IT!!!!!!!!!  I soaked last night in the tub and thought that would help.  Even used icey hot.  Got up this morning and could not walk at all!!!!!!!!!!!!  I had to miss a day out of work because I couldn’t get up and get dressed.  I’m laughing about it now, but earlier today, this was no laughing matter.  I’m still sore and unable to walk fully on my whole foot.  But it’s ALOT better than this morning.  At about 2 am I had to crawl to the bathroom…. a sad commentary on my night!!!!  but I have TRULY learned my lesson……. TRUST… no more days like this for me……………………..:)

Here we go again…. it’s been about a month and I have slacked off like crazy!!!!!!!!!!  My workouts have been non-existent and I have not had the motivation to get up and do something.  I’ve fallen into the same rut of old.  But I can say  atleast this time, I’ve actually seen some change.  And I went alot longer. So maybe the tide is turning.  But now my schedule is about to be crazy.  I don’t know when I’ll be able to go to the gym.  But I’m starting out on the right foot.  I am going to start back going in the morning.  I actually like working out in the morning because there is less traffic in the gym and I can run the track or do whatever machine I want.  It’s just getting up!!! I used to do it all the time, but once I stopped that was it.  As I type this blog I am asking myself…what is different now?  I am different.  I’ve been trying not to go crazy with the eating since I have no way to combat it(gym).  So I’m slightly being a good girl. 

I have to get back to that place where I was when I joined this site.  I have to stop talking about it and do it.  But the question is how?  What is my motivation?  I love the compliments I’ve gotten since the inches have come off.  So maybe I’ll focus on that….. focus on the positive side of things.  Me and hubby haven’t been on the best of terms the last couple of days and that is wearing on me too.  Hopefully we can work things out and I can get my mind right!

I am feeling down today.  It’s the holiday, have a free day off of work, I should be happy right?  I’ve been sick the last couple of days with a sinus infection and fever so I have not been to the gym since Tuesday morning.  I had absolutely no energy to go today.  Supposed to have a cookout/party at my house with my sister and her family, but it’s raining out and that sucks!  It could just be because it’s that time of the month and my emotions are running crazy right now.  But alot as been on my mind and I am not sure how to sift through it all.  I’m married and have been for the last two years.  He is into bodybuilding and working out too.  I’m just not as dedicated as he is.  And that makes me feel bad sometimes.  He has never tried to make me go or make me feel like I have to lose weight or anything like that, I guess it’s just me that feels this way.  He has a great body and I ask myself, shouldn’t he be with someone who does too?   We met before he got into Bodybuilding, matter of fact, I’m the reason that he did.  I hooked him up with a good friend of mine who was competing and they hit it off and he’s been doing it every since.  But I feel like the child left behind……  although I support him and will always support him, I feel like I’m still standing at the train station and the train has left the platform……..

Why do I feel that way?  Bodybuilding has not always been something I wanted to do.  But when I go to these shows with him and see how much fun they have and the great bodies, I get all pumped and want to do it…but then a week later, I’m back to being me and being lazy.  So I ask myself, do I really want to do it or is it just the adrenaline rush I get from being at a show?

I’ve lost a whopping total of 4 pounds since I have joined this site.  I’ve been doing great with my workouts(haven’t posted any workouts lately..to time consuming)  It’s just my diet I can’t seem to change.  I’ve done really good in the past for a couple of weeks, but then I’m right back to eating sugary cereals or alot of bread.   I don’t really know how to plan a good day’s worth of meals.  I’m taking my vitamins and supplements, but I have no discipline whatsoever when it comes to my eating habits.  That’s what is boils down too.  I have no discipline.  I’ve worked hard for things in my life, but mostly things have come easily.  I’ve never had a struggle like this before.  And I am seeing now, that I can’t handle it alone………….  

That’s my theme for my leg workout today!! LOL!!  I started out with some squats.  And let me tell you, that was one exercise I used to stay away from.  My knees would not allow me to get that low.  So it was a mute point to even do it because I wasn’t working anything.  I started to brave the squat exercise a couple of months ago.  I would work on it…. and every time I did, go up in weight.  A friend told me because my knees hurt, I should go no further than they would allow.  And not to stop doing the exercise. Because in doing them, I am strengthning my knees and the muscles and tendons around them.  Which in the end would help my knee strength.  I truly believe that because today… I was so low my a$$ almost touch the ground… a slight exaggeration of course, but I did go lower than I have ever gone before and without the usual pain in my knees.  I had a great work out!!!!!!!!!!  I am so proud of myself.  I know someone reading this may not think it’s a big deal and wonder why I write about every little thing I do.  But I feel like writing about my accomplishments will only help make me want to accomplish even more, even BIGGER things!  So bear with me and keep reading… cause one day…I may be writing about that Bodybuilding contest I am gonna do………………….  don’t quote me though!! LOL!!!!!!…………………………….

Okay, it’s friday!!!!!  TGIF and all that good stuff!  Made it to the gym today…. LEG DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  So I’m doing the leg annilation thing again today.  Well I try it with more weight this week.   Can I just say it’s amazing what the body can do if you put your mind into it.   I had 4 45lbs plates on each side of the leg press machine.  I have NEVER done weight that high.  I am SOOOO PROUD of me!!  It wasn’t easy, but I did it!  Knowing that tomorrow…. my legs will probably be rubber.  But that is why I do legs on friday.  That way I have the weekend to recover.  After the leg press I did a set on the hack squat machine only 90lbs.  But I’m proud of that too because when I first started working out I could not do that machine because of my knees.  But now I can do 20 reps in one set….  Now that’s progress…..!!!!!   Then I went up to the track and ran some sprints.  I did that hopefully to loosen up my legs.  I’ll probably have to walk or run tomorrow also…to get the blood flowing freely!! LOL!!

Now as I fold my tail out of this chair…and walk really really slow…………………………..!!

First of all I don’t even know why I am up this late adding progress pics, but here I go. I wasn’t planning to add any until after the 4th of July.  But oh well.  I was playing the mirror in the bathroom and took some shots.  I wasn’t going to post them until I saw them compared with my other pics. I honestly think I see some difference.  Now it could be wishful thinking on my part. There might not really be anything changes.  But I have faith in myself and what I’ve been doing the last Month or so.  Of course there is always margin for error.  Cutbacks I could make add something here, leave this out.  But for the most part I am proud of myself.  I have been faithfully working out and that is one of the BIGGEST changes I have wanted to make.  I’ve been able to go to the gym on my scheduled days.  Only life got in the way a couple of days and I was unable to make it to the dance.  But even still I found ways to make up for it.   I’m still tweaking the diet, but I know that will become second nature in time. 

Once again, if anyone has any suggestions, please feel free to hit me up and let me know…..