Trudee’s BodyBlog

Im really starting to notice big changes in my health/body from eating better.  For the first time in oh say 2 or so years I had to touch up my roots before my hair color faded.  I was in shock!  Even when I had highlights I could go 12 weeks and they still looked the same at the roots because my hair wasn’t growing.  After 4 weeks I had to touch it up!  My hair isn’t coming out in the shower in a wad of strands.  My hair is shiny and oh so soft.  My skin is clear for the most part…still occassional flareups but no more deep cystic acne-YAHOO.  My nails look great and have been growing quickly.  My legs no longer feel like lead weights all day when I walk.  Now that I’m eating better, on days that I don’t I can tell.  Before I felt like shit everyday so nothing was every out of the ordinary.  When I have a bad day I get shakey, foggy, and grumpy…not too good   I’m pretty proud of myself for how far I have come.  I still struggle but it’s not in the forefront of my mind.  I think being at work and being active all day really helped me move in the right direction.

I ate by myself yesterday at work and it was so nice.  I read over my study cards so I had something to do.  It was so calm and quiet (which I need after a morning of working with my student).  My stomach wasn’t in knots and I didn’t have to watch anyone eat crappy foods and complain about their weight, etc.  I didn’t have to worry about people scrutinizing what I ate…they didn’t do it verbally just with their looks.

Today is speed day.  I like to do my speedwork on the treadmill or the school track.  On my long runs I do fartleks, which keeps me moving and focused, in the middle of my runs.  I’m still crossing my fingers to get outside Saturday.  It’s been raining all week but I’m hoping it will stop.

Workout:

2 mile WATP

Speed Workout

1 or 2 miles on the treadmill

Well it’s midweek and after 2 later nights and one more to go I’m starting to get a little tired.  The child I work with at school has had a rough week as far as crying and being defient so that zaps what energy I have.  I did find out that as long as he is still in our district next year that I have the job so that was a relief!  The bad part is the mom is kinda weird and has made negative comments about our school and district so we’ll see.  They live in our town but we going out of town for school???

I really enjoyed my run yesterday and I felt more energized for the rest of the day.  I ate after I ran instead of showering and doing my makeup right away so maybe that helped.  I was extremely thirsty and I was peeing bright yellow 75% of the day.  I was clear by late afternoon.  I didn’t weigh myself today but I saw abs and more definition than usual…probably due to the clean eating I’ve been striving for.

I changed my weight session up a little today.  I’ve been doing my resistance machine which is pretty tough and decided to take it down a notch today since this is back off week.  I did a WATP with weights and ankle weights.  My upper thighs are really slimming down.  When I stand there is now a space at the top where you can see through my jeans which is what I like.  I can’t wait to wear shorts and show off my legs.   I have worked hard and love the way they look.  The only body part I really don’t like isn’t so much of a body part persay….I hate the skin on my stomach and lower abdomen.  Until I have it removed it won’t look any better.  The more muscle I add the worse it hangs…UGH that is so NOT fair.

Well I’m off to watch Biggest Loser that I recorded last night while I run on the eliptical!

Workout:

3 mile WATP with hand and ankle weights

2 miles hard on eliptical, 10 minutes easy changing directions

Walking

For the first time in awhile I feel energized and not sluggish this morning.  HHHMMM could it be that I actually consumed food yesterday   Ok I consume food everyday but I usually only eat lunch on dance days and then the rest are snacks but yesterday I ate a meal before dance and then instead of popcorn or crackers at dance I had low-fat string cheese and and apple and wasn’t hungry!  I’ve been having a BIG problem with dehydration.  I’m only able to get in able half my water consumption which is still high but not what it used to be.  I had a dizzy spell at work yesterday which triggered a migraine which made me a grumpy teacher.  Every sound was magnified and it was horrible.  I do not want that to happen again!

I start running again today.  I’m going to start out with just 3 miles 2x’s and 1 5 miler and then work my way up.  I hate running on the treadmill but the weather here is so unpredictable that putting off running until I get outside is hurting my running.  The 5 mile run on Saturday shouldn’t be hard since I don’t have to work and can get outside as long as it’s not raining.

