Trudee’s BodyBlog

My workouts are spot on and I’m still gaining weight?  I still think I’m eating too much but compared to 400 cals a day anything seems like a lot to me.  I did my mid month weigh in and low and behold the one pound is still there.  I know in the big scheme of things 1 pound is NOTHING but 1 to me =10 pounds.  I really don’t think my body can handle so much food.  Cutting back makes me nervous as I’m going into my final month of training.  I’m wondering if the lifting 4 days a week is doing it.  I remember this happened when I went from 2 to 3 days way back when (like 4 years ago).  It’s frustrating to do everything 80-90% right and then gain weight.  I’m trying really hard to resist the urge to cut back.  I can’t stand the way I feel…weak, tired, grouchy when I’m hungry or underfed but I can’t stand the way I feel when I gain weight.  I don’t know what it is…maybe it is muscle??  I haven’t gained any weight in 6 months and I’ve been lifting heavy for about 2 months now??  My muscles look bigger and more out there but who knows???  I’m sure stressing out about it doesn’t help. Stress=hard runs and I don’t need that!

I bought some weight lifting gloves.  My palms are sore and FULL of calouses from lifting the free weights.  I’ll be trying them out tomorrow at home to see if I like them.

Workout:

Yoga 35 minutes

6-10 mile bike ride…depending on my quads

Yesterday was an Ok day.  Even after busting my ass in the weight room (almost to the point of being sick) I still felt…weird yesterday.  I don’t know if it’s the fact that no matter what I do I’m gaining weight or that I "look bigger".  I don’t know but something just is eating away at me and I’m not sure how to fix it.  I’ve been eating more/eating a little less clean lately and maybe that’s it???  I’m just so hungry all the time with the extra running and the heavier lifting.  I’m afraid any weight I gain through training will NEVER come off since I haven’t lost ANY weight in 3 years.  I’m to the point where I can feel myself getting bigger and I HATE it.  I guess the only thing to do is to keep moving forward and plugging along.  I’m not mentally ready for this weight gain but I want to keep running bad enough that I will find a way to make it all fit together.

This morning I did my weight training at home.  I did a 2×15 program for the Back of my body…and I’m hurting.  I will be heading out for a 5 mile run after a bit.

Workout:

2×15-Back

5 mile run

Walking

I have to start out by saying "SHE WON, SHE WON"  My DD was one of the 3 winners in her division in the Bucket Calf Show yesterday.  I was so proud I almost cried.  She did AWESEOME.  She deserved to win.  She stood tall and smiled and Rudolph (Her Calf) stood at attention and stood still the WHOLE show which lasted almost an HOUR!  She looked so sharp and Rudolph looked great.  Together they were a great team.  I will try to post some pictures later (I have to resize them first)

Yesterday’s eating wasn’t too bad.  I had a mini shake after supper but that was about the only treat I had yesterday so not bad.  I didn’t eat any junk at the fair…I took my own snack and enjoyed that (Clif Kid’s Z-Bar)  I’m learning to compromise with my eating…a lean burger is NOT a cheat…it’s a normal meal.  I still don’t like seeing the scale go out but my clothes are still fitting.  I know have stretch marks from slimming down…how unfair is that!  All along the insides of my legs and a little on the outsides I have light white stretch marks from my skin shrinking…great and bad.

Today is Speed Day and Heavy Front Day.  My Quads are still sore from Saturdays run so we’ll see how painful the bleachers are today

Workout

2mile WATP DVD

Speed (8×400, pray for me), bleachers and Heavy-Front

I think that will probably be my Sunday blog title from here until Sept.  I love to run long distances but the pounding on the pavement reaks havoc on my quads.  I try to run on the shoulder as much as possible but sometimes it’s too uneven and I feel like I’m going to fall.

Today was supposed to be a rest day but after 2 days of eating at the Fair I didn’t think resting was such a good idea.  I didn’t eat BAD foods just not my chicken, turkey, shrimp, etc and vegetables.  I have no intentions of eating out there again.  Through the extra sodium and muscle sorness I "gained" 3 pounds LOL.  I’m sure with all the running and the heavier lifting I’m bound to gain some weight since I need to eat more to keep up.  My run felt so good yesterday after a week of quality eating.  I want to keep that up and continue to move forward.  I do ok as long as I eat at home and am able to have "control" over my food and how it’s fixed.  I’m sure that’s not the healthiest ideal either but at least I’m eating.

My oldest has her Bucket Calf show today at the Fair.  Hopefully after it’s over our lives can get back to having a little organization.  My house is a disaster and it is driving me crazy and noone else can pick up anythingor put anything away…I have yet to figure out why that is???

workout:

2 mile brisk walk

1.5 mile walk outside

That’s how far I  ran this morning and I feel GREAT.  I wanted to go longer and was ready to and still moving but my body was BEYOND hungry so I had to stop.  I guess nows the time to learn to eat on the "run" so to speak LOL.  I really enjoyed the 9.5 miles today and didn’t struggle at all   It must be the better eating on my part and a slight increase in protein.  I have 10 planned for next weekend and then the following week is a taper week because I have a 7 mile race on the 25th, then on to the 1/2 Marathon training.  I know not every run will be4 fantastic but I feel so good after today’s run that I’m looking forward to another long run.
We went out to the fair last night.  Nothing spectacular.  The girls are going to ride some rides today.  We mainly went out for a treat.  I ate good all day and prepared myself mentally for this and it was fine!  I had "elephant ears"…bread dough lightly fried and then sprinkled with cinnamon and sugar.  It wasn’t too greasy so my stomach was ok.  I had a few bites of my DD’s fried snickers bar…YUCK, it was not appealing to me at all.  I didn’t have any of my DH’s or other DD’s funnel cake.  Between yesterdays kick ass weight routine and todays kick ass run I’m not worried about the 500 extra or so calories.  I have no desire for another one so I got my fix and I’m fine.

Workout:

Ab workout

9.5 mile run

Walking around at the fair   I hate even going out there!

OMG things have been way to crazy here the past week.  If it’s not one thing it’s another.  I’m about to go insane.  DH and my oldest DD have been busy with her calf for the fair.  I’ve been busy trying to work out and get my runs in between the crappy weather.  I hate feeling rushed.  The calf show is on Sunday and then things will quiet down on that front.  With vacations and races coming up I feel so time crunched.  School and work will be here before I know it   I need to focus on today and stop worrying about tomorrow…easier said than done!

I’m looking better than I have ever…not so skinny but more of a toned look.  I must not look too bad in my bikini because I’ve had 3 women facebook me and ask several questions.  I have found that I get great satisfaction from helping others and seeing them succeed.  Training my DD and my friend this summer has been awesome.  This is my first experieince running with someone and I LOVE it.

I’m still enjoying my workouts but have been feeling very rushed lately.  I don’t know if it’s anxiety or what???  All I want to do is sleep and I feel tired A LOT.  I’m not sure if I need to eat more food although if I cram more in I may burst.  I’m getting frustrated because I want to do more and run better but my body is not cooperating.  I’ve been nice to it…no bad talk…I’ve been trying to feed it enough…I get plenty of fluids!  What more can I do??  It’s not break time yet!…I need to make it until Sept.

Ok enough whining…LOL  I need to get my butt in gear to head out and take my frustrations out on a set of weights.  Today is Heavy day for the back of my body.

Workout:

4 mile WATP DVD

Back:Heavy

Laying by the pool if it doesn’t rain!

I’m feeling pretty good today.  I’ve been working hard the last month and a half and it shows.  I am getting to the point where I don’t dislike the way I look…I can always improve but I don’t think I look flabby and chubby anymore.  I feel stronger and healthier.  I feel like my eating is slowly getting under control.  I don’t like the way I look/feel when I eat crappy foods so I will ALWAYS keep those to a bare minimum.  I still think about what I’m going to eat quite a bit but I don’t obsess over getting the right ratio here and the right combo there…I just eat and that seems to be the best thing for me.

It’s Fair time here-UGH.  They have a few stands that have healthier foods but I still hate going out there.  The smell is sometimes nauseating.  My oldest Daughter is showing a bucket calf this year so that means I will be spending a good amount of time out there.  She is doing well with her calf named "Rudolph".  I will post some pictures on facebook over the weekend or early next week.  I’ll try to stick some on my blog also.