Workout:

2 mile WATP

3 mile run

1 mile walk

walking

I wrote out my workout plan for May and it’s pretty aggressive.  I’m hoping I can make it through and I know I will have to eat more to compensate so I’m not so run down like I am now.  I have been pushing through my workouts the last few weeks on low fuel.  Between the new job and more intense workouts my body and mind are VERY tired.  I know the most likely remedy is to eat more since I love a good workout.  I’m going to lift a little lighter this week to give my body a little rest before May.  In June I’m going to do the 1/2 marathon training but I seriously doubt I will run the actual race but we’ll see.  I’m going to start back running tomorrow and feel good about that

I’ve been struggling with eating enough and it all came back to haunt me in a room full of mom’s yesterday.  I did the BL Yoga DVD which is a lot harder than it seems and apparently harder on me that I realized.  I didn’t refuel my body enough and by the time I got to teach my class I could barely focus, I couldn’t think at all, my talking was jumbled, I was sweating and my blood sugar was low.  I got to the point where I thought I may have to lay in the floor right then and there.  I drank some water and tried to take it easy the first 30 minutes.  You would think embarassment would be a huge motivator to not let that happen again.  My workouts are also getting harder instead of easier which is another sign to me that I’m not eating enough.  It usually takes about 3 weeks after the start of a new workout for my body to realize I’m not feeding it properly and rebel.

It’s supposed to be rainy and cold all week-UGH.  I have dance, a Christian Ed meeting one night and the LO’s ENT appt another.  I hate busy weeks LOL

My workout this morning kicked my butt.  Either I’m trying harder or my body is mad at me.  I only used 5 pound weights to try to rest a little this week.  By the end of 45 min even those were heavy.

Workout:

BL BootCamp

2 miles on treadmill

Walking

I have a new respect for Yoga.  I used to be one of those naesayers that thought if you didn’t sweat bullets it wasn’t worth it.  After doing the Biggest Loser Weight Loss Yoga for 3 weeks I have a new attitude.  It’s stll very hard AFTER 3 weeks.  I’m usually not breathing very heavy but every muscle (especially in my arms) are weak and shaking when I’m done.  Maybe it’s just Bob (the cutie HAHA) but damn it’s hard.  I start back running next week and am actually excited about that

The weather yesterday sucked so we didn’t do much.  The girls and I went shopping for summer clothes and couldn’t find hardly anything.  Most of the flip flops were sold out…one nice day and people go crazy.  I let them pick 2 shirts and I got some shorts for my oldest.  We met DH for lunch at Applebee’s.  I had a Quesidilla Burger with a side of steamed veggies.  I forgot to tell them no cheese so that was less than appetizing.  Now that I don’t really use cheese the texture of melted cheese is VERY gross to me.  The Burger it’s self was good…minus the pink parts-UGH.  I didn’t overeat or bloat but the heaviness made me feel sluggish which I am not used to and it didn’t help that I couldn’t go for a walk.  Then to make matters worse because of the storm our electricity went out and the oven was preheating and supper was sitting on the counter to go in the oven.  I also had apples cut up for homemade applesauce.  We ended up having sandwhiches and salad.  I was going to have a boca burger salad for a light supper since lunch was heavier (I need to mention that was my cheat meal for the week).  DH and I split a banana split. I only took about 6-8 bites and I told him to eat most of it.  I just wanted a little bit.

My eating has been good.  I no longer calculate EVERY calorie.  I do pay attention to what I eat and try to balance it out.  I do allow more treats but about 75% are made in a clean/healthy way.  I do better with small treats and don’t feel so deprived.

I got the 3rd Twiilight book from the library so I am off to read!

Workout:

Biggest Loser Weight Loss Yoga

20 minutes of stretching

Walking

Yesterday the weather was awesome…90’s with a light wind.  By 3 the wind had majorly picked up and we were headed for a spring storm.  I was planning on running outside this morning but I can hear the wind whipping around and it has thundered a few times.  I was hoping it would be nice enough to take the girls on the trail for awhile.  I can handle wind but NOT cold or rain LOL

We were also planning a little shopping trip because my oldest can’t fit into her shorts from last summer and my youngest is dying for a pair of flip flops and some tank tops!  I can’t believe how much my youngest has grown over the past year.  Her legs go on forever…at 5′1 I don’t think she gets it from me HAHA  I don’t have any denim shorts yet…just running shorts and work shorts so I’m on the hunt too.  I can’t usually find my size or my butt itsn’t covered because I can only find my size in the teen section.  I’m finding now that I’m older I somewhat like the bermuda shorts or ones that are just a little shorter than that.  I thought because I was so short they would look funny but my thighs actually look slimmer which is a PLUS.

I’m sore from lifting heavier this week and doing some boxing which I LOVED (surprised me).  I don’t really care for the kickboxing parts but I love to punch and jab LOL.  I’m starting to think about my next rotation and may be asking for some help designing a program.  I REALLY like my full body workouts since I work out at home and don’t have access to any machines.  I like my strength workout DVD’s too.  They give me fresh ideas and a steadier pace.

Workout:

5 mile WATP

????

Lots of walking

I survived my first full week of work.  The beginning of the week is the worst since I teach M-T-W nights.  By Thursday I seem to catch up.  The weather the past few days has been gorgeous.  I hope it continues into the weekend so the girls and I can go walk the trail.  I would prefer to run it…hmmm just had an idea…maybe my MIL can walk while I run…she lives about 1/2 block from the start of the trail.  Also if the weather is nice the girls and I can be outside.  I LOVE to sit in my lawn chair and read and go for walks.

My workout this morning was TOUGH but I feel GREAT.  My arms are still shaking but I made it through.  I AM getting stronger and slimmer.  I did the Jillian Michael’s one again.  It’s pretty intense but well worth it.  I like that there is no cardio.  I’m not big on cardio DVD’s-I’m too lazy.  Cardio machines or actual activities sit better with me.

Not much planned for the weekend for once!  I do have my mom’s class on Sunday which reminds me I need to finish the dance-GGGRRR.  I also need to get my house back in order. I will be washing bedding today.  I put the winter clothes away yesterday and got out some shorts for the girls.  I really just need to pick up in general.  I’m also working on my meal plan today or tomorrow.  Since I’m not home much our grocery bill went way down LOL but so did my food creativity   I’ll have to save my "creations" for the weekend.

Workout:

Jillian Michaels No More Trouble Zones

2 mile on Treadmill

Lots of Walking

I’m a little giddy today…I woke up with the urge to go running.  Maybe all hope isn’t lost.  I REALLY want to get outside and RUN.  I need about 15 minutes or earlier daylight to make it work.  I would say that should work in about 2 weeks or less.  It’s still a skosh chilly in the mornings but I will survive.

I feel like I’ve been eating too much lately (yeah right) and so I got on the scale this morning and I was actually down a little bit (I mean LITTLE).  I haven’t been overeating just eating more than I’m used to.  I’ve come to the conclusion 3 meals and 3 snacks work best for me.  It also helps to think of them that way instead of 6-7 mini-meals.  I just do better witht that line of thinking and it’s getting me to eat more and not stress out so much so I’m going with it.

I’m a little sore from my strength workout yesterday.  My shoulders are usually sore when I workout with more intensity.  I’m not going to run today because my body still needs the "rest" but I am planning on going for 5 miles outside on Saturday.  The girls are getting old enough to stay home for 15-20 minutes while I finish my run if DH has to leave.  I just run around outside our house on the loop so not too far away   I’m going to attempt the Biggest Loser High Intensity Cardio today.  The Low one about made me keel over so we’ll see LOL

Kids say the darndest things…

Yesterday while we were all listening to a story on the carpet my legs were getting sore so I leaned back on my arms.  A little girl about a foot away started staring at me and after a while I looked at her and smiled and she said "What is that on your shoulder?".  I looked and the strap from my tank underneath was sticking out.  "It’s just my shirt, I have on 2"  She keeps staring.  "No not that…on your shoulder" and she points from where she is sitting.  Still confused and getting a little annoyed I said "That’s just my shirt (referring to the edging on my shirt)"  She  said "No , THAT" and she pointed to/touched my collarbone.  I said "Oh it’s just a bone"  She says "Why do your bones stick out?"  I said "Just because" and then I smiled and she turned away. At dance I sat on the floor and looked in the mirror to see what she saw and when I was sitting back like that my whole clavicle/chest area caves in…probably scary to a little kid!!!