My workout this morning was short but not SWEET.  Today was a 2×15 day and it turned out to be 30 minutes of brutal attack LOL.  My arms are still pretty shaking.  My joints are starting to hurt a little so I’ve back off on the lighter days to 8 lb DB’s instead of 10’s.  I know I’m still getting a good workout because by about rep 12 my arms are burning.  My legs don’t get much with the 8’s so I may bump them back up but my shoulders, elbows and neck are getting a little achy.  I start bumping up my mileage this week.  My next race is in 2.5 weeks.  It’s a 7 mile race.  I’m pretty excited…it’s a BIG one with THOUSANDS of people so no pressure to be at the top.  It’s all in fun

Workout

30 min Front-8 lb weights

4 mile run

1.25 mile walk

Not much to report today. I did my strength workout yesterday morning and felt really good about that. T/Th are my lower weight/higher rep days and by 15 on my exercises my body was shaking. The flabbiness under my arms that I was complaining about is actually starting to shape up??? Maybe if I mention another body part it will start to shape up LOL…if only it were that easy all of America would be fit and trim   I do like my split but may be changing it around once school starts because I don’t think I will have the time to go for so long…be prepared for lots of questions come the end of Aug.  I will be taking a week OFF (except walking) after my Half Marathon.

I had a few cheats last night but didn’t really feel too bad about them.  After weight training, running 4 miles and walking another 4 last night (while eating my small Moolatte, no whipped cream) I think I’m fine.  I also had about a large handful of waffle fries with my grilled chicken and veggies at supper at the restaurant…I gave the rest to DH.  So nothing too major and I survived.

I’m off to grocery shop this morning.  I also have a few things to get at Wal-Mart…surprise, surprise LOL  One of them is clips for the weight bar my brother gave me.  He gave me one set of clips for the dumbbells but I need some for the bar.

Workout:

4o minutes yoga

30 minutes sprint on bike (like 10 miles???)…waiting for the part to fix my eliptical to come in.

I made it through Monday!  I had a more positive attitude yesterday due in part to my kick ass workout in the weight room and my good track/speed workout.  I was in such awe of the difference I saw in the mirrors from when I first started lifting heavier.  I could see the muscles in my arms while just standing there and watching myself lift gives me that extra umph to get through.  I secretly like to look at my muscles in the mirror…it makes me feel good…ssshhh don’t tell, I just act like I’m checking my form LMAO.  You do what you gotta do   It helps me keep going when I can see the changes.  My mirrors at home don’t work right…they have the whole funhouse thing going on.

I’ve also been asked by several women about my workouts and not what I eat which is GREAT.  I think weight lifting needs to be stressed with women and that’s usually the first thing that comes out of my mouth.  Most approach me at the pool or after I leave I get a facebook message or an email which means I can’t look too bad in my suit LOL.  I guess my transformation is apparent to more than just myself.  I’m a big advocate of working out at home and since most women can’t afford a gym membership or daycare for when they go or can’t find the time during the day I usually suggest AM workouts and some DVD’s to get them started.  It’s so nice to be needed LOL

Workout:

Back: 2×15

4 mile run

Some issues are creeping up that are trying to push my panic button

Weight:  It has gone up which I know SHOULD be ok but I still don’t like it.  I know with lifting heavier that is will prob go up and having to eat more to fuel my heavier sessions and longer runs isn’t going to help in the weight loss area…no I’m not trying to lose weight I just want to maintain.  I still have a hard time with the scale.  I try to weigh myself twice a month and no more.

Bloating:  It seems I’ve been more bloated the last week or so.  It started after I started eating more.  I’m hoping my body will adjust to the extra food soon because my mind is NOT liking it.  I feel huge and then I look in the mirror or look down and it’s the same so I think it’s my mind playing tricks.  Im probably closer to the 2000 mark on most days.  I’ve lost my ability to ignore hunger for more than 30 minutes (used to could go HOURS before)  so I’ve been eating when I’m hungry…I know, like a normal person should.  I still think about food and what I’m going to eat WAY too much.

Today is speed day at the track and heavy day in the weight room.  I am seeing some changes in my physique though I am having problems with that (I’m not used to the bigger look so in my mind I look F*T).  I do have more tone/definition in the front/back of my arms but no so much underneath-you know lunch lady arms-YUCK.  I’m going to try hitting that area a different way because kickbacks aren’t "kicking" it for me.

Workout:

2 mile WATP DVD

Speed/Bleachers

Front: Heavy, low reps