Workout:

3 mile WATP

Biggest Loser High Intense Cardio

Walking

I’m not sure if I’m going to survive the next 5 weeks.  My body is so worn down from being so tired and working out intensely.  I keep telling myself it’s only for a short while but I am so worn out.  I’m not overtraining just working too much.  My Mondays set my week up bad…I work from 9 am to 9 pm and I get up at 4 am to workout.  Now is the time to straighten out my head and eat more.  I know the extra fuel would really help and I’m sure that’s another reason I’m so worn down.  It’s hard to be at work all day and get the right amount of food.  I can’t eat in the middle of class (although I might be able to but have never tried?? because I’m too busy)  I’m not tired because of lack of sleep…I get at least 7 closer to 8 hours a night.  I’m tired because of all the activity and my body wants to sleep to compensate.  At this rate I’m going to have to sleep through summer to catch up.  I must look pretty worn out because my mom said to me last night "You look really tired"  and then she asked if I was going to make it these last 5 weeks.  In my mind I’m thinking BARELY.

I’ve been thinking a lot about my weight/body.  In all reality I’m not probably going to gain much fat since I do not over eat…EVER.  I need to find the balance so I can continue to gain muscle and not restrict my food.  I would have to eat 3500 extra calories a week or 700 a DAY to gain weight…um we all know that’s not likely.  LOL  I’m feeling better about myself the more I relax around food.  I still make very healthy choices and I love the way healthy food makes me feel but I’m ready to explore more foods…you know the ones I considered "cheat" foods but are really just food….ie grilled hamburgers, tacos (usually a salad)  I don’t have to eat 100% clean ALL the time.  I’m not a bodybuilder, I’m not a model.  I’m an active mom, wife, teacher who loves to be healthy and is trying to actively take steps to be and stay healthy.

Workout:

Resistance bench-1 set

Dumbbells- 1 set (used 10 pound ones and was surprised at the strength I have gained since I last used them-GO ME)

Stability Ball

My motivation to continue running is ZERO.  I have none!  Thinking ahead to the next 5K I usually run does nothing for me.  I’m not going to run anymore until I can get outside.  I’m ready for some distance running and 6-8 miles on the treadmill just about kills me. I’m also looking forward to getting back to the track for my speed workouts and the BLEACHERS for my BUTT!!!! My hamstrings are still as tight as can be.  They hurt so bad a few times yesterday they actually itched…that can’t be good can it HAHA  I’m just going to take running one day at a time.  I think I may just be in overworked mode.  With the heavier weight training and the intense running I think my body is worn down.  I’m tired all the time and don’t seem to be recovering as fast.  I’m afraid to cut back and lose all I’ve gained but in all honestly I looked better physique wise a few years ago when I was so hard and heavy at it with the weights.  I had a curve in my upper arm and little to no fat on my legs.  I will just keep moving forward and trying to listen to my body.

Work is going well.  We are out of the Honeymoon phase and into the real behavior.  I feel like all I say is "SSSHHH"  all day.  He TALKS all the time and sitting still after lunch is a huge chore.  He’s like a machine…refuel him with food and he’s off LOL  I do really like him and we get along well.  All in all I hope my job works out because I do enjoy it.  I felt my first pang of guilt yesterday about not being home at night with my girls and reinforces my need to stop teaching at night.  My oldest was bursting at the seems when she came in for Dance.."Mom, Guess What…I’ve been moved into the Accelerated Math program"  She had a huge grin and was super excited.  I hugged her and told her congrats and I was proud and then I had to start class so I couldn’t hear about it and after class she wanted to talk about it again and I couldn’t and I told her I would love to hear about it this morning.  I HATE that…I wanted to share in her moment right then and there.

Workout:

WATP 3 miles

2 miles on treadmill

Wakling and Dance